Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Chapter 17 Pain And Jealousy

MAIA's POV

Hours passed and Lucius never came back. As I laid in my bed, a lonely tear fell on my pillow. That single tear opened the tear ducts that I had been trying to keep shut. No matter how hard I tried to pretend that I was okay, my eyes always betrayed me.

I placed my hand over my now empty stomach and silently prayed to the Moon Goddess.

"Am I such a bad person? Is there something wrong that I did to deserve all this? Were my parents not enough or was I just supposed to be alone? No matter how hard I try, I always get left behind. Am I that unimportant? Because that is how I surely feel." I cried.

'Maia, you should not think like that. The Moon Goddess wouldn't abandon you. I WILL NEVER ABANDON YOU. YOU are important. This is just an obstacle in life. What happened does not define who you are as a person, Maia. Always remember that.' Avi said.

Just as any other night, I cried myself to sleep.

When Emily came the next morning to bring me breakfast, I asked if she had seen the King Alpha.

"I am sorry, but I haven't. I was busy cleaning in the kitchen." She replied.

"Can you please tell Neal that I would like to talk to him?" I requested.

"Of course." She replied.

She took the tray with her and left. A couple of minutes later, there was a knock on the door.

"Come in." I said, loud enough for him to hear.

"You wanted to talk to me? Is there any problem? Are you in some kind of pain?" he asked.

"No, I am fine." I answered.

"That is a relief then." He said.

"Where is Lucius?" I asked.

"Uhm.... He is currently busy searching for Uriah. He also has some meetings to attend in the coming days." he replied.

I knew though, that he was lying. When I asked him about Lucius' whereabouts, his heart rate spiked. An advantage that we werewolves had was that we could hear everything.

I let out a sigh and walked towards the bookshelf.

"He is with Pamela, isn't he?" I asked, well more like stated.

He cleared his throat, and that confirmed my suspicion.

"Is she his girlfriend?" I asked, staring at the picture frame.

"She is not. I know you have a lot of questions that you would like to ask, but. It's not my story to tell. Only Lucius can answer your questions. All I can tell you is to give him a chance. There is more to what he portrays." He said.

"I don't get it. Why keep me here if he has Pamela? If he doesn't want me, then just let me go. I can't stay imprisoned for the rest of my life for what? For being his mate?" l asked.

"He is not keeping you imprisoned for no reason, Maia. He is doing this to keep you safe. Without knowing where Uriah is, there is no safer place for you than here in the castle." he replied.

"Tell me, then; the night you told me to run, what was going on at that time? I heard growling and I felt like a bit of an earthquake." l asked.

"We were interrogating a rogue and things got out of hand. Nothing you should be worried about." he replied.

I looked at him, my brows furrowed. There was something off with what he said. It wasn't connected.

Something did not add up.

"If you don't have any more questions, I would go ahead. In case you need anything just let me know and I'll have it arranged for you. I'll just be training the fighters." he said, excusing himself.

I was once again left in the room with nothing but my own thoughts. While staring at the picture frame on the shelf, a book caught my attention. I took the book and it gave me this different feeling the moment I touched it.

"The Moon Goddess's Daughter." I said as I read the title out loud.

I flipped through the first few pages as I walked towards the single sofa by the window. Something about the book was just so addictive. It had this drawing effect that no matter how much I would want to close the book, I just couldn't.

As I read the book, I was starting to sympathize when the female lead's auntie was telling her how her parents died protecting her. Being the Moon Goddess's daughter and the future Moon Goddess, she was in great danger. I felt her pain when she had a vision about her death. She was pregnant and she knew that she was going to either die or her baby would die. Without any hesitation, she gave up her own life to save her daughter.

As if in instinct, I brought my hand over my stomach and stared at it. If only I had the chance to save my baby, I would have done it. My baby did not deserve any of it.

When Emily came to bring me my dinner, she was shocked to see that I hadn't touched my lunch.

"Maia, why have you not eaten your lunch?" she asked, looking at me, her face painted with worry.

I put the book down on the small table beside me and looked at her.

"I wasn't feeling hungry." I said.

"But you barely ate your breakfast. You are going to get sick if you don't eat properly." she replied.

"What am I supposed to do? I don't have the appetite to eat. I can't just push myself to eat when all my body wants to do is throw up all the food I eat." I snapped at her; I was being defensive and I could not help it.

She let out a sigh and walked up to me.

"Is there anything I can do to help? Maybe a favorite food would help?" she asked with a mellowed voice.

I looked at her as my eyes were starting to tear up.

"I want my baby." I uttered as tears started falling down my face.

She wrapped her arms around me as I cried on her shoulder. I did not care anymore if she was seeing me broken. I just had to let it out. All the pain was becoming unbearable for me. Hiding and pretending that everything was okay became a difficult task.

The last thing I remembered that night was me crying. The rest of what happened was a blur to me. All I knew was that when I woke up the next day, I was already on my bed.

'How did I get here?' I asked myself.

'You fainted, Maia.' Avi said, reminding me of what happened last night.