Chapter 20: Chapter 20

Ashley

I was hurting badly as I moved further away from the packhouse. All I wanted to do was run distance away from him as far as I could.

I couldn't help but wonder why my life was such a mess.

Why did I even agree to be his mate in the first place, and why did he pick had to pick me, instead of going for anyone else from his numerous whores?

One minute I am fooled into believing that he might care a little bit for me and the next I am utterly shattered by what he does.

Only if my heart stuck with the original plan of pretense and did not start catching feelings for him.

I am so stupid for having such feelings towards him, I am nothing to him but a slave and that is all I will ever be to him.

I am done trying to think that he might love, or even care for me.

I was aware when he came back last night, but I pretended to be sleeping because I was angry with him.

What I expected him to do is to try or at least pretend to apologize for keeping me standing for so long, but he did none of that.

Instead, after a few minutes of staying in the room, I heard the door open and close again as he went out.

I was curious to know where he was going, and I decided to follow him. even though my heart was against it, for the fear of what I might find. but, my curiosity got the better part of me. I followed and watched him enter a room.

I wished I had just returned to my sleep at that moment, but I was still curious to know who he was going to meet and I had to eavesdrop on them.

She called him her love, and they fucked themselves like two inseparable animals on heat and when my heart could not take it anymore I returned to the room to cry my eyes out.

I shouldn't be this pained, but I can't help but feel like he had just torn my heart apart.

I stood resting my back against a tree as I decided to take a deep breath to ease out my frustration as I got closer to the clinic.

I left as soon as I noticed he was still asleep I couldn't face him. I was angry at him that his very presence disgust me.

I feel cheated upon.

The clinic is the only place I know that can bring me a little bit of comfort and since Grace was absent all through last night, I decided to use that excuse to come and see her.

I plan to stay here all day and if possible spend the night here too.

The other staffs and slaves at the clinic were very happy to see me as I walk into the clinic.

I asked after Grace and I was told that she was sleeping in her room she has not been feeling fine since I left and has asked that no one bothers her. Unless of course, it's me or the alpha.

I knocked and entered her room, she was lying down and looking frail.

“How are you?” I asked as I sat by her side.

“I am glad you are back,” she said smiling.

“What's wrong with you?” I asked concerned about the way she was looking.

“I'm fine, I just did something I haven't done in a long time and it sort of took a toll on me, but now that you are here, I will be fine. So tell me all about last night, hope you had fun?” She asked innocently and I couldn't help but remember the pains that I thought I had kept behind me.

Slowly tears started gathering in my eyes and I tried to hide away my face from her.

“Did he hurt you? Do you want to talk about it?” She asked with genuine concern after sensing my sudden mood change

But I was quick to blink my tears away and try to fake a smile just to reassure her that I was fine.

“I am fine,” I said smiling at her.

Then I noticed that she was distracted like she was communicating with someone through the mind link.

Her face became all serious as she listened to the person on the other end. She lifted her face at face to look at me at some point before talking back at the person.

“Who was that?" I asked after I noticed she was done.

“It's alpha Alexander, he is on his way to get you,”  she said calmly as if she could sense that we were having issues.

“I don't want to see him," I said bluntly to her damning whatever the consequences that came with my refusal.

“I am sorry ashley I wish I can protect you from him, but he is your alpha and your mate, there is nothing I can do to stop him from coming to get you,” she said in a motherly tone.

I was almost tempted to correct her that he was not my mate when I heard a loud shout from outside the room.

Ashley! I heard Alexander bark from inside the clinic.

I could tell he was very angry and I wonder why that is because I know that he doesn't care about me so much, at least that is what his actions last night proved.

“You have to go and meet him,” Grace said pleadingly.

But I don't know where I got my sudden hardheadedness from, as I found myself rooted to the chair I was seated.

The next thing I knew was a loud bang from the door and he stormed into the room, his eyes blazing with fire.

Still, he did not scare me like I would have expected even though my heart was beating super fast.

“I will excuse you both,” Grace said and left before I had the chance to stop her.

With grace gone I was suddenly stripped of all the bravery in me as I became very scared of what he might do to me.

But I was honestly getting bored of being weak before him as I met his gaze with mine in a daring manner.

“Why did you leave the house without informing me?” He asked in a tone that clearly shows he was trying to control his anger.

“I came to work,” I said and almost hit myself for saying that.

I mean I only came here to get as far away from him as I could from him.

“Work?” he questioned, a bit surprised by my response.

“Yes, work, I can't be seating around all day doing nothing, I need something to do to make money that I can use for myself,” I said.

And you choose the clinic of all places to work, or you are just this an excuse to get closer to my wounded soldiers? He asked jealousy evident in his voice.

Why would he even think of that, why would I want to be close to his wounded soldiers? I just want to be far away from him. And was that jealousy I sensed from his voice.

I don't understand why he would be jealous, because he has someone else in that apartment as his whore.

I should be the one jealous, but clearly, I am not, or wished I was not.

“If it's money you want I will give you as much as you need," he said, making it sound like he owns me.

“No, I want my own money, the one I worked hard for”

“You must be crazy to think that I will let you stay here so you can attend to those sex-starved men who would look for any silly excuses to be touched by you," he vented out in anger when I refused his money.

“And how is that your business, you have a whore that you can sleep with any time you want and I get a threat for wanting to work?” I asked in fury.

It took some seconds for what I had just said to sink in, and I instantly regretted my choice of words, because now he is going to think that I am jealous, which I am not by the way.

“What are you talking about,” he asked calmly, as my words seemed like a bucket of iced water splashed across his face.

“You know very well what I am talking about, and just in case you have forgotten I would remind you about the whore you spent the night with,”  I said in utter rage.

Fuck it, yes, I am jealous.

I seriously was beginning to wonder where I was getting all this sudden confidence from. My words seem to have gotten him to calm as he looked surprised that I knew about his escapade last night.

“You were sleeping when I got back last night, he said reflectively.

“Is that the lie you told yourself to help you sleep through the night? Honestly, I am not bothered about whom you decide to be with, I don't even care about you to give a fuck about what you decide to do with yourself. I have only agreed to do this because I wanted to repay you for saving my life and nothing more,” I said, glad that for the first time in my life, I can vent out how I truly felt.

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Alexander

My wolf winced in pain just by hearing her say she didn't care about me and that she is only with me because I saved her life.

“You are mine,” I said calmly trying to control the emotional storm my wolf was creating.

I know I have wronged her but that is not enough reason for her to refuse me or my wolf.

“Stop being delusional, I am not yours, I am only pretending to be your mate, I can never be your mate,” she said and was about to walk out on me when I pinned her roughly against the wall.

“You don't walk away from me when I am still talking ashley,” I said between my gnashing teeth, as I could feel my entire body vibrate rigorously.

Whether she knows it or she just rejected me, rejected my wolf. And I pray the lord helps me because I am doing all within me not to crush her with my bare hands.

I could see tears gather at the side of her eyes, but I was too hurt by her words to let her go easily. But I reduced my hold on her and that allowed her to hit me in my balls.

“Do your worst” she said before running out of the room, while pain and anger flowed through me like lava.

“Ashley!” I barked storming after her.