Chapter 57: Chapter 57

Chapter 57.

Harry

‘’Harry please give me a chance to elucidate this to you. I know you are mad at me but please let me Clarify what happened.’’ She raspberries between her teeth. Things keep getting better and better. I hate it when my life sounds so susceptible, vulnerable, and inclined. It is just one problem after another. I am literally trying to make life easy for everyone but they are doing little or completely nothing to make mine any easier.

I slump on the couch then hold my head between my palms. I am officially the most frustrated man on earth. What kind of a person am I? My son was born, do I even know the gender? No! I don’t! No one is ready to tell me anything. I know he or she was born but I have no idea how the baby is doing. Not even his mum.

my Clarita!

I would be having a family now if not for my mum. Recently dad opened up about having a relationship with a woman whom she loved so much, am I gonna end up like him? Not marrying the women we love? Then he ended up marrying my mum who is the devil’s real aunt.

I desperately hope that you don’t mistake me, I respect mum so much but I don’t exactly appreciate her ways of doing things. She frustrated Clarita until she gave up on me. Henry, Aliana, and Anita think that she would have fought harder if she loved me but I think that she did her best.

I betrayed her trust but I hope that she forgives me for that. She was ready to flee with me but that didn’t happen. She loved me but I am not sure if she still loves me.

Diana keeps shouting on top of her voice but trust me, I hear none of whatever she is saying. She is one of those malevolent and spiteful people whom you don’t wanna meet. My eyes are stuck on my feet. I am fully oblivious of whatever is happening around me. The only thing I can hear is the ranting of Diana. She keeps shouting that I forgive her but that’s not happening.

‘’You either pack your clothes willingly or I will make you! Or maybe I should just leave you here. Choose whatever you wanna do!’’ I know I am being a bit too jagged with her but how else can I handle her? I am so disappointed in her having killed for real while I am just being blackmailed by my evil mum and I didn’t even kill anyone.

I feel my eyes aching with tears and I blink to make them stay as far away as possible. I didn’t sign for such a life and this is something that I wouldn’t expect anyone I know to sign for. Not even my worst enemy.

I walk away leaving her to do her thing. I take my suitcase and head to the car. I will just wait for her in the car. I am seated on the driver’s seat, my head buried between my palms, a slight headache clicking from afar when something clicks on my head and I decide there and then to skip out of the car and go back into the house.

I am going to do something that I have never done before. I wanna know for a fact if she is really ailing. She is making life so hard for me and I don’t think I can manage such a person like her. I have lost Clarita though. Maybe I lost her to that guy who kept parading around her. Driving her to my house. That Luke guy.

I take her favourite drink and set it on the table, then I lace it with sleeping pills. I smile slightly when I think that she will sleep till I ring a bell that she can now wake up. These happenings are the worst of them all. Then I walk to her and I am surprised not to find her in the bedroom.

‘’Diana where are you? Are you there?’’ I call for the umpteenth time without any response. She must be playing a trick on me or something like that.

‘’Be careful, she has killed before and you don’t know if you could be her next victim.’’ My innate warns me and before I know it, some very cold object is pressed against my neck and I silently shout a prayer to the living God to save my poor life. I cannot die without seeing my baby.

If I am never gonna have Clarita, then at least I should be able to see the baby.

‘’What were you thinking? That I am that scrawny and you can manipulate me all you want? I just told you a secret and the best you can do is to take me back home? What the hell is wrong with you?’’ she shouts and I cower. I thought I was brave but no! I am a weakling. She is threatening the hell out of me.

‘’Why did you tell me the secret?’’ I ask tensing but trying as hard as I can not show her that. She told me her silly secrets willingly not minding what I would have done with it. I regret immediately why I haven’t sent the recording to anyone but I will use the opposite to my advantage.

‘’Because you aren’t gonna live to tell the story to anyone. I will have you here, kill you and feed myself with your fucking heart and blood. I don’t care whether that’s not what you want. I just want you to know that I hate people who already know my secrets.’’

‘’And you think it’s just me? Not really, right about now, I know of people who have that information already and if anything happens to me, they will come for your head in a rush. Don’t do anything stupid, Diana.’’ I feel her tense when I say that but she contains herself very first.

‘’You haven’t told anyone shit! You don’t have any evidence to back your words.’’ She says confidently and I know what she is, a criminal. She must have had done this like forever.

‘’Well, suit yourself. Kill me already, Diana. I am living a life that I never wanted to live. A life of suffering and no peace, I live in hell and I am not even dead yet and you are here wanting to end the damn life for me? You are the best and I will forever be grateful.’’ She bursts out a peal of dry and sarcastic laughter.

‘’You are mistaken, Harry Williams. I am here to make it even worse. I don’t think I want to make it that easy for you. Killing you is like giving you a direct ticket to success. I will not do that for you. If yours was hell, what do you think mine was? A bed of roses or something?’’ I turn slowly until I am eyeing her directly. Her gun is pointing to my temple and you have no slight idea how painful it is when she presses whatever shit that she has harder. My blood boils with rage and I cower at the same time when I realize that she is literally holding a gun. I thought it was gonna be tranquil to get her out of this place but no! She had this perfectly arranged.

‘’You have a gun?’’ she sneers evilly. As my eyes shoot wide open.

‘’Hands up!’’ she commands and for the sake of my life, for the woman I love and the baby she must have given birth to right now, I do as she says.

‘’Now, that is none of your business. In fact, I hate being interrupted but it seems you have no idea what I want, what I know, what I have and what I can literally do?’’

‘’Where did you get the …’’

‘’Gun? She asks cutting me off. ‘’You have no fucking idea who you are living with. I am not one person whose path you want to cross. I am one of those people who you literally and forever want to stay on their good side, let their good books have your name and you will be safe. But if you keep challenging me and so on, then I don’t see you seeing more.’’

‘’You sure are that person.’’ She beams yet again for the twentieth time making me feel disgusted. I don’t like the way that she is making this some sort of a joke.

‘’Which person? Anyway, as I was saying before you foully interjected my speech, no, darling. That has never been the case. I mean I have never had an easy life. Imagine me having to kill someone in a foreign land just so that they don’t pester me sexually? You, on the other hand, are here not wanting to listen to my reasoning.’’

‘’And what is your reasoning?’’ I ask quietly. I don’t want to upset her, I don’t know how much she knows about guns. She might start firing and I might end up dying without having to see my own baby.

‘’I want you to love me, Harry. I want you to live knowing there is only one woman in your life and that’s me. Forget about that stupid bitch and make sure that the only woman that you are forever thinking about is me, don’t make me feel vetoed, just make sure that you are always here for me, making love to me the sweetest way possible and …’’

‘’Shut up, Diana! You and I know where my heart belongs, you know that I will never fall in love with you. I have been living with you for months now, if I wanted to fall in love, I would have done it but not now. You are literally holding a gun to my head and you think I care?’’ She shakes her head at me.

Whatever shit you care about is none of my industry. You do as I say and stay safe. You don’t and I do whatever I want.’’ I force a smile because, to be honest, I don’t know what damage she can do. She presses the gun harder on my temple and I feel my blood cyst and the anger that is cruising through me is immense.

I want to act as soon as now so that I am not in such a situation. If things go well, then I will walk out of here alive but if the opposite happens, then I literally won’t live to tell the story. Then I make a mental note, I will do what may seem stupid but get myself out of here.

‘’Okay, I surrender. I will talk to whoever already knows the story and talk them into not spilling a word whatsoever. I will make sure that you and I are happy and I will ensure that we live together as a real family.’’

‘’Now you are talking.’’ She says with a bright smile. I hope that you are not trying to trick me as you did earlier. You want me to trust you then you turn against me.’’ She asks then shakes her head knowingly. ‘’Nah! You will never earn that from me. I may be stupid and maybe even desperate for whatever but no, I will never fall into your stupid trap.’’

‘’You know that’s not what I meant. I meant we can come to a mutual understanding so that we’re both happy. Do you know how …’’

She cuts off my statement. ‘’It feels to live with someone you agree with, in most of the things?’’ An evil smile curves her lips, her face darkens more and I know I am in shit. Deep shit. ‘’Not exactly, Harry. I don’t know that. You should be telling me what I can do to achieve that. In the meantime, kindly make sure that you show me how that works and how it feels. I cannot wait to feel whatever I have been missing.

‘’Good luck,’’ I mumble audibly and sarcastically.

‘’What did you say?’’

‘’Nothing!’’ I say and I move my hand swiftly as she is trying to think. It lands on the gun and trust you me, I would have won this battle but it seems I didn’t plan well.

Her hand is clutching the gun so tightly as if she has some magnet on her palm.

‘’You better let go!’’ she shouts.

‘’I won’t let you coerce me with a gun,’’ I say loudly and confidently.

Minutes later, the struggle is real. She is sturdier than I imagined. She is literally not your normal ‘sick and dying’ human being. She must be doing this to frustrate me but I won’t let her. A loud bang goes out and ooh! This is life.

The pain cruising through my body is too much.

I watch in awe as she pushes my almost lifeless body and when I fall down with a thud, she walks out slaying like never before.

I am literally in no position to say or do anything.