Chapter 48: Chapter 48
"Losing My Religion" - By: R.E.M.
Oh life, it's bigger
It's bigger than you And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
Every whisper
Of every waking hour
I'm choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool, fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up
Consider this
Consider this, the hint of the century
Consider this, the slip
That brought me to my knees, failed
What if all these fantasies come
Flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
But that was just a dream
Try, cry, why try
That was just a dream
Just a dream
Just a dream, dream
Chrystal's pov:
The song is finally over and I am totally exhausted and thirsty. I go ahead and start the R.E.M. song that Angie wanted. I figure she wants to dance with Mark which happens to be Terry's beta. After I do that I head to the table that has our snacks and drinks. I open the cooler and grab a bottle of water and then down it. "Mind if I join you." I spit my water out of my mouth oh my lands he is here. I can hear Kia laughing at me in my head and I growl at her to be quiet. I cannot believe I just spit my water all over the front of his chest. I hit myself in the four head, what must he think of me.
I hurry up and grab a towel to dry off the front of his shirt, the whole time he is laughing at me. Yea sure funny dude I just embarrassed the crap out of myself. It cannot get any worse than this.
He takes the hand that I was wiping with and stops me and I look up at him and he says still laughing. "It is okay it was my fault I surprised you. It is just water it will dry." I felt the sparks as he held my hand and all I could think of is he feeling this also, I doubt it. Oh why can he not know I am his mate?
"You guys were very good out there" he says.
I can feel myself blushing and all's I can say is "Thank you" come on Chrystal get it together here. You wanted him here. I am at a loss for words right now and I can tell by the way he is shuffling his feet he is also.
Then he asks me to dance, I feel my heart jump. "You know how to dance" I ask in surprise.
He runs his fingers through his hair and responds "well I cannot do what you guys did up there but I cannot be any worse than them." I look to see where he is pointing and I let out a giggle. He was pointing to his friends who were out there dancing with my friends. He reaches his hand out for me to take and I do not hesitate, anything to be near him right now.
He leads us to the dance floor and then he puts his arm around my waist and I let out a small gasp at his touch. I know he heard it because he starts to chuckle. He brings me in to his chest and I put my other hand around his neck. We stay like that for a minute like he is trying to think of how to do this, or could he be waiting for me to move. Okay he does not know what to do, I think to myself. What do I do? Do I move first or wait for him? Before I can come up with any answers to my questions he starts to move. His arm around my waist brings me to start moving with him. Now I know this is not a slow song to be dancing to but I am not complaining right now. I am in my mates arms and I am loving it.
"So how long you guys been together?" he asks me bring me out of my thoughts.
"Since I was about five" I reply.
"You don't mind me asking you questions do you? I mean I know we went to school and all but we never got to talk."
"Yea, you guys were usually busy. You was not paying attention to the geek girl" I say laughing.
"About that, why did you wear those big clothes and all? If you do not mind me asking?"
"Well I cannot say right now all's I can say is no one is supposed to know me. If you and your friends would keep all this to yourselves we would appreciate it" and my hands go around to everything I am talking about.
"I don't mind it just means I have you all to myself longer" he says while he gives me a wink and I can feel myself blush. I lower my head but he puts his fore finger under my chin and lifts my head to look at him.
"Do not hide from me any more love." I smile at this endearment he gave me. I lower my head and put my check against his chest and listen to his heartbeat. This is where I want to stay for the rest of my life, never to let go. I could not ask for a better way to spend my graduation than with him my mate.