Chapter 60: Chapter 60

Chapter 60.

Alvin catches up with me and I have no idea how I turn to hug him. I feel so warm when he holds me so securely and trust me, out of antagonism and ire I push my lips and press them in his. It takes him like a second or two to start kissing me back. I do it as I have never done before. I have just witnessed too much crap from Harrison and every time I make a decision to go back, look for him and forgive him I meet negative results.

In one way or another, I end up regretting why I had to go back again and again and I feel like my decisions are usually wrong.

Right now, I throw all cautions to the wind and do the only thing that I feel will give me some peace, I mean console me. I don’t want to stay here thinking about someone who doesn’t even care about me.

I loved Harry and I have been stuck to the idea that one day, he will divorce Diana and have a family with me. I didn’t think that I will always be walking to him kissing a random woman each time I see him.

When he finally pulls away, I frown as I gasp for air. That was too intense and sweet. I think it’s high time I open my eyes to the other side of the story. I am tired of listening to just his side, mine should matter too, right?

I thought so.

‘’Hey, you okay?’’ Alvin asks worry on his face and I genuinely smile at him. He smiles back as the frown clears from his face.

‘’Never been as perfect as I am right now,’’ I say confidently and right on cue, he pulls me almost roughly to him. He holds my chin and directs my face to his. Our gazes hold for a few seconds and I have no idea what is going on in his mind but mine is busy choreographing how to capture his kissable lips and feel good. His other hand is snaked securely to my small waistline and I look at his beautiful eyes with my heart throbbing like never before. I am yet to figure out what I feel for him.

He intrigues something in me. I just need to find out what that is.

‘’You, Clara, should go back in there and see your brother. Why would you be feeling jealous when you see your brother with a woman? Aren’t you happy that he is awake?’’

Wow! And he had to make it sound like I am the one at fault here. He had to rub it on my face that that idiot lying there is my brother. I think it’s high time I moved on with my life because Harry and I will never go anywhere.

‘’Did you have to remind me that Harry is my brother? Do you know how terrible that makes me feel?’’ I ask Alvin who without talking back or maybe responding to me, decides to kiss me as he has never done it the few times we have done this. So viciously, feverishly, and intensely.

‘’I want you and Harry to finish this thing that you have. It is not your fault that he is who he is. You cannot do anything about how he is behaving. The only thing I want you to do is to walk in there, have a word with him and then I will drive you back home. I don’t want your mum getting worried about you.’’

He is right. ‘’Will you come with me?’’ I ask him gently and he nods. ‘’If Harry has a woman in there, then I will also go with a man.’’ I shake my head at what I just said. That’s pathetic.

Competition doesn’t work here. You are either faithful or not. He is my brother anyway, so, I cannot hold a grudge if he decides to kiss whoever he wants.

Anyway, did I even see things right? Were they really kissing or did I just assume because there was a lady hovering over him?

‘’If that’s the reason you want me to go with you, then I’d rather not go. I don’t want you to do things as a form of revenge, okay?’’ I nod at him.

‘’Okay, let’s go.’’ He holds my hand and interweaves our fingers. We walk straight into his hospital room since we already know where he is.

Life has a way of making you nothing. Harry Williams, a very enthusiastic, fervent, and robust man is lying in the hospital bed with no energy at all. He looks emaciated but I know he will be fine. He has met much worse and he came out alive and kicking. I know he will come out of this too.

Aliana is talking to Harry in hushed tones and we cannot hear what they are talking about.

I have worn this I don’t care attitude as I take long strides beside Alvin. He is literally the one who is going to make me change my opinion of Harry. He is my brother, so, I don’t have to care about who he is kissing and who he isn’t kissing. It’s high time I learned to move on from the fact that it is an abomination and an eyesore for the two of us to be together.

‘’Harrison Williams, how are you?’’ I startle Harrison who didn’t expect me at all.

‘’Hey, beautiful. Long time no see. Are you okay?’’ he asks weakly. I feel his pain all over sudden and I desperately hope that he gets well soon. The woman he was with earlier isn’t here anymore. I wish I could see his face.

Bitch!

I move closer to him and my palm goes to his cheeks. Harry hasn’t seen our son. He should come around and see him as soon as he gets out of here.

‘’How are you feeling, Harry?’’ he turns slowly to look away from me. I realize that a tear just dropped towards his ear.

I motion Alvin and Aliana to give us some privacy and they oblige.

‘’Thank you for coming. I have been wondering where to find you. I have missed you, my beautiful angel. You disappeared on me and I didn’t have an idea where and how to find you. I am happy that you are here today.’’

‘’Why did you do it, Harry?’’ I know I am asking this question at the wrong place and time but I can’t just help it. This guy made a promise to me and the best that he could do was to keep it.

He moves a bit towards the wall to create some space for me to sit. I don’t hesitate. I sit there looking at him and waiting for him to respond to me.

‘’Beautiful, a gun was held to my temple. I was told that I would be killed if I didn’t do it. I was taken to another town after that and just see how life is fucked up. Diana shot me, you are here with another man. Just how many men do you have in your life?’’ My eyes shoot wide open and my mouth hangs open too.

I will not give him the pleasure of disrespecting me. ‘’And how many women do you have in your life? Harry, you left me alone! And you decided that you marry her because why? Did I seem like an echo to you after you married her? I was left all alone, Harry! With a pregnancy to nurse. You …’’

He coughs prompting me to stop talking. I facepalm when I realize that I am making noise at a very wrong place.

‘’I am so sorry. You don’t deserve me. I wanted to fight for you but after all these things that have happened. I think it will only be fair for me to step aside. I never chose to marry Diana, I picked you and I loved you, I still do like I did from the word go. It is more intense but I want you to be happy because that’s my priority with you. My life, however, has been shittier than I could have ever imagined. I always thought I could hack this but it cannot happen.’’

‘’Wow!’’

‘’I haven’t given up on you and I will never do it. I will always fight for you and make sure that I win you back. But for now, take care of yourself.’’ He says gently. And I find myself wiping the tear that just dropped from his eyes.

I swear this is one of the most terrifying moments in my life. I pity him. One because he doesn’t have a damn idea that he is my brother, and two because our love is forbidden and cannot happen. I hope he finds to know sooner so that he can stop having the hopes of fighting for me.

‘’Good luck, Harrison. You got to soldier on. Get well soon.’’

‘’Thank you.’’ He says humbly. ‘’Um … who was that guy you were with here?’’

‘’My friend, Alvin. I have told you about him before, right?’’ he nods.

‘’He came back?’’ he asks his eyes wide open. This guy has no single idea completely that he is my brother and am not about to hint that to him.

‘’He did, and before you accuse me of anything, you might wanna check with me first if you should.’’ I know that’s very rude but I hate being accused without any basis.

‘’I am happy for you.’’ He says sarcastically and I laugh without humour. ‘’Before you ask why I am, I can see that he loves you so much, the way he is looking at you tells it all.’’

‘’Thank you, Harrison.’’

‘’Clara!’’ I turn swiftly to look at the excited voice, I meet Anita’s happy face looking at me with the sweetest smile ever. I stand up promptly and run towards her for an embrace. Something catches my eyes though.

Anita is the one I saw earlier kissing his brother, well I am … no, I don’t know if she was kissing her but the person I saw was in the exact same clothes that she is wearing.

‘’You … were you … here earlier or was someone here wearing like you?’’ I ask pulling away from the not so comfortable hug. The frown on my face is evident. She nods.

‘’Yes, I just left a while ago to get something, why?’’

‘’What time were you here?’’

‘’I left when Alia came in. why are you asking?’’

‘’Forget it.’’ she was kissing him? Well, I think Harry Williams has a thing for kissing his sisters.

‘’Not really. Tell me why?’’ she says calmly. ‘’You know I don’t like it when I am left in suspense!’’

‘’I thought I saw you, kissing my … I mean kissing Harry.’’ She bursts out a peal of laughter.

‘’You must be crazy! How would I be kissing my own brother? Maybe I was just kissing him lightly on the cheeks. I cannot believe that you just said that.’’

‘’Sorry. I might have had seen my own things.’’

‘’Jealousy looks really bad on you, but I bet Harry would love to differ with me.’’

I mock. ‘’You wish!’’ I don’t think I love him anymore but that’s what life entails.

‘’How is marriage life?’’ I ask Harry when Anita holds my hand and directs me back to Harry’s bed.

‘’As debauched, unscrupulous, and malevolent as my own mother.’’ I gasp when he says that. That sounds really bad.

‘’Really? Where is your wife?’’

‘’Somewhere on the run after shooting me and leaving me to die.’’

‘’What did you do to her after only a few months into the marriage?’’

‘’I found out that she killed …’’

‘’She is a murderer?’’ I ask cutting him off.

‘’Yeah can’t you see she almost killed me?’’ he asks tiredly. ‘’As I was saying. I found out that she killed two men and that’s the reason she and her witch of a mother were deported back here.’’

‘’That’s gross.’’

‘’Tell me about it. Anyway, thanks for coming. Please go back and stay safe. This place isn’t very safe for you.’’ I don’t bother asking him if he was kissing her sister. I trust what Anita just told me.

‘’Hey, we have to go.’’ Alvin calls from the door and we all turn to look at him.

‘’You?’’ Anita and Alvin ask in unison and both of them seem genuinely surprised to see each other.