Chapter 14: Chapter 14

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Chapter Fourteen

ALEX

It's my first day of college. I was brought to school by Lisa. I'm not that happy for the last two week sbecause I didn't get to see Caiden. He rarely called, scratch that, he never called until now.

I'm pretty sad because of his lack of attention to me. I know his busy but still, I miss him. I don't want to accept it at first but as the minutes passed by, the feeling of being alone scared me.

I remembered our summer vacation of which we spent together quarrelling, snapping at each other. We can't even stay in the same room together but as the time passed, we realize that we aren't complete without each other's presence.

It's stupid when I think of all those fights we had because of those little things. I might think I've gone crazy if I saw myself what I've been doing now. Thinking about him, the devil who made me cry, which was the one who also healed me, comfort me and is the one who made me forget about Dwayne, was just unexplainable.

He was my worst enemy. For the record, he really is! But I don't know if he's still my enemy until now for I really miss him already like a worried girlfriend would do. I longed for his voice, not only it but his presence.

"Hey, you seem to be thinking hard. You should drink this" A familiar voice said behind me and I knew that because of her bracelet

"Kathy!" I squealed and hugged her to myself. I couldn't contain the tears of joy that poured on my cheeks.

"Shh, c'mon stop crying Alex, we're here" Keith said smiling at the two of us

"Keith!"

"Yes, I am" She hugged me and together we catch up.

They told me on how they tried to find me and Cade but then Caiden called Nate saying that he'll take me with him. They spend two weeks more at the beach house and they even went to that same island Caiden took me. He lends them his yatch and they were amazed on how luxurious it was.

They also played extreme sports and tried sky diving. Kathy squealed in delight as she reminisces about the experience. Keith nodded in agreement as she always want to try sky diving. I also asked how their relationships are going. Kathy and Nate are still together and Jake and Keith are now officially dating.

I'm happy for the two of them but I felt sad as they told me about the romantic things the guys did for them. I remembered the Caiden who brought me to the island, how he saved me twice, serenaded me. The one who is very romantic in every way but now, I think that Caiden is left out in Malibu, like what happen to Dwayne.

I will never be happy with this Caiden who is here with me in Connecticut. He will always be the devil, the one who work countless hours rather than spending his time with me. My thoughts were interrupted by Kathy who is waving her hands in front of me.

"Hey! Are you daydreaming about Dwayne again?"

"No. maybe she's daydreaming about Caiden now" Keith smirked.

"I'm not, I'm just thinking about how Caiden suddenly changes from that very romantic guy into this cold heartless as*hole"

"He was back on being an as*hole?" The two of them looked at me like I was being lunatic

"Yes he is. From the moment we left Malibu to New York, I think he's back to that mode again" I sighed and turn to them.

"C'mon let's not talk about this. Why are you here in this school?" I turned to the two of them.

"Well Nate and Jake will take buisness in Yale and I will take Dance. Keith will take buisness too but-"

"Then, why is she here in our school?"

"Wait! You didn't let me finish my statement. She finally gave in and will study dance with me. I just notice how she was really good at ballet and I on hip-hop" Kathy grinned with all her pearly white teeth and that reminded me of Tommy

"How's Tommy by the way?"

"He's good actually, he wanted to join us but then his parents don’t approve it. He's really sad and he cried nonstop that day we leave."

"Oh" The bell rings and we scurried off to our classes

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Everything went well. My art class was fantastic and that made me not to think much about Caiden. Our professor told us that we are going to have an activity tomorrow and so we needed to bring our art utensils.

Kathy and Keith accompanied me to star bucks and there we have a little chit chat. They also informed me that they live in the same dorm where I was. We talked about the things we did at school and how awesome to be a college student. My phone rings beside me and I answered it in the first ring without looking at the caller Id.

"Hello?" please be Caiden, please be Him

"Lex" A male voice answered

"I'm sorry. Who is this?"

"How can you forget me, couz"

"Couz? I have a cousin?" I look at Kathy and Keith and they just shrugged.

"Yes, couz. I'm standing right at your back" he laughed and that made me look around

"Who are you?" I asked while walking near him.

"Like what I said I'm your cousin, Andre." He smiled at me and I can see that he look a little bit like dad

"But why are you here? And why did you just turn up now, not on the right time or the right place and, I can't even remember my parents talk about any of our relatives"

"Well okay, I'll tell you the story. We were-"

"Wait. Can we just go back to our seat? I don't want to catch attention." I looked at the group of teenagers staring at us and that made them look down at their food.

"Oh. Okay" I pulled him to our table and introduce him to Keith and Kathy

"How come we didn't know you have a, a cousin?" Keith looked at Andre and at me.

"I just knew it right at this moment, Okay?"

"Okay, no need to be snappy"

"I'm sorry" I turned back to Andre as he was starting to drink my frap " So, tell me the story"

"You were 5 years old when we first met at my 7th birthday. But then Grandma took me away because of the accident that happened to our parents. Grandma blamed your parents because they went with them that time and your parents went home unharmed with you while my parents end up dead and they left me all alone." He sniffed and looked at me with grey eyes like mine.

"I, I was crying, trying to stop grandma when we're about to go to London but she can't accept the death of my parents, especially Dad. I can't even remember what they look like. Grandma won't let me see the pictures. She won't even tell me if we have relatives left and so I tried to track you down." He look at me with tears flowing on his cheeks.

"But how come you found me? And why turn up now when I am so confused. There's so many things I needed to do!" I turned my back at him and started to go

"Lex!"

" LEX!"

I started my car and went back to my dorm. I tossed my car keys on the coffee table and shut my door close. The tears were brimming in my eyes and I can't help the sob that came out of my mouth. I don't have any spaces left on my brain to think about this additional information. It's just too unbearable having to think about many things.

I tried to call Caiden but it directed into voice mail. I sighed in frustration and started to pull my hair out of there scalp. I wanted to scream and trashed my room for all the things that are happening to me it's so confusing!

I pulled out my canvas and started to paint. I don't know what this pain in my heart is but as I think about Caiden it was there, like a hole was eating my heart. I was completely blind when I did this painting but I couldn't care less. I was so angry to think about what I was going to paint

All that matters to me now is how I am going to make the pain go away. Even if painting a useless canvas just to ease a little bit of this ton-weighted sack of pain.

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I woke up in front of my canvas. I looked at it and realize that I have painted a boy comforting a lonely girl. I sighed as that image is what I needed right now.

Comfort; comfort from the arms of that boy, I suspected was Dwayne.

I took a bath and went to my classes. I asked Lisa if she could just leave me with the keys for I know how to drive and I don't need a P.A. following me around the city.

The day went on without any sign of Keith and Kathy. I think they are giving me time to think and I'm grateful for that. Andre did not call me and it's okay for me. I don't know how I could get my head off of these things. So many problems are coming on my way and I can't even find any solution.

The hours go on to days to weeks and now it's been almost 3 months with no sign of Caiden in this planet. Sometimes, I wonder where he was. Is he on the other dimension or maybe he just wanted to forget my annoying presence?

I was back on being that robot I have been five months ago. Wailing not because of Dwayne but because of his look alike, Caiden cold foot.

How I miss to tease the sh*t outta him.

The twins have been there to support me, Andre too. He is taking up music and was a very good musical director. Plus, he loves to compose songs. He doesn't bother me much like what I had expected him to. He stays out of my way and I'm pretty glad he was. We all hang out together as a group.

There's been one time, eons away. When Andre asked me why I was always holding my phone and I just shrugged, switching off to another subject. Keith and Kathy never asked about it nor do I want to explain it to them. I'm pretty sure I'll be going to explode right there at that moment.

Winter is fast approaching and I don't know if our engagement party was still on the line. I don't even know if Caiden wanted to marry me, or be his partner forever until the both of us agreed to divorce. But I doubt it that I would like to divorce the love of my life.

I don't know but right now as I finished my fifth canvas of my frustration all I think about is the night we spend at the yacht.

The first night we sleep together, the night of meteor showers, the night we were officially classified as couples. All of it added fuel to the fire of my frustration of Caiden leaving me, I hate him! Despise him even.

I was startled of my little flashback when someone knocked on my door. I stood up begrudgingly and walked in a beeline towards it.

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