Chapter 37: Chapter 37

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He ain't my type, but these several days, I felt something strange to him. And I don't want to call it love. It can't be love and I can't accept also that I am already falling for him. A slave cannot fall on him. I should prioritize the safety of my father and of course, myself.

Yes, my father. Although Wrum has not yet told me that he is in Don Guillermo's hands, I have a strong suspicion that he is in his hands. I don't think I'll be threatened that night when I'm not there. I still remember what he told me. It was already a clue that he had my father.

Sighing, I closed my eyes and want to wish that my father is okay. That he is still alive and breathing. I can't accept that they killed my father. And hopefully, my mother was not included in their revenge. My mother is too weak to face this. Even I feel weak facing this kind of challenge.

"Are you still thinking about your father?" Wrum asked me. He stood next to me as he also overlooked the beautiful view that could be seen from here on the veranda.

Fresh air coming outside my hair to dance in the air. We both now looking at the beautiful scenes outside. A mountain, birds flying, and tweets of the bird that sounds to be refreshing.

"I told you not to worry about your father anymore." he said "I told you he's safe," he added.

That is what he always said. That my dad was okay and he was just safe. I don’t know if I will believe him. No matter what else he has to say, I still won’t believe him. How can I be sure he's okay if he shows nothing? A proof that proves that my father is okay.

I still don't want to believe him. He is still the son of Don Guillermo.

"I don't believe you," I answer. "And I can't trust you," I added.

He was just surprised by what I said. "You need to believe me. I did everything to protect you and your father. Not just your father, but also your mother." did he do that? "I shouldn't be doing this. Damn it."

I couldn't believe what he said. He protected me, and my parents as well?

"Why are you doing that?" I couldn’t help but ask him. He did not immediately answer my question. "You shouldn't be doing that to us."

"Because ... because...I just want to," he said. "I just want to help you," he explained.

Is that the only reason why he did that to me? For I knew there was a deeper reason for that but he just didn’t tell me. I can see it through his eyes. From his stares at me. And I don't want to think about it. He already said the reason. He just wants to help me. That's all.

"You want to help me right?" I asked him and he just nodded at me. "If you want to help me and you want me to trust you, why don't you tell me everything. The reason why we came here to Cebu, where my father now? Has Don Guillermo taken him or not?"

He sighed and looked at me seriously. "Don't ask me about that. Just trust me. Nothing bad will happen to your father." he replied.

"That's not what I want you to hear from you, answer my question," I told him. "Don't hide it. Tell me the truth."

"I don't have anything more to tell you. I've already said it." he averted his eyes from me. "Just go to sleep and don't even think about it," he said and he was about to go away, but I stopped him.

"How can I sleep if you keep hiding the truth from me, Wrum?" he stopped and turned slightly to me. "Why don't you just tell me the truth?"

"As I told you, you don't have to worry. Nothing bad will happen to your father," he said. "Just don't force me to answer your stupid question." he walked away.

"Wrum answer my question to you! Just don't go away!" I shouted at him but he didn't face me back to what I told him.

Do I need to trust him? Then, how can I trust him if he doesn't trust me? He doesn't seem to trust me. He never told me the truth. Stupid, all I want is truth, the truth!

Many questions in my mind remain unanswered. How can this be answered if he keeps avoiding me every time I asked him that. Damn it!

"Hey, Silic. Are you okay? Did something bad happen? Tell me?" Wim repeatedly asked me. "Are you fighting Wrum? Are you breaking up already?"

That's a bullshit question that I have heard from him. I just stared at him. "We don't have a relationship okay? I'm just a slave here, right ?" he scratched his neck so hard. "I'm not okay, but it's okay." I passed him and I was about to go back to my room, but he still followed me, while he was drinking beer in a can.

"Tell me Silic what is your problem is. I might be able to help you about it," he said.

I stopped walking and then turned to look at him again. That's right. He might be the one to say it. I faced him again. "I want you to tell me everything you know about Don Guillermo and I want you to tell me if my father had been taken by Don Guillermo," I said. "Tell me. Do you want to help me, right?"

Seems like he can't answer the question I asked him. I think he wanted to help me? Will he say again that he can’t tell me this because he’s scared of Wrum? Because he's afraid Wrum will kill him?

"What about Silic—"

"You and Wrum are the same. You wanted to help me, but cannot even say a single word what was happening around us." I said. "If you can't tell me about it, then, you shouldn't have told me that you wanted to help. That was stupid if you just knew.

I passed where he was standing and about to enters the room, but heard him said that made me pause.

"Just remember this, Silic. We did our very best to protect you and your father!" Wim shouted. "And don't think that you are just a slave here! We will never consider you a slave!"

I finally entered my room and closed it immediately. Damn it. They don’t consider me a slave?