Chapter 109: Chapter 109
''Don't you dare go near her...'' Eren stared at Sara, confused, wondering what did she mean as she growled the words, her? the princess? Did she think he cared about the redheaded princess when his fair lady, his everything, was standing right in front of him? she looked furious, her pure eyes flashing with animalistic anger, something he never witnessed in her eyes before, and he couldn’t help but think, that she looked so beautiful, even with her vivid scars, it was just…so perfect and dark, as if he was seeing his own reflection on her beautiful self, and the thought of him and her combined in one made his heart go wild as he regretted releasing her from his hold so fast, before he could have enough of her, of her smell, of her warmth, of her proximity.
Nevertheless, Eren knew it was the wrong time to admire her beauty and let his imagination fool him, for he did sense the fire burning under her skin heating up the entire room, as well as the intensified gravity, he felt himself grow heavier than what his feet could carry, her anger was dangerous, but not just on him, but on herself, he couldn’t let her harm herself, not for him, if ever, and therefor fought the need to fall on the ground and relieve his knees from all the weight, he stood tall against her, and used his own magic to nullify hers.
“You son of a bitch!” Sara took a threatening step towards him, enraged by his resistance, by his strength, and by his pride, ignoring how his eyes went dark and his anger steered when he heard her talk badly about his mother, she was too angry to care, and even if she wasn’t, she would have still said the same words if it meant hurting him.
Eren on the other hand swallowed the insult and calmed his darkness, it was the very first time he allowed someone who dared insult his mother to live, he had killed many for smaller hints about her, the woman who suffered more anyone he knew, maybe more than his fair lady herself, he just, couldn’t do the same to Sara, his beloved, for it was her, and at the same time, he knew she would have never said something similar if it wasn’t for his deeds, if it wasn’t for him hurting her and breaking her in the first place, he was the one who sullied her pure and kind heart, and therefore understood her reaction, her anger, her hatred, and her desire to have him dead, or at least hurt.
''I will make you regret your existence if you touched a single strand of her hair...''
''I have no interest in your sister, Sara, listen to me...''
''Listen? To you?'' Sara scoffed, her eyes were filled with a bitter pain before she hid it, for she had realized that she needed more strength to defeat the shadows’ lord, a strength she knew she possessed but didn't know how to control, not yet at least, she knew if she continued to let her emotions control her and provoke the sleeping beast under the veil, she will end up hurting herself and everyone else in the castle except for the staunch demon standing next to her.
She wasn’t going to let him play with her emotions again, Sara told herself as she calmed herself, her face turning expressionless as she put back her mask, the stoic and indifferent Dahlia’s mask, the one she had been wearing for the last two years, like an armor that protected and hid her from everyone, including her past.
''The only thing I’m willing to listen to, is the sound of your pain filled screams, the sound of your breaths dying, the sound of your disgusting existence leaving this world, and I will hear them one day, a very soon day...''
''We are all going to die one day, including myself...'' Sara's words felt like daggers to Eren's heart, especially with that cold look on her face, it felt almost…dead, and he hated it, he hated how expressionless and indifferent she looked, making the words colder and more painful, because she wasn’t saying them while angry and screaming, she didn’t say them when she was blinded by rage, she said them while calm, meaning every single one of them, she hated him, so hard it changed her, it changed the sweet innocent girl she used to be into a cold and hateful woman, a very beautiful but hateful woman whom he didn't love any less.
'' Better be by your hands, It would be the best way to go for me...'' Eren's words were few but his eyes said way more, his affection, love, regret, remorse, were all obvious in his eyes, he never looked at anything like that, Hell he never cared about anything the way he cared about her, he felt like he was looking at his entire world, only that his world was looking at him with nothing but hatred and ice.
His world was broken and frozen.
''If you want to kill me, then so be it, but I am not going to die while I know you are not safe, I am not going to allow myself to die while I know there are people out there who wants you dead and I am not going to let you hurt yourself in an attempt to kill me...''
''I don't need you, I don't need your lies, and I don't need your existence around me, just stay away from my sister, don't you dare use your poison against her, or I swear with my father that I will burn you to ashes even if it burned me with you as well...'' Sara spat her words with so much venom before walking forward, passing him by without sparing him another glance, it was painful to look at him, as it only reminded her of the way she once felt for him, the handsome man who saved her from the river and then broke her heart and burned it remains, and while he stood there in all his glory, as handsome as ever, stronger than ever, she was but a broken thing with nothing to live for but her sister and her revenge, a revenge she failed on getting, miserably, she felt her insides bleeding while he stood perfectly in front of her, it was maddening, and instead of staying with him in a single room, she chose to leave, not just the room, but the castle, she couldn't allow her anger to control her any longer, she knew it would only kill her and everyone around her, it would have been okay if she was alone in that castle with the shadows’ lord, maybe the ice queen as well, but the castle was full of innocents, including her sister.
Eren on the other hand, didn't try to stop nor follow her, the moment she left the room his knees gave up on him, and every cell in his body was screaming in pain, he groaned in pain while placing his hand on the place where Sara’s assault pierced him, it felt so painful, but he smiled, then giggled like a child, he didn't care about the pain, he didn't mind her hating him or wanting him dead, not right then, he chose to forget it all for a minute and just allow himself to be happy, nothing mattered but the fact she was alive, broken, frozen, hateful, but alive, raising his head up, Eren felt a tear rolling on his cheek, a tear of relief, of happiness, he felt himself alive, for the first time in so long, for she was alive, her scent was everywhere around him and he never felt more hungry for air as he breathed it all in, letting it confirm, just like the pain, that she was indeed alive.
''I've missed you, My fair lady...'' Eren whispered, to no one in particular, with the same happy smile on his face, taking a decision of what to do, Eren got up on his feet and slowly walked towards the door, filling his lungs with her scent once more, but before he could take a single step, the entire castle shook violently, and the smell of fire and smoke filled his nostrils, as well as the familiar smell of a certain weasel.