Chapter 11: Chapter 11

LUCIUS

I was confused, knowing that my companion had looked in on me while I was sleeping. I had no idea what to do. I sensed a physical drain on my abilities. I knew that anything I asked of her would infuriate her, and moreover, I knew that I now knew her true intentions, so I felt compelled to find out.

She had expressed a desire for me to accept her, but I refused to do the same as I was already engaged to someone else and I was in love.

I was forced to explain that I believed her to be Selene, even though I knew there was nothing I could say or do to justify what I had done the day before. Furthermore, I have no idea why I did what I did yesterday.

I'm walking back and forth in my room in the morning. She knew that I was going to be leaving shortly, but I couldn't understand why she would come look at me. Although I too don't want to leave, I knew that I had to go regardless of the circumstances because of Selene. I knew, as much as I did, that she would be devastated at not having seen me for so long. We are engaged, so I'm not thrilled that we will continue to live apart from one another. I knew thinking about her was harsh, but there's nothing I can do about it. I have someone I'm getting married to shortly, so I know I can never be with my mate, and pushing myself on her isn't a good idea either.

I'm getting married to someone, and I knew she would find someone else soon. She seems to have lied to her parents about everything, in my opinion. She seems to have done that solely intentionally. In an attempt to get her parents to stop berating her for what she did, she claimed that As I was ignorant of her motivations, I had been under the impression that they were distinct. I couldn't help but be impressed by my friend's dishonesty.

I was aware that she wouldn't have hurt me or brought me here by force if she had truly wanted to accept me. My temper flared, and I made a promise to break away from the pack as quickly as possible. I had a strong desire to be far away from my partner. She would want to take advantage of me in order to achieve her goals, and when people would believe I was mistaken, she would eventually reject me. I looked out the window and felt my heart pound.

I needed something to help me relax after everything that has been going on. I'm holding out a glimmer of hope that she's telling the truth rather than lying. From the way she behaved around me, I realized that she wasn't ready to accept me, even though I tried so hard to think that she wanted to.

I was so angry that I balled up my fist, thinking about all the ways she may want to take me in. Should I grant her request? Is it possible for me to become her mate? And what would happen to Selene? The ideas that kept coming to me were uncontrollable. I was aware that there was no way I could accept her back, even if she did accept me. I was aware that my desires did not align with my actions. Despite everything I've stated about her and the fact that she doesn't want to, I still want her to accept me.

I knew that once she accepted me, I would break her heart because I already had a fiancée, and there would be no turning back. My mind was uncontrollably racing. I was doing the exact same thing as her, so I couldn't understand why I was upset with her. Although I'm aware that he would reject me in favor of someone else because I already have a partner, the idea bothers me.

"What could be wrong with me?" I put my hands on my chin and thought.

As my wolf said, "You are in love with her, and the only thing you can do is tell her," I rolled my eyes. That surprised me, but I knew it could be true, even though I don't want to accept it. I was taking deep breaths and trying to settle myself down; I was becoming more at ease every second.

I let out a big breath and fixed my intense gaze on the sky. I was unable to stop staring at the sky. While I continued to gaze up into the sky, I felt a bird swoop by. The bird had a familiarity that I couldn't shake. My heart is pounding quickly. My thoughts drifted to the bird that Selene and I owned. We purchased those birds, and I couldn't shake the feeling that it was the one. I was aware that calling it was the only way to determine whether or not it was the one. I searched everywhere, but I couldn't locate the bird. I'm going to do that even though I know that if the bird is around, I'll be able to see the results of my test.

I whistled while putting my index fingers in my mouth. I looked around for a long time without seeing it. A few stray tears leaked out of my eyes as my heart ached. I quickly covered my eyes since I didn't want anyone to see it.

I've made my way to my chamber and sit melancholy on the bed. The birds looked exactly like the ones Selene and I owned, even though I knew they weren't the same. Since our pack is not close to the Dark Stream pack, I knew that the bird we had would not be the one. I was positive that the bird needed to be released from its cage in order for it to depart.

I got out of bed and started toward the restroom, but I got sidetracked when I heard a sparrow chipping behind me. I was astounded by what I heard. Not only did I hear the bird's speech, but as I turned to look at it, my shocked eyes grew wide.

Tell me this isn't the same bird I purchased, please. I looked astonished as I fixed my gaze on the bird. Though I needed to double check, I had a feeling it might be the one. Perched on the window frame was a bird. I whistled, and the bird immediately flew in my direction. It landed on my hands when I extended my hand. It was clearly made by Selene when I noticed a letter affixed to its legs as it was flying in my direction.

After removing the letter from the bird's claws—which it had been using to cling onto it—I took it and set it on the window side.

My eyes widened with delight. When I found out who had sent the letter, I was giddy with anticipation. Though I was quite confident it was Selene, I wanted to double check, and I'm delighted it is. The fact that she didn't forget about me made me pleased. My heart began to race at the concept, but I'm delighted she remembers me even when I'm far from her. I knew she must have been concerned about me because she had written to me. She would have been looking for a means to get to this place.

After what she did, I couldn't help but adore her even more. Although I haven't read the letter yet, I assumed it would contain some information on how I'm doing and other similar topics. I was aware of her concern for me. I decided to read the letter after taking a morning bath because I knew I didn't want to read it just yet. I let the letter fall near the bird.

I told the bird, "Guide and protect this letter like your life depends on it," and I went into the restroom. I take a bath and clean my teeth. I put a towel around my waist and left the restroom. After washing and drying myself, I dressed and went to the location where I had left the note with the bird perched above it.

When I opened the letter, the first thing I read nearly brought me to tears. I could sense the anxiety in her writing and the concerns she had about my presence. I understood that her only concern was if I was receiving unjust treatment here. I was aware that she might come here and create a disturbance if I told her all I was going through, which could land her in hot water. As I read the note, I couldn't help but smile at how well she took care of me.