Chapter 32: Chapter 32

FREYA

I had a troubled look on my face as I paced back and forth in my room. Though I was certain that things wouldn't go according to my plan, I couldn't help but wonder if Lucius would be able to live tomorrow. I was aware that over the preceding few days, he hadn't progressed as much as he ought to have. It appears that more fussing will ensue than I had anticipated. Since that's what was stated in the book, I assumed that he was a, but it appears that I was mistaken. I had to admit that I understood what was happening.

I was aware that he could have made significant progress if he had been as described in the book, but his improvement is not commensurate with that of a fighter. Even though I understood that none of this should concern me at this point, it did. My concern is not only for my friend's life but also for my own emotional state. With his skills, I knew he wouldn't be able to keep up with the alphas. I have seen him a few times when he was in training, and I also knew that if I brought him up against one of my elite fighters, he would not be able to prevail.

I'm afraid and unsure of what to do. The leader of the council has been pleading with me to stop this, but he doesn't seem to be listening. I was aware that if I attempted or did anything foolish, I might not only lose my life but also that Lucius would perish with me. I am aware that I lead the strongest pack in the nation, but that doesn't negate the councils' power over me. I was aware that my councilor pack was stronger than most of the others. I was aware that the councils couldn't reverse the majority of what I could accomplish, but I still revered the moon goddess and didn't want to disobey any of her laws.

She requested that we show the councilman respect, and I don't want to do anything that would infuriate her. She was feared by all alphas and even the council men. Even in the midst of disputes amongst alphas, she is the reason the werewolves continue to live in harmony and peace. Alphas don't desire the moon goddess' rage; instead, we desire calm. We wish to avoid doing anything that will incite the moon goddess' wrath.

Although I was aware that Lucius might not make it through the battle, I was also confident that everything would work out as I had always desired if the moon goddess was on our side. Despite this knowledge, I am nevertheless afraid. I was certain that if the moon goddess wasn't behind our romance, then things would not work out. I sense that the moon goddess is rooting for our romance in my stomach. The fact that the moon goddess had selected him to be my mate gave me complete confidence that everything would work out.

I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I was unaware when my room's door opened. I felt hands on my shoulder and was startled out of my reverie. I immediately recognized the man as Lucius because of the way his aroma flooded my nose. When I looked back to see who it was, it was Lucius, just as I had suspected. Knowing that my chances of being with him are slim, I gave him a somber smile. If it had been revealed that he had discovered his abilities, I would have felt more at ease or worry-free.

"What's up with you being lost in thought?" I let out a deep breath and gave Lucius a little smile in response to his question. I was twitching my ears, indicating how anxious I was about what awaited me tomorrow. Even though I have no idea what might occur tomorrow, I don't feel secure in that knowledge.

I was aware that I would not be able to go if there was a fortune teller there who could foretell or tell what would happen tomorrow. I have no desire to discover the details of tomorrow's events. I'm afraid that whatever is presented to me tomorrow won't be what I desire. I was aware that my desired outcome might not materialize. I hope something enigmatic could occur and seize control of the head council; I want the item to force him to put an end to everything that is about to transpire. However, I knew that nothing significant would occur, and I regret that.

"I don't know; I'm just concerned about tomorrow."

When I told him the truth about what to expect, he let out a long sigh and cupped my face in his hands. I was staring him in the eyes as soon as he turned my face to meet his. We made eye contact, and I could see the excitement pulsing through my skin as his eyes glowed with intensity. As soon as our eyes locked, I wanted to be near him. I was aware that things could go wrong or be different from what I had planned for tomorrow, but despite everything, I would always remember my partner's sacrifice for my companionship. I would never forget him, and I would take care to never fall in love again.

I would make sure that I never let anyone in on my feelings and that, even beyond this life, I never forget him. I hope that if we are meant to mate in the hereafter, we will be typical pack members and that nothing will stand in our way of becoming partners. I was aware that the moon goddess had to have had a purpose for matching us. I prayed that he would live tomorrow and defeat all the Alphas in the duel because I knew that the moon goddess' motivation for having us mate had to be permanent.

I was aware that it couldn't work because alphas are difficult to work with and that they might even murder him. Though I thought I should be optimistic, I want Lucius to disprove my assumptions tomorrow. I was aware that someone might be killed in a fight if they are unwilling to back down, which is something I don't want for any of us. I was aware that Lucius might not give up lightly and that his life might be in danger.

"You shouldn't be concerned. "Everything would be fine, and I'll try my hardest to win the duel," Lucius stated, his expression uncertain. I just wanted to see him through, even though I knew he doubted himself too. If he manages to make it through everything, I'll be happy.

I was immersed in my own thoughts and had no idea when tears were coming down my cheeks. My tears, which I had always kept hidden and referred to as "golden tears," are suddenly visible to him. I had always assumed that no one would be able to see me cry. It was only when the salty liquid on my tongue contacted my tongue that I realized the tears streaming down my face had stopped. I can feel the affects of the tears in my eyes becoming murky.

I didn't care whether he was crying with me at that time; all I wanted was to cry myself into a stupor because I was so upset that this might be our last encounter. All I want is for all of my inner aspirations to come true, which is to stop all of this from happening.

"Freya, don't cry; things would be better," Lucius said, gazing intently into my eyes as though he could see right through me. He cleans my face of the tears that are falling uncontrollably and uses his hands to caress it.

He was able to clean everything, but I could still taste salt, and all I could think of was how to put an end to this. There is nothing I could do to persuade the top council to reconsider, as much as I would like to. The last time I visited him, he said something that I could still recall. He made it very evident that he would not be changing his mind and that my mate would back down the moment he learned about the duel. My mate is just interested in power, he informed me. Though I was aware that he wasn't interested in power or anything else, I also understood that he didn't trust my partner or other things.

I turned to face Lucius as soon as I felt his scorching breath on my face. At that moment, I observed that he was approaching me with his lips, and I'm sure he intended to kiss me. Unexpectedly, when I raised my head, my lips met his.