Chapter 54: Chapter 54

Places were getting darker,

Jordan in his compound, digging in tears.

"Gloria, the love of my life!."

He cried out.

Digging and dining.

He went in, carried the body out, placed it in the hole.

He then began to cover the body in tears.

Gloria was the girl that has always been there for him when he lost everything. Anyway, that is how he was seeing things.

Among us all, Gloria had endured more than we could ever imagine. Compared to what she lived in the past.

We didn't have dinner that night. Jordan stayed by her grave.

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"Joe from the results you bisexual or you are straight. You responded passively to all the five girls. Something which much gay don't. What I don't understand is, why don't you feel excited by Izzy?!. For me, it's either you don't love her enough, or you love her, but you aren't comfortable making out with her. She is more of a best friend to you or a sister. Think over this!. Izzy must really be poor in bed. One more thing you have to know is that sex at our adolescent age is really exciting but it doesn't have that much and huge sensation we want. It's with time that, we get the experience. So I think Jason was experienced but your girlfriends weren't. So they couldn't give you what you wanted. Not forgetting the fact that you weren't as masculine as your mates. This physical appearance affected your judgment. All these factors contributed to your disorientation. And for me, now our days 60% of gays are as a result of this misorientation."

Felicia explained.

Felicia is a sexologist. She used to work with a very big company but she decided to make a solo career. More than others, she is very passionate about her job. And her ex-employer didn't love this her fiction on gays changing to hetero. He felt like it wasn't their job and it's a waste of time.

"Wow, this is great news. I hate being like this!. I want to enjoy the soft, sexy, and warmth of women bodies as I did with you!."

He explained passionately.

Felicia smiled at Joe.

"As I was younger, I had this attraction for my closes female friends. I really loved them but I wasn't in love with them. But the attraction was there. I felt like I was in love with them. I love admiring at the beautiful breasts, girls with good carved ass. I approached one of my classmates and I told her about what I was feeling, she told me that I am lesbian. At a point, I believed it. Then I decided to tell my friends that I was a Lesbian. I did, they were all surprised. One advised me to inform my mother. I first hesitate but I had a very understanding and lovely mother. When I approached my mother, do you know what she told me?!. Hahaha..."

Felicia explained.

"No!. I can't, tell me!.".

Joe asked anxiously.

"She told me that, she feels attracted by my father's sister too. I got angry that she wasn't taking me seriously. She told me this, " my daughter, don't draw conclusions yet. At a stage in our life, we can feel attracted by the same sex but it doesn't mean you are gay as much. I have felt that before. Don't be so rapid in creating your personality. Always try to focus on the normal! no matter the come out, I will be here for you. etc... She said a lot more. When she told me that she had also felt attracted by women before, I felt so relieved, at least someone understood what I was going through. It didn't sound abnormal to me, I wasn't the weird girl anymore and I wasn't stereotyped about the idea of lesbianism anymore."

Felicia counted

"How did you breakthrough?!. Or Are you gay too?!."

Joe wondered aloud.

Felicia laughed.

"I am not gay. I didn't try make-out with any girl though, I think I would have loved it. But it's not everything we love that is necessary. There was a high school guy in our school who had an eye on me, he was very attractive too. He approached me as a junior student, it was like being a queen by then. I couldn't turn him down and forfeit this opportunity of becoming so popular, in school. So, I decided to give a try?. One thing turned to another. We make-out and it was so boring. I thought, I was the problem regarding my recent attractions for girls. I began to question myself seriously. One of his friends asked me on a date. I turned him down at several accusations but he insisted until, I finally gave him a try. With a blink of an eye, I found myself on his bed. Joe, let me tell you, that guy was so good. I could get enough of him. He knew how to deal with a woman. We kept on meeting up in secret till my boyfriend, found out about us and we broke up. His friend and I stayed together for a year. Then I knew who I was. Many people aren't lucky to have a strong character as I had Or aren't shown another way out. Some people love vigorous sex but not violet. I am in this group. And we both know-how homosexuals are very active in their sex life. So many turn there and never comes out because they think they can't find that with the opposite sex!. Also, heteros are very shy to discuss sex or what they want to be done during sex with their partners. While homos aren't, they are really opened with each other... etc... Many think I hate homosexuals. I don't hate them. We are all humans, we make different choices and I can't judge them. I don't just understand them. Instead, I want every man to feel how a woman tastes. At least let's fight until we can't anymore... etc..."

Felicia explained a whole lot of things.

"Wow, quite an interesting story you got. I am really grateful!."

Joe said happily.

"Don't thank me so rapidly. Pause until you see your bills. As soon as you step your feet into my office, you are being charged. I told you nothing is free, remember!."

Felicia laughter.

Joe went out of her office, got his bills.

"OMG!. If I continue with this, I think, I will get bankrupt very soon!."

He exclaimed out in frustration.

Felicia locked up her office and met Joe where he was standing.

"This is what a day with me, cost. In the future, make sure you book your two hours appointment."

She exclaimed pointing on the bills in Joe's hand.

It was around 7 pm.

She entered her car and left.

Joe went back home to his home as well. Filled with hopes.