Chapter 585: Chapter 585

"Jiang Xin, are you stupid? Qin Dazhuang treats you , and you still come back to ask Xiao Xiao for money? Haven’t you thought that the 2500 yuan you take back will definitely be gone without a trace, all taken by Qin Dazhuang. You’re spending money to buy peace, but can money really buy peace?"

If Qin Dazhuang becomes greedy and thinks you can get money from your parents, he’ll only treat you and the kids worse in the future. Will you always come home to ask for money? How much money does your family have to fill this hole?"

Jiang Yue is frustrated with Jiang Xin for not thinking ahead.

Jiang Xin is partly responsible for the current situation with Qin Dazhuang.

Jiang Xin smiles bitterly, "Of course I know, but what can I do? Life has to go on. The kids are still young now, I just hope they grow up, get into college, then my task will be done.

By then, things won’t be anymore. The only excuse Qin Dazhuang has is this 2500 yuan, and other than that, he wouldn’t dare depend on his mother-in-law’s family to support him; he doesn’t have the shame to say that.

As for beating, aside from enduring it, what else can I do! A woman’s life isn’t just this."

Jiang Xiaoxiao is furious, gritting her teeth at the resigned attitude.

"If life has come to this, just divorce him, sister."

Jiang Xin is suddenly shocked.

"Divorce? No, no! Divorced women coming back to their parents’ home bring ridicule to the family. Dad and Mom are finally living comfortably now, and you all are having such good lives. If I get divorced and come home, people will talk and say, ’Jiang Xiaoxiao has a sister who got divorced.’

How does that make you feel! Jiang Lei isn’t married yet; if there’s a divorced sister at home with kids, think about it, who would dare marry into our family? It’s enough that I’ve ruined myself, how could I harm the family too?"

Jiang Xin’s face turns pale with fright.

Divorce in the ’80s was a shameful thing, many held prejudice and disdain against divorced women and their families.

Jiang Xin is concerned about the same worries that all women of that era have.

The greater concern is the societal stigma and gossip.

Jiang Yue lightly smacks Jiang Xiaoxiao on the back, weakly like swatting a fly.

Jiang Xiaoxiao explains discontentedly.

"Sister, don’t look at me like that. What I said is true, if life can’t go on, is it worth enduring just to keep it going? What’s the point? Qin Dazhuang has started beating my sister, and if she waits until the kids grow up, that’s at least over ten years.

Have you thought about it? If my sister keeps being beaten for over ten years, can life really go on like that? Suppose she endures all the humiliation and just keeps silent. For instance, during those ten years, one day she might suddenly be beaten beyond her limits, and that anger builds up inside, eventually exploding.

Then she might just kill Qin Dazhuang, and end up in jail. Is that what you want? Although everyone would sympathize with my sister, going to jail is something that can’t be erased by sympathy, it can’t be treated as if it never happened.

Sister, have you thought about what would happen to the two kids then, or are you planning to endure this forever? Getting beaten by him until you grow old, is this the life you want to live? You care about other people’s gossip, but are you living for other people?

Who knows you’re living with such hardship, with such difficulty, who knows you’re bruised all over each day, secretly crying yourself to sleep. Just because of other people’s views, living within their gossip, do you think life should be lived this way?"

Jiang Xiaoxiao speaks to a classic case, many women who were domestically abused eventually cause shockwaves after exploding.

There’s a saying, either you explode in silence or perish in silence.

Jiang Xin shakes her head, "It’s not as serious as you say, who doesn’t have little fights in their marital life? After all, he’s the father of the kids, though I think his hitting is wrong, each time he hits me I also feel like I could kill him, but seeing the kids still young, if they really lose their father, how will a woman with kids go about life?

Kids without a father will be looked down upon in school and work in the future. I’m already living , enduring can make life go on, but I can’t ruin it for the kids too."

Jiang Xin is still a traditional homemaker, her understanding of men hitting women is not comprehensive, she merely regards it as simple marital issues.

She takes it very lightly indeed.

"What about Ladi and Zhaodi then?"

Jiang Xin asks puzzledly, "They’re fine, this has nothing to do with them; I’ll protect them from getting hit by your brother-in-law."

She does everything a mother should do, to protect her children, which is why she’s beaten so badly by Qin Dazhuang.

"Ladi and Zhaodi see their mother being beaten by their father every day, living in a hell; when they grow up, will they still dare get married? Will their inner fears allow them to marry?

This shadow makes them fear men for life, lack security, never believe in the supposed married life in this world. Sister hopes that when they grow up, because of their fear of husbands, their dread of married life, they’ll never get married, is this what you hope for?"

As soon as kids are mentioned, Jiang Xin’s inner vulnerability is touched.

"No, that’s impossible... I’m not... I..."

Jiang Xin chokes up, the inner fear makes her anxious, and for the first time, she realizes she might have been too simplistic.

Jiang Yue restrains Jiang Xiaoxiao’s continued stance.

"Jiang Xin, although Xiao Xiao speaks a bit exaggeratedly, the issue she raises must be faced. You can endure for yourself, but have you thought about whether the kids want to see such parents living together?

Plus, what you mentioned isn’t just one problem with Qin Dazhuang, it’s not just about hitting people now. Where has all the money he took gone; there must be an explanation, a couple living together can’t simply mean he takes money alone without informing you about the uses.

What if he has some bad habits; I won’t even mention if he has any issues with gender conduct. Just to say a simple problem, if he’s out there gambling with others. Or doing some bad things.

Then this isn’t something you can just endure and get past, life would be in deep trouble. You just think you can endure it, but on that day, if he goes gambling madly.

He might even bet his own wife and kids at the table; in his mind, the two daughters are worthless, never paid any real attention, then he might just mortgage them off as debt repayment.

Could you really protect the two kids with just your own strength by then?"

Jiang Xin nearly fainted.

Yes, what if Qin Dazhuang learns to gamble now.

How will they mother and daughters get by?