Chapter 33: Chapter 33

Chapter Thirty Three

CAINE

I was driving past the speed limit but I couldn't care less. I just wanted to see her. I look at my brother to see him asleep with his right hand nursing his left arm. A bruise was slowly developing on his right cheek and blood was gushing out of his busted lip.

Well, he deserves that for what he has done to Alex.

We reach the hospital and I quickly asked the nurse on what room she is currently situated in. She gave me the number of the room and I quickly rush towards the elevator, not waiting for my brother to catch up.

I guess his lucky stars are with him for he was fast enough to board inside the elevator, quite unbelievable for he has a broken knee. We reached the fifth floor and the door of the elevator slide open. nThe nurses are curiously giving me a look as they gaze at me and my twin. One of them even asked him if he was okay but he just pushed them off and limped faster.

He really is my brother...

I arrived at the farther side of the wing only to be met by Andre and Kobe. Shit, were they really here?

"Kobe?" I asked him but I was caught up by another hug. "Dwayne!" Rico exclaimed while tugging at my shirt. I shook him off and turned to my right to see Damien.

"Guys!" I exclaimed as I caught all of them into a group hug. After a while we were interrupted by a cough. I look at my back to see my twin leaning unto the wall.

"I just knew it" Kobe pointed an accusing finger at my twin and transferred his gaze at me. "You are not him and he's not you! Where have you been, Dwayne? You know that we've been-"

"Enough of this" Caiden interrupted and limped his way between us. He glared at Kobe while he dragged me down the hall.

"Why did you bring me here, Caine?" He whispered in that threatening voice of his while leaning down on my ear. "I didn't bring you here. You're the one who tag along!" I answered back.

"Stop kidding me, Caine! I know that there is a reason why you brought me here." He sneered. His eyes darkened making me nervous.

I've never seen him this mad before. Ever. Though we have fought as kids way back then though this one, it's different. He really is angry. I frowned down and tried to reason with him.

"I've brought you with me to ask you, why?" I gave him a glare but he just gave me a confuse frown.

"WHY?" He looks at me and groaned, "It all happened. I know you blame me because of that freaking accident which ends her up in a coma, but believe me, I blame myself more!"

"No,not that!" I pulled my hair in frustration. "Why? Why did you hurt her in the first place if you,"

"If I, what?"

"If you love her." I whispered in a low voice.

"What? What are you saying?" He glared at me and pulled at his hair. "Are you crazy? You're the one who loved her! Ever since that summer, I know you do" He looked down and sat on the chair.

"Yes I do, I loved her." I sighed and look at his face. "I love her as a close friend. I've done all of this because I wanted you to prove yourself. She's like a sister to me. I never wanted to hurt her but I needed to, because I wanted to see that you will protect her; that you deserve her."

"Deserve her? How can I deserve her if she can't see the true me? Ever since you died, I mean left, I've been a monster. Dad hated me and so is mom but I've proved myself to them. I made our company prosperous. I've been the one who stood with them for all these years and where were you when I needed you, Caine?"

"I'm always there, watching. I've been there all along, in every step. You never lose me, but I just really needed to be away from you so I can see-" I tried to explain it further but he just interrupted me.

"You really needed to?" He glared at me and stabbed his finger on my chest. "You're the reason why I left her, the reason why I stop myself from falling for her. You are the reason why she doesn't want me" He sighed and continues, "I've never been good for her." He looked up at me back to his shoes "I've tried but it's never been enough" He sniffed and looked at me with his tear stained face. "I'm such a coward Caine, I can't even fight for the one I love..."

I sat down beside him and gripped his shoulder. "Bro, you've always been the better one. You're tougher than me. I'm the one who is coward. I ran away and left you because I envy you. I know that you like her that's why I became envious of you. I hated you because you were trying to snatch her away from me but I am wrong." I looked at him as he did.

"I'm wrong, because after all this years, after what had happened...you've been there for her, in a bitter sweet way, I accept it that it really is. That-" I gulped, looking down at the floor.

"What? Tell me" He squinted his eyes at me and leaned closer. I push his head and chuckled." You have really fallen hard for her. Hard." I stood up and watch him stare on the wall in front of him.

"You coming?" I pointed at her door and made my way through it as he followed suit behind me. We dress ourselves in hospital gown and masks, entered her room and there, lying on the bed with a bruised cheek, chapped lips, bandage on her forehead, was the girl we both love.

I looked at Caiden and saw him staring at me too.

"Caine,"“Caiden” The both of us spoke up.

"You first," I told him as he sigh. He looked at Alex and back at me. "Caine, you're right when you told me that I love her. My cold appearance at her was just a scene, an act, so she won't go on further on loving me because she thought I was you. I just hated the fact that she loves me just because she thought I was you. I want her to love me as I am, to see me differently. I want her to stop comparing me to you." Caiden look at me and continue, “It’s hard for me to pretend that I hated her. But it hurts me to think that she always thinks of you in everything we do. In every moment it was you" He nudged my ribs and gave me a smile. "She choose you over. She loves you. Only you"

"No Cade, I can see it on her eyes. Every time I watch the two of you from a distance, I know that there's something. You might not realize it, you might to think of it as her love for me but really, it was you all along. You are the one who made her fall that summer. You are the one she really fell for, when we were kids,” I put my hand on his shoulder and squeezed, “It is a destiny. You are both meant to be together.”

“I don’t believe it. We are not destined to be together. Plus, you love her. I know you do. That is why you are capable of doing this for her.” I shook my head at him and tried to reassure him once again.

“But I love her as a sister, only. I've done all of these to save her. Look at me, I'm a criminal. I even put the both of your lives in danger. I ruin the both of you and flattering me with those words won’t even console me from the guilt I am feeling. I don't know how to ask forgiveness, for all that I've done, a sorry is not worth it."

"Caine, don't think of it as your fault. I have the fair share of it too, bro. She hated me to the ends of the earth and when she wakes up, she might strangle me to death. She chose you, that’s what matters, right?"

"No, she chose you. Why do you keep on thinking that it is otherwise? She even demanded me to book her a flight to New York back when we were in Hawaii. She loves you, can't you see it? Can’t you really?"

"You're kidding, Caine. She can't love a cold-hearted monster like me. I've done nothing but to hurt her. I've made her go crazy, wild, and be numb. It's all negative."

"No. You made her strong. Whatever you are thinking is only you. Don’t degrade yourself so much. I can prove it to you as long as she wakes up. She wanted you. I know that I'm her first but she just didn’t know that it was really you she have fallen for.”

Silence has passed between the two of us. I watch Alex face as caressed it. Meanwhile, Caiden suddenly spoke and what he said made me want to strangle him. “I'm done here. I don't want to hurt her. I cannot lick all the wounds I made for her as I do the same to me. We just keep on hurting each other." He sighed and gripped his injured arm. A tear fall from his eyes that made me feel sorry for him."I cannot change what had happen for it's done. Maybe it's time for me to go back to Europe and start a new branch in Germany. The company is booming and soon that new branch will help satisfy my customers, I--"

"Cade, listen to me! She's unto you. You are her future. I know you've done things you shouldn't, like me, but you cannot change what have happened. You cannot undo the past but you can make new memories." I gripped his shirt and pushed him unto the wall in front of us. The impact made him groaned but I needed to knock some sense unto him. "You can do it Cade. Memories are snatched away from you but you have gained it all back and now, don't let her go because she's all yours. I'm happy to know that you deserve her." He shook his head and frowned down at his shoes.

He started to remove his mask and then his hospital gown. His face was emotionless, his eyes were glassy. He handed me the mask and the gown. He looked up at my face and I can see it contorted into that poker's face I have always known when he is talking about business.

He was making his way through the door when I realized what he was really doing. No. He won’t. I won’t let him. I grip his shirt and drag him back, "Don't do this Cade, don't." He just stared at me with his emotionless eyes. They are so cold that I felt shivering under his gaze.

"Please Cade, stay for her. Don't leave her like what I've done seven years ago. She's already broken because of me. I do not know if she'll ever be the girl we met if you leave her now," I look at the broken girl on the bed and back to my twin. "Please Cade, she was already shattered into million pieces" He look at me once again and grab my hand on his shoulder. He gave it a tight squeeze and shrug. “Cade, if you go now, you won’t ever have the chance to go back. Please, just stay. I will help you. I promise.” I hold unto him, desperately.

I cannot let this happen.

They were perfect; A perfect match. I cannot just let these two souls be ruined. Two souls broken were too much for me. My guilt is choking me that I have to grab my twin. It’s been too hard to watch a soul acting dead, what would it be to watch two of them?

It will just make me crazy and completely insane. I don't even know how to solve a puzzle what more for a broken soul?

He gave me a broken smile and a barely audible "Goodbye..." before turning the knob.

"No Cade, NOOO!" but it's all too late for as soon as he closed the door behind him, a loud continuous beep filled the room ending it with a point.

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