Chapter 41: Chapter 41

Days rolled, weeks waved and in a blink of an eye, two months kissed my lips. I'm three and a half months pregnant, but my belly was flat like a rod. If anyone looks closely at my belly they would get the small baby bump which was always hidden under my loose clothes.

At first, I thought it would enlarge like an elephant's stomach as how Heil's mom experienced but fortunately, nothing happened.

And about Emiem or my other colleagues, I didn’t hear anything from them. At least I expected Fed’s call but he too disappeared in the air. That’s somehow good for us. The only person who is still contacting me is my lovely mom, but she doesn’t know the truth yet.

Back to the present, Blake feeds me with different varieties of foods five times a day. Whenever I refuse to eat he would blackmail me that he is going to call my mom and tell everything to her including my dad's death that she set in her mind was an accident.

I'm free to wander around the forest even in the night time. He simply watches over me and sometimes, joins me for the walking. I kinda ignore his presence and do whatever my crazy mind implies, as a result, one day in the early morning when he was cooking, I tried to escape and succeeded until I saw his manly figure collecting woods from the forest in front of me.

I had no idea whether he has seen me nor he was truly there for a business, by the way, it ruined my escaping plans. But I didn’t give up, I tried many times to escape but all the times he showed up in front of me pretended as he was doing his business like planting a tree, trimming the scrubs, even the worst thing is one day he pretended like he was doing exercise when the sun shone proudly at noon and when he caught my blazing stares, he winked at me.

Eventually, I realised that it hadn’t happened coincidentally. I gave up on the escaping plans when my thick mind accepted my cruel fate. I didn't try to escape because he set his eyes on me even we were sleeping, of course, he on the couch.

Unlike the scary monster that I had predicted about him, he was nice and polite. He never forced me over the thing I don't wanna do except eating. He didn't ask me any chance, neither apologizes but one day I saw him crying his heart out when he was bathing.

It happened coincidentally as I felt the heavyweight on my bladder and badly wanted to release them. Unaware of the situation that he was inside the bathroom, I entered and witnessed his weeping.

He actually cried like a baby.

A scary man who had a wet towel around his waist stood on the shower and cried like a newborn baby. He even called his mom multiple times than I could count. Not wanting to spoil his lovely time, I took control over my tight bladder and came out.

Since then I hear some strange voice coming from the forest, and yesterday I gathered some courage to follow the voice and to my surprise I found his monster, wailing and crying his heart out. I felt bad but my situation is not worse than him.

And Rakesh who has known as the man of his word didn't come to this house when I asked him not to show his ugly face ever.

Sighing heavily, I put the book on the table that I was reading and slipped into my slipper to take a long walk through the forest. The weather was nice and calm which definitely gives me good companies.

Random thoughts ran into my mind when I was walking to the forest as I was overreacting over the zero matter. I made my heart stone and I’m playing both of our life. My heart even begged me to forgive him even though he did nothing and asked me to accept him but I shook my head and blocked my brain.

After fifteen minutes of the fine walk from the hut, I reached my destination and looked at the dark sky which looked really pissed and ready to pour his anger out that made me furrow my eyebrows. Just fifteen minutes ago it looked fine and calm, and now it looked angry.

Life is not fair.

A smile broke into my face when my bare feet touched the wet grass. We were before in this place but that was romantic and I hadn't thought one day I will come here all alone by myself.

In my mind, I could able to see the table which was just put near the giant tree when we had our lunch months ago. Four candles stood up proudly at each corner, in the middle, a red bouquet emitted it pleasantly smells which all were arranged by the immature Blake who has no experience in the romantic field but he did for me.

I missed him.

He was the same Blake before his true identity came out. He hasn't changed a bit. He never failed to show his love and affection towards me even when I threw tantrum towards him. I don't remember when was the last time he behaved rudely. Ahh!! It may be on his revelation's day because he was afraid of losing me.

He didn't mean it when he said he will kill Emiem or my other colleagues. He just wanted to keep me with him. As long as I was with him, he has control over his beast. Even in the heated argument where I voluntarily dragged him along to take his nerve, he never showed his monster side nor shifted into his monster.

Always he acts cool as a cucumber. I couldn’t able to break his cool composure. His mind was stronger than the normal human being.

Drip!

One drop of water brushed my cheeks followed by many started to caress my forehead, jaw and the tip of my nose. Quickly, I ran towards the giant tree and stood there until the sky took his whole frustrations out.

Half an hour later, when I was ready to leave the place a worried Blake appeared in front of me with an Umbrella. "I was looking for you." Was the one word he said to me before we both walked to the hut, hands touching each other because of the space we had in one Umbrella.

I felt the intense spark and my heart pounded heavily against my ribcage whenever his breath fell on my bare neck. Blame for the Umbrella. I wonder did he notice my shivering state, and yes, he noticed.

He put his jacket over me and said I won’t feel cold if I wear this. And like an obedient little kid, I nodded my head before adjusting his warm jacket more comfortably to my cold body, it felt he was hugging me tightly.

The rest of the walk to our hut was warm and silent.

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"It's hurting. Take the baby out!!!" I yelled while he was standing in the pool of my blood like a statue.

"I'm talking to you, demon!!" I gritted my teeth, the pain was unbearable as my every bone were crushing into million pieces. I know childbirth would be painful but didn't expect this intense pain, it drained my whole energy away.

All of a sudden the pain stopped and I looked at the pool of my blood which literally caused me Goosebumps in the pitch of my stomach.

The baby--- he-- he died.

Whereas Blake's arms were full of covered with my blood. "No!!" I whispered yelled, the sudden emptiness occupied my freezing body. I want my baby back. I don't wanna give birth to the monster, but I didn't hate him. He is my own blood too. I can't hate him just because he had his dad's blood. He is part of me and innocent.

"You killed the baby!" Blake's eyes shot me a dangerous glare and even before he could get me I yelled out of my lungs.

"I didn't--- trust me!! I didn't kill him!" The realisation brought me back to where I was sleeping and I let out a sigh of relief.

One of the worst nightmares.

Without my concern, I wrapped my hands around my stomach and felt the life growing there.

Thank God! He is still here.

I wiped my tears which were flowing casually like a waterfall and a sob escaped from my mouth. "I'm so sorry. I love you." I hugged my knees and cried with my heart out. I shouldn’t have hated him.

I felt all her pain. She doesn't wanna kill the baby. She knew the baby was pure and innocent. Motherhood is always awesome.

"Trust me I will protect you no matter what." I made a promise with my baby. Feeling a sudden thirsty, I crawled out of the bed before making my way towards the kitchen.

I opened the fridge and took out the first water bottle which was neatly arranged in a number of dozens. I drank the whole water in one gulp and somehow, caught my breath on time.

Just when I was about to reach the room, a question crossed my mind. Where is Blake? Whenever I had my bad times, he was there for me stroking my hair all the while mumbling sweet words which would put me sleep in no time, but today he was nowhere to find.

The clock kicked 2 am which sent dread to my core. Where did he go? I think the possibilities of where would has he gone and searched there but my attempt of searching failed when I didn't find him.

Somehow I knew he was safe and alive but I can't help the anxiety which grew up inside my heart time by time as I felt something fishy because he could have realised by this time that I'm standing in the middle of the road but he didn't come for me.

'Okay, he will come once he finished his business.' Convincing myself I decided to go back to the hut and when I was about to open the door I heard the death chilling voice coming from the middle of the forest.

My legs found its way without my consciousness and before I knew it I was standing a good distance from the crying Blake. He was kneeling in front of the tree, his head was buried in his palm and he whimpered loudly.

"Mom, she hates me." He sobbed, his body was shaking violently. This is the place where they buried her body and for the reminisce of his mom, he planted the tree and took care of the tree till now.

"I can't pretend like it didn't affect me whenever she ignores my presence. I want my Reil back." He dragged his hands through his face until it was rested on his thigh.

"Why did you give birth to me!!" He yelled. "I am not suitable for this world. Everyone hates me!! You should have killed me, mom. I'm lonely!!" His weeping echoed through the forest.

"I'm coming with you." He fell on the wet grass and sobbed hardly.

For an unknown reason, my heart clenched with pain. This world is for everyone and every creature is happy with their own life then why he can't have his happy life.

'Because you hold it.' My inner mind raised her voice. 'Admit it you still love him even after you figured out everything. You were very well aware of the fact that it had nothing to do with him but still, you are hurting yourself and himself. He is innocent like our baby.' Unconsciously I rubbed my flat stomach.

I can't imagine my baby crying his heart out in front of my grave. He deserves happiness and all the wealthy things that nature could provide to us. I don't want him to feel lonely. I want him to live a happy life like other peoples have.

"Blake?!" I found my voice in the pitch of darkness. It took him a second to snap his head towards me. When our eyes met, time froze on the midnight, the moonlight revealed his red eyes, rosy cheeks and a pink nose. Birds chirped happily as they have been waiting for this moment to come.

"You are not alone." Slowly, I took one step forward meanwhile he stood there unable to believe his own eyes.

I want him as much as he wants me. I crave for his love as much as he craves for mine. I love him as much as he loves me. I adore him from the bottom of my heart as much as he adores me. I wanted to hit a century with him as much as he wanted to live with me forever.

"You are real?" He asked almost to himself which explained to me that he had the habit of coming over here every night. He had been visualized my presence every time he was crying his heart out.

"I'm--" I suppressed the sob. "You can't escape from me. Your life has been tied to me forever." I wiped off the happy tears with the back of my hand before we took a step forward.

I wanted to hug him just to seal his soul with me. Then he can't leave me even after he gets bored with me and wanted to spare me from his life.

We both stood about an inch away. Our eyes twinkled with happiness, his lips curved upwards where I smiled looking at him.

He raised both his hands to hug me; I readied myself for a warm embrace but it didn't come. Slowly, his body moved backward and even before I could blink, he collapsed on the grass. His nose was bleeding, he coughed a large amount of blood which took me off an utter shock. His eyes were still open which is looking straight at my eyes full of affection and unspoken words.

Our dream, our future—everything died in his eyes.

"Reil!" A familiar hand pulled me towards his chest. "He is no more." He kissed the back of my head as a comforting zone. My body glued on the spot where I was and refused to function normally.

"I'm sorry I should have come earlier for your rescue." He put his jaw on my shoulder from behind.

He didn't see my teary face. He didn't see my broken heart. Just a while ago I was going to reunite with the love of my life and now he was dead on the floor.

"You don't need to scare of him anymore. He is dead." Fed turned me around to meet my reshoot eyes which left him clueless.

"H-e died," I mumbled unconsciously, tears were rolling down through my cheeks.

A piercing pain erupted through my abdomen which caused me to scream loudly, my sound would have reached Blake.

Whenever I have this pain, Blake gives me a drink which would ease my pain, and control nausea in no time.

But today…

"Why are you bleeding?" Fed froze on his spot where I stumbled on the floor clutching my painful abdomen.

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