Chapter 34: Chapter 34

Samara's POV

This can't happen!

"What are you saying?" I frowned at the question

He turned to Grandpa and asked in surprise, "You didn't tell her already?"

"My apologies King Luhence," I raised my hair as he called Lu — Dwight's father "We forgot to tell her about it. We are too busy training and preparing the princess in becoming a Queen," Grandpa

Luhence's father just smiled then turned, "It's okay but I'm still looking forward to it Queen Samara. We waited this for years,"

I can't look at Dwight properly. All my training is about hiding emotions. Disappears when he is in front of me. I couldn’t help but be nervous.

"Well. I'm overwhelmed. I don't know that I had a very beautiful fiancè King Fernan. You're beyond gorgeous tonight my Queen,"

None of my own turned to him and our gazes locked. I want to repent but it's too late. I couldn't even take my gaze away from his blue eyes. Then he smiled. Like before. As if nothing had happened.

"Im very sure you two can produce the most beautiful babies among other kingdoms!" Aunt Liana said kindly that I was shocked

Babies?

My cheeks got hot so I averted my gaze. They invited us to sit at a large table and deliberately set Dwight next to me. My face was blank and I remained silent despite their conversation. I finished eating when Dwight spoke which stopped everyone especially me

"May I have this dance my Queen?"

I feel like I'm crazy there just staring at him. If he hadn’t already touched my hand I would have remained sitting there while staring at him. Embarrassing! He took me to the center where some were dancing to melodious music. I shuddered when I felt him touch both of my waists. I had no choice but to put my two hands on his shoulders.

With eyes locked we swayed in the romantic music engulfying the whole area. Being those close to him makes me heart beats wilder inside my chest. While dancing to music. I could see the sadness on his face.

"I'm sorry my lady blue," my heart raced "I didn't tell you about Princess Christine because I don't want you to go away. I became selfish and I'm really sorry. Forgive my lady,"

I could see the pain in his eyes but my expression remained blank "Prince Dwight," he was stunned.

I went on to say, "I can forgive you but I can't marry you,"

Luhence's POV

'I can't marry you'

Four simple words

It was just words but it tear my heart into pieces. I stopped swaying to the music and just stare at her. My hand automatically dropped from holding her because of pain and disappointment.

She doesn't want to marry me?

Why?

Is it because I lied?

But I say sorry?

"Don't do this to me my lady. You're killing me," I said in a low voice, my heart breaking

He averted his eyes and I felt unwanted. For the first time in my life. I feel worthless. I felt insecured. What's wrong with me? Do I caused her too much pain because of lying? What?

"I-I don't understand my lady .... I love you and I fully aware of my mistake but ..... why can't you just marry me? Don't you love?" I trailed off me

My face become void of emotion when I realized something. I saw her froze, "I remember. You never love me,"

"D-Dwight—,"

I don't want came into me but I had these feelings urging me to kissed her. Maybe because Im hoping that if I did this. She'll realize she loved me and take the words back but I assumed wrong. She didn't respond to the kiss and it hurts as f-ck!

I pulled away from her, "I'll see you some other time Queen Samara,"

Samara's POV

The weight of my chest as Dwight left me in the middle. I know I hurt him but I have to do that. I love her. But Ihmapuleya needs me now. I don't want to get married and rely on him for the trouble of the kingdom. This is my turn to raise my country and I'll do it by myself.

I went back to my seat and remained silent despite their happy stares and stories. Until someone approached us, Lady Son, with a serious face. He approached me then whispered.

"Your Majesty Zairo is in your office," Lady Son

I stood up and formally said goodbye to them then went to the office. I stopped in front of the door and then two soldiers opened it. He stood up quickly and bowed slightly when I went inside. I didn't flinch any more and he immediately asked.

"What did you find out?"

His harmfree face turned blank and cold, "Minister Costomo was stealing millions every month in the palace and he'd been doing this since King Magnus died. They're illegally accepting trades and making business transactions allowing some businessmen to build their company where some poor people live in exchange of money. Because it was affecting the kingdom's finance, it was consider stealing. Not just that, because it was illegal, they were able to evict the people living on the land where they would build the business, meaning to say my majesty, there have been a lot of people who are homeless because they don't have a good job that can support them and can't earn money to rent even an apartment, "

Intense anger enveloped me. How can he do such things? I want to punish him! Choke! But I need to calm down. I turned around and closed my eyes to calm myself. Maybe that’s what I could do to him when I couldn’t control myself. It'll be a total scandal since I'm celebrating my coronation tonight.

"What are we going to do, my majesty?" Zairo

"He needs warning Zairo. A horrendous one," I calmly answer

"What is that supposed to mean my majesty?" Zairo

"You'll see Zairo," You'll see how I'll make them suffer in the expulsion of the people of Ihmapuleya

"If that so. Call me, your highness. I'll provide everything you without hesitation," Zairo

I nodded to him, "You can leave. It's too late at night. Maybe you'll be the one to do it. Just give me all the names of those illegal businessmen and I'll take care of it. All you have to do is take care of it." to spy Costomo for awhile cause I will take action tomorrow, "

He half smile, "You're a very ideal Queen, your highness. You always put other people first before yourself,"

I smiled at him, "That's my job Zairo and I love helping them,"

He stood up then bowed slightly and said goodbye. Extreme silence enveloped me. Suddenly Dwight entered my mind. I sighed. I want to hug him. Say I love him and everything is okay but something is holding me back.

Maybe that's the call of duty. I know that I will not be able to carry out my leadership well if we get married right away, especially since I have just been installed on the throne. I'm just starting to fix Ihmapuleya and I have a lot of dangerous things to do and dragging Dwight to this mess won't do any good.

He will only ruin marrying me

So even though I love him, I have to let him go.

With the amount of trouble going through my mind and at the party I felt exhausted. I sighed in tiredness. I approached the door then went out. I acted well but Lady Son knew me too much to convince her.

"You'd better rest, Your Majesty. I know you're tired of what happened today," Lady son

"It's still good. I have a lot more important things to do tomorrow,"

Just like surprising Minister Costomo

I was walking towards my room when I saw Dwight snorting. His gaze was blank on me but when he saw Lady son as well as the other maids and soldiers, he smiled as if he was okay.

They bowed when they saw Dwight, "Good evening Prince Night,"

"Same here lady son. It's good to see you again,"

I was stunned. Will they meet? But how?

"How did you meet?" I can't grind the question

"You see, my lady, we haven't been born yet. They have already agreed to marry us. Your father and my father were good friends. They want their kingdoms to unite but that didn't happen. I'd been visiting Ihmapuleya hoping that they already find you but I stopped lately because they decided to marry Princess Christine instead of you, "he explained

Ly is right. It was an arrange marriage. No feelings involved. But why? During those times I didn't know who I was. He knew he was going to get married and disobeying the order was subject to severe punishment. Why? Does he love me so much that he forgets his responsibilities to me?

I felt guilt. I realized that Luhence had already done a lot for me but the three words he wanted to hear. I didn't even do it. But this is not the right time to admit to him.

"Can I talk to you my lady?" He asked weakly

I could feel Lady son's gaze on me and I knew he could see that there was something different between the two of us. I ignored what he was thinking and nodded at Luhence.

"In my room,"

I frowned as he stopped slightly when he followed me until we reached my room and entered there. Because I am comfortable in his presence. I took the crown on my head, laid it on the vanity table and removed my hair from the messy bun.

"I love you,"

My heart automatically increased its normal beats as I heard those words from him again. I looked at him and only then did I realize that we were so close. Our eyes met and I instantly felt lost.

"I love you so much that I don't want to let you go anymore though it hurts as hell. But I what can I do? If letting you go mean happiness to you. Im willing to do it my lady. Just tell me , "

My heart broke. My chest tightened when I saw how he was hurt because he himself uttered words.

"Luhence ....,"

I cant think a words to say. Im speechless, hurt and guilty. I want him to stay by my side. I want to be with him. I want to erase the sadness and bitterness in his eyes. But he doesn't want to be ruined and that should dominate me.

But can I also see him hurt?

I averted my eyes as I could no longer bear his stare. No. I have to stand for this. When I show even a little love. I know he won't leave my side and that can't happen!

Because he'll be damned until I fix the mess!

"I'm sorry," I whispered softly

I gritted my teeth to stop my tears to fall out from my eyes when a single drop of tear fell from his. Im so sorry Luhence. Forgive me but this is the right thing to do right now.

"It hurts my lady," he muttered

I can't think of any other way to get rid of the pain he's feeling now, "Hurt me then Luhence. To make it ev—,"

"I'm sorry my lady but I don't hurt woman. I'd never hurt one before because my mother taught me to love and respect them. I can never hurt you lady blue because you are not just a woman. You are my life, "He averted his eyes." But my life wants nothing from me, "

"Then do anything to make it even. Because I have no other idea how to get rid of the disease,"

He looked back at me and I saw his cheeks were very wet. That’s all I knew. Men are better able to hide their emotions than our women but from what I see now in Luhence. Not all of them. And it hurts me too much to see him like this because he won't cry if he doesn't hurt too much. And that pain was caused by me.

"Don't push me away. Let me see you because I don't know what will happen to me if you forbid me to see or talk to you. Don't kill me my lady..cause Im already dying,"

I nodded to him, "You know I wouldn't do that," I asked weakly

There's a sign of relief in his eyes and that's enough for me to make sure that he'll be okay. My eyes closed automatically as he caressed my face. In less than a minute I felt his warm kisses that I'm not sure I'll taste again.

"This isn't a goodbye my lady blue,"

To be continued...