Chapter 15: Chapter 15

Chapter 14

Vladimir’s POV

“We don’t respond to summons,” he said, laughing a bit. "We listen to prayers."

That is what he told me when I asked for ingredients to summon an angel. He said nothing else so I was forced to leave. I don’t usually do this, or let me say I’ve never done that in my whole life. Maybe I did, but wasn’t sincere because I never felt I needed to do this.

I went inside the church. First, I thought I would get burned. I thought there would be a strong force that would keep me inside but I was wrong, because I was free to enter inside the church.

The town was destroyed, but I figured out that this is the only place that stood still even after everything that happened. Angels must be guarding this place.

I stood on the side and thought of what I’m going to say. I still don’t know. I don’t know if he will listen to me, do I deserve to talk to him?

"I am still your child right, I am still your creation," I whispered. I walked in the aisle, and watched the people praying. I chose the seat in front, I knelt down like what they do. I even looked at the formation of people’s hands before I imitated it yet in the end I chose to be me.

I did not kneel, I sat and stared at him lying on the cross. Somehow, it made me chill. I don’t know, maybe I’m nervous because it’s my first time to visit him.

Vampires are his creation but they were believed to be the creation of Lucifer, but still Lucifer is his child. So are we.

“I mean no harm,” I said, stared at him, and I think I felt his stare too. “I don’t know if you still watch us, we vampires. If you do, then I’m proud because I know that I didn’t harm any human at my own will. And you know how we work hard to fit in the world you made for us. I know I did a lot of things that you may not be in favor of. It’s my first time to ask. Are you going to listen? ” I whispered, so hopeless. "Please, let me see her."

“Cassy, Angel Syne, or whatever you want to be called,” I looked both at my sides. “Can you hear me? Are we there or not? I can’t feel you. Please, I pray to you.” I closed my eyes and tried to feel her but I just couldn't. “Let me see you please. Hear me!”

“Let me just know if you are okay. Please, don’t leave me like this. I deserve to know everything. Will you please just give me that?”

"Don't leave me hanging."

I waited there for I don’t know how long but she didn’t appear in front of me. I want to lose hope but there must be a reason why. I went back to that man and I asked him how to summon an angel because Cassy is not responding to my prayers.

“Vampires don’t know how to wait, do they?” he looked at me intently. "She heard your prayers, I am sure of that."

"At least tell me how to summon an angel."

“You want to summon an angel? You want to summon Syne? ” he asked angrily. "You don't even know what you are talking about."

"Tell me!" I was already angry at him.

I just want to see Syne. Isn't not that possible? I am really annoyed right now. I want to know what happened to her. I wanted to see and hug her so bad.

“Stop the negative energy you are releasing, Fear. It’s hurting her.”

I could see the sadness in his eyes as he looked to my side.

“You are here beside me but I just can’t feel you. You’re hurting me too,” I told her and was about to cry but I decided to hold it.

"You cannot summon an angel without a witch's help." I heard him sigh. "If you summon Syne, you are also summoning Uriel."

"What do you mean?" I tried to remember it and yeah when I summoned Cassy before, Uriel was there. "Who are you?" I immediately said. “How can you say everything like you were there? I’ve been thinking of that.”

He smiled at me. "I was your guardian angel before I left my post and fell in love with your sister."

“My sister? Who— Anne! ” I remembered. When I was human, I remember having a sister and she was a writer during those times. She even used to -

"She used to tell you stories she wrote, right?" He pointed to the bookshelves. “Those were written there. When I left my post, Syne took over trying to find out why you don’t have a guardian angel. She found me, the rest is history.”

I stopped. I don’t know what to say. As time passed by, I became even more unable to absorb what was happening. I was confused and at the same time I was really frustrated. Why can’t she just show herself? Why, I’m getting mad because I don’t know what happened to her? Is she okay?

"Make your heart in peace and she'll show her face."

I tried to. For the past few days after that, I made myself calm. Somehow, I finally understood the reason why I needed to do so. She must be getting weaker and if she’s with me I am attracting too much negative energy that hurts her. She must have used too much of her power to save me, save us from the war, to stop the war.

The council is still in the process of restoring while the town is slowly returning to normal. People are recovering from what they thought was a disaster. Classes started to resume so I went back with Van and Via hoping to see her.

But I didn’t. Her friends kept on asking me where she was but I couldn’t answer because I don’t know. I’m just pretending to be her boyfriend. We were never official.

“I am just pretending but come on Cassy,” I whispered. “I am not even done with your bucket—“

Yeah. I smiled. Maybe this will make you see me.

I went home that day, got my guitar and searched for the song she used to sing to me but it was so long ago so I wasn’t able to find it. I tried remembering some of the lyrics in case I don't remember so I decided to find another song I want to dedicate to her in this lifetime. I got one and practiced for hours till I got satisfied. I’m pretty sure she is listening to me. I just want to see her and look at her eyes.

“Let me at least finish your bucket list before you leave me. Please? ” I whispered. For a while, I felt like I heard her but it must be my imagination.

I went to the amusement park with my guitar. I waited for people to run out before I approached the manager and asked if he could extend the closing hour for me because I want to rent the whole amusement park. Guess, I don’t have to use my power because he said yes and he let me go after I gave the payment.

I went to the ferris wheel. It automatically went up slowly as I entered. I got my guitar and started strumming.

“She’s always on my mind, from the time I wake up till I close my eyes,” I started singing to my heart’s content wishing that she’d hear me.

“She’s everywhere I go. She’s all I know. ~ ”

“And though she’s so far away. It just keeps getting stronger, every day. And even now she’s gone. I am still holding on, so tell me where do I start cause it’s breakin ’my heart, don’t want to let her go. ~ ”

“Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows. And maybe our hearts will find a way, only heaven knows. All I can do is to hope and pray, only heaven knows ~ ”

"I am praying to see you when I open my eyes."

I counted ten before doing so, hoping that at the end of my blurry sight she would be standing in front of me with a smile I’ve longed for. Yet, that didn’t happen.

What happened was I found her sitting right next to me. She glowed for a second and then it was gone. When she looked at me, I felt how tired she was. I automatically hugged her with a shock on my face when we touch.

“You are lighter than a feather,” I whispered. "What just happened?" I looked at her.

She gave me a sad smile. “I didn’t leave you alone. You just lost the ability to see me.”

She stared at my eyes, wiping those tears I didn’t even know existed. “I used a lot of my power during your war. It would take a lot of time for me to recover plus my broken wings so please just don’t, don’t make some negative energy.”

“I’m sorry. I just missed you. And I don’t understand why those negative ene— “

“I got punished for saving you, for leaving my post, for falling in love with you. Since then, I got to collect, feel, and see every bad dream of people who prayed to their guardian angel. Every negative energy of people near me, I feel them all, making me weaker as time goes by.”

“You - oh my -“ I hugged her even though it felt like I’m hugging the thin air. I can't feel her anymore, can't even smell the blood inside her. “I’m sorry. I don’t know.”

“It’s okay. It’s not your fault. So, will you promise me to always be okay and happy? For me?”

I nod. “I will. I promise. I love you. ” I kissed her forehead.

“Tell me, what you need to do. I’ll help you. What do you need to do to have your wings again? Is there someone who can heal you? Do you need your grace? Get it from me! It’s okay, my eyes- “

"Your eyes are already healed because of my grace, so you don't have to worry because even if you lose my grace you will still be able to see."

"Then get it from me, heal yourself with your grace so you can fly back home."

"It's useless," she shook his head. "My grace can heal my wings but it won't save me."

“What would save you?”

She stared back into my eyes. I saw how her black eyes turned into ocean blue, which made my right eye burn a little as she whispered, “You are the only one who could save me.”