Chapter 48: Chapter 48

"Say it!" he growled menacingly and tugged at my hair even harder, causing me to whimper softly and my head to pound.

"Fuck me, please," I breathed and he immediately let go of me and pushed my upper body forward to penetrate me from behind with such force that it just hurt like hell.

He controlled the rhythm of this disgusting act with his hands on my bottom and penetrated me harder and faster while his moans got louder and louder.

I just wanted to drift away in my mind, far far away from here, and closed my eyes until I opened them again in desperation as I felt my orgasm slowly coming.

I tried to fight that feeling, didn't want to climax with him inside me, didn't want to give him that satisfaction, and just hoped he'd finish faster... but that didn't happen.

I pressed my lips together in frustration, making sure not to let out a loud moan as I dug my fingernails into the couch and my muscles contracted around his cock, causing Pablo to immediately slow the pace.

"Ohhh my beauty," he moaned triumphantly, enjoying to the fullest that he had made me cum by slowly sliding himself into me over and over again, making my climax so painfully long that I cum couldn't help but groan.

Only when my body had calmed down again, the waves of the climax disappeared, did it take care of itself and claimed my body for hours that night in order to break me completely...

The next morning came and I was still lying awake on the leather couch with Pablo lying next to me in my arms with his head resting on my chest.

I ignored his existence as best I could and looked out the window, lost in thought, to watch numbly as it got lighter and brighter outside until Pablo slowly woke up too and got up from me, yawning.

"You should go now," he said quietly, kissing my breasts a few times before getting off the couch to wrap his towel around his waist.

"But what about Benjamin?" I jumped up desperately and looked into his eyes pleadingly. I wanted to stay here, no matter what the price.

"Love, it's enough if you see him every few days in the evening. Show me that everything works in the club and then you can come more often."

He gave me a serious look and was about to turn away when I jumped off the couch and clung to his broad back.

"Please, Pablo," I whispered as seductively as I could, praying that I could at least see my angel for a moment. I would give myself up completely, just for a moment to look my son in the eye.

My hand ran down his side until I slipped it under his towel to cup his already stiff erection between my fingers.

"I'm your queen," I whispered in his ear with a trembling voice and then looked towards the bedroom door full of hope, but he grabbed my hand and turned to warn me, which made me gasp in shock.

"Don't think you could pretend anything for me. I'm too smart for that and you too naive, so now get dressed and go. I decide when you can see him, not you," he explained calmly and tearfully I pulled myself then reluctantly put my dress on while he watched me do it.

"Don't cry now. You know, I can't see you crying," he whispered and wanted to touch my face, but I angrily slapped his hand away and ran to my coat to put it on as well. It was hard enough to pretend to him like that. Not to show him all my disgust, he didn't have to treat me like a stupid child.

He had me in his hand and I could do nothing but obey him, he knew that.

"Be on time tonight," he called after me as I stormed into the apartment angrily, and it really took all my self-control not to slam the door behind me so loudly that the whole house would have trembled.

After leaving the house of demons where my little angel was being held captive, I immediately felt this freezing cold blowing through my cloak. I started shaking and took a step faster just to escape my own messed up life...

Was it asking too much to let me see Benjamin?

He probably wanted to get excited about how helpless I was at his mercy and reveled in his power over me. This lousy piece of shit.

Completely overwhelmed by my despair, I wiped the tears from my face and then arrived at my prefabricated building after what seemed an infinitely long time.

I unlocked the door with trembling hands, then entered my apartment and immediately frantically ripped my clothes off.

Everything about me disgusted me. Everything about me smelled like Pablo and I quickly ran to my bathroom to jump in the shower and turn on the hot water.

I felt like I had to shower forever because no matter how many times I spread my shower gel over my body and washed off, the disgust just wouldn't go away.

After my skin was already flushed from the heat of the water, I got out of the cabin in frustration and ran back into the room completely naked to glance at the clock.

7 o'clock ...

Then I just let myself fall on my bed, powerless, exhausted and completely overwhelmed, pulled the blanket around my body, which seemed strange to me, and tried to sleep, which luckily I managed to do quickly.

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When I woke up again, I rolled onto my back and still stared wearily at the white ceiling above me.

It wasn't a dream. My son was really alive and I had the opportunity to be close to him, only I had to completely give up myself and my idea of ​​a happy life...

I checked the clock and it was midday when I got up and changed into underwear, gray jeans and a heavy light blue sweater. My hair was now dry again and when I put on my shoes and coat, I quickly left my apartment to set off on my daily route.

The sky above me was gray, as always, and the air whipped coldly into my face, as always... but as I slowly strolled towards the harbor, I suddenly felt a warmth that I could hardly explain. I literally felt how all my muscles relaxed and also that my thoughts didn't seem as dark and desperate as before.

Confused, I was already doubting myself and when I turned the next corner and already saw the harbor with all its small trading ships, I stopped in shock.

"Reahlyn," I breathed, feeling a happy smile spread across my face without my being able to control it.

He just stood there, leaning against his motorcycle, wearing jeans and a black hoodie, which just made him look incredibly handsome. I almost felt like I was imagining it, but then he slowly walked toward me, my heart beating a little louder with each step he took. It was that connection he was talking about, I was sure of that, but I loved him and with his appearance I left all the burden behind except for Benjamin, who was deep in my heart.

"Hey, little one," he smiled and gave me a gentle kiss on my forehead while I closed my eyes and just enjoyed the warmth that emanated from him to the fullest. It was so incredibly good...

"Hey, big guy," I smiled and looked up into his beautiful blue eyes, which looked at me with admiration.

"Fancy a ride?"

"I can't," I choked out exhaustedly and immediately saw how much it hurt him. "I have to take something to eat for a very good friend. You're more than welcome to accompany me."

He relaxed immediately and showed me his carefree smile that made my stomach tingle with its beauty. I loved that feeling because it was real...

We strolled side by side, our hands touching briefly every now and then, which made me look up at him uncertainly. He also seemed kind of shy, but that was probably because of me and not because of his character. How often have we had such a good time, which was then interrupted far too quickly by me and my fears. He certainly didn't want to risk me escaping again.

As we walked silently to Josh's mom, she looked back and forth between us, smiling, before giving me a wink that made my face blush.

Was it that obvious how I felt about him?

I nervously pointed to some fish, which she then, still smiling, wrapped up and handed to me. Just as I was about to pay, however, Reahlyn came first and covered the cost, which made me give him a grateful look.

"Have a nice day, both of you," she said goodbye and we walked towards Willy together.

"Say, Reahlyn," I started the conversation, looking over at him questioningly. "How did you know I was coming over here?"

He shook his head with a smile and then looked at me dreamily.

"I always feel where you are, remember, little one?"

I immediately had to smile too, if only because I remembered what he really was.

"As if I could forget that," I rolled my eyes in amusement and briefly remembered the feel of his fur under my fingers.

The mood between us was really balanced, calming and just beautiful, even if I was a bit nervous. After all, my heart kept beating uncontrollably as soon as he even touched me lightly or looked at me in that magical way.

"Are you maybe planning to throw me into the harbor somewhere?" he then asked into the silence after a while, looking around questioningly.

Yes, the area really wasn't nice. If you stuck your nose in the wrong direction, there was an unpleasant smell of leftover fish and other disgusting things, but Willy was at home here.

"Do you think I even have the strength to do that?" I tried to joke, which promptly made him scoop me up into his arms, making me yelp all over again while clutching the fish in my hand tightly because that would be it almost gone flying.

"Hardly," he smiled down at me, coming so close to my face that I held my breath in anticipation...

That moment, shitty as the surroundings seemed, made my heart skip a beat as my eyes locked on his and our lips almost touched.

Time stood still and I felt this breathtaking warmth that took over everything in me. In addition, his breath on my skin, which sent goosebumps down my arms. My body reacted so madly to just that touch from him... It was unbelievable...

"You'd have to train a little more for that," he then grinned and carefully put me back on my feet. I stood frozen and it took me a moment to get my feelings under control again before I walked on beside him, unable to think about anything but his lips on mine.

It struck me how absolutely strong this attraction to him was. I couldn't think of anything else in his presence than being happy with him. It was really crazy, but crazy good, because he just pulled me out of the cycle of my shitty life with his presence and without wanting to take advantage of him.

"Love," I heard Willy call from afar when he saw me and he immediately got up from the cold ground to take a few steps towards us. "Where were you yesterday? I was so worried!"