Chapter 77: Chapter 77

The result of the test came out positive, "oh my goodness!" I exclaimed holding my palms to cover my lips,

Dr Sam just stared at me without saying anything, "how can this be?" I asked out loud and looking at Dr Sam, I did not know I will react this way, and my both hands are still trembling right now, my feet were too.

"I should be asking you that?" Dr Sam told me, "how come the results came out positive, who are the kids anyway, and who is their mother, and how come you are surprised at the outcome of the results, where you not in a relationship with their mother, or where you not in love with her?" Dr Sam asked simultaneously, peering inquisitively at me.

I stared at him too, wondering what my reply should be, at this moment, I do not know what to say.

"You are going to get married in a few weeks from now," Dr Sam reminded me, I looked at him, wondering how he knew about that.

"Your dad told me about it when we spoke on the phone yesterday," Dr Sam said, I guess he saw the surprised look on my face, "how are you going to go about this?" He asked again

"I do not know, Dr Sam, what I know is that I am as confused as hell right now, I told you before that it is complicated, remember?" I asked him.

"Complicated, yes," Dr Sam agreed, nodding his head, "but in all this, it is your life and there are kids involved now, you cannot throw that fact away, it is something to be proud of, if you ask me," Dr Sam told me.

"Do you love the mother of your kids?" Dr Sam asked me after a brief pause.

"Yes, Dr Sam," I replied after a while too, "I love the mother of these kids very much, more than you can ever imagine, I have loved her for a very long time and I did not know she had kids for me," I told Dr Sam.

"How so?" Dr Sam asked me, "did the mother of your kids not tell you when she was pregnant?" He asked me, "and why are you just finding out now?" He asked again, "Did she just come to you now?" He asked yet again.

I wonder where he is getting at with these questions, "No Dr Sam, it isn't the way you think, this is very complicated more than you can ever imagine, the mother of these kids was and is my one true love," I said and continued after a while again because of the look on Dr Sam's face.

"You see, I committed a sin against her, a sin that left a heavy burden in my chest up until this day, I searched for her, later on, to ask for her forgiveness but it was too late and I could not find her."

"This is serious, Kyle," Dr Sam told me, I think he is getting the picture now, "and by sin, you mean?" He asked still peering inquisitively at me, with his palms folded together.

"It was a terrible mistake Doc, I have never told a single soul about this, I was drunk and I think I was drugged as well, that I had to rape her, I did not mean to rape her, Dr Sam..."

"Wait a minute, Kyle, I thought you two were in a relationship," Dr Sam said interrupting me.

"No, Doc, we were not in a relationship yet,"

"What do you mean, you were not in a relationship yet?" He asked.

"I used to watch her from afar for about a year," I told Dr Sam.

"What?" He asked looking and sounding surprised.

"I know, it is ridiculous, right?" I asked him.

"Yes, Kyle, tell me what happened, I mean, how did it happen then?" Dr Sam asked peering inquisitively at me still.

"You know the situation with my family, I used to drive off sometimes when I feel I can't stand my family you know, especially my Dad, and on this very day I drove off farther than I used to, that was the day I met her," I told Dr Sam, remembering how I met Kimberly, while Dr Sam just stared at me.

"I felt attracted to her immediately and from that day on, I began to think of her, and before I knew it I began to secretly watch her, slowly, too, I realized that I have fallen for her, one day I pick the courage to talk to her and tell her how I feel, but little did I know that it was going to difficult," I told Dr Sam, who kept on gazing at me.

"Look Doc, to cut the long story short, I ended up raping her, not because I wanted to, but because of the situation at that time and for years now, over three years now, you see, I have carried this guilt with me hoping that I will see her someday and apologize to her but, fate brought us face to face again in an awkward manner and now I think she hates me very much," I said and continues.

"It was out of curiosity, I had to find out about these kids, I doubted the possibilities of this being true but I still have to go on with it just to make sure because of her circumstance too," I told Dr Sam, feeling very terrible now.

"Get a hold of yourself, Kyle," Dr Sam told me, seeing how terrible I looked, I guess.

"This Sonia you are about to get married to, do you love her?" Dr Sam asked after a short silence.

"No Doc, I do not love her, my parents are the one's imposing this on me, I never proposed to Sonia, it was all my Dad's idea, after the night of the incident I have not been able to feel anything for any woman neither did I picture myself having a relationship with any other woman, I wanted to find my true love again and apologize to her, Doc, and now that I have found her, it happened that she has kids for me and the painful part is she hates me so much, now I do not know how to get out of this, Doc, I thought I did, I thought I would come up with something, and on top of all this, I do not know if she already has a husband," I told Dr Sam covering my face with my palms, recalling the hatred I saw in Kimberly's eyes.

"It is alright, Kyle, we are human and mistakes are bound to happen," Dr Sam told me.

"Dr Sam, I am a terrible person, I did not only rape her, but I also ran away, and she must have suffered, that will be the reason for her hatred and I do not blame for it, I deserve it, Dr Sam..."

"It is alright, Kyle, pull yourself together," Dr Sam said walking from his chair to mine and pat on my shoulder.

"I know you, Kyle, you are one decent man I have known and this is coming as a surprise to me though, as I said, we are bound to make mistakes as humans, the most important thing is to own up to our mistakes and find a way to fix them, now that you have discovered this, I think you should approach the mother of your kids, explain to her genuinely what happened and see how it goes from there then you should also tell your parents especially your Dad to call off the wedding because from the look of things, you do not love Sonia, I saw the way you too wear when you were in the hospital, I mean, I used to think that you two were lovers judging from the times when you were little but from the looks of things recently, you are going to go through hell if you go through with this marriage..." Dr Sam was saying when the door to Dr Sam's office suddenly opened after a knock and a female nurse walks in interrupting him.

"Sorry to bother you, Doc, here is the file you requested," the female nurse told Dr Sam.

"Okay, thanks, Shilla," Dr Sam told the female nurse after taking the file from her and briefly scanning through it.

He walked back to his chair again and continues after sitting down, "I will advise you, Kyle, to call off the wedding whether your parents agree to it or not, it is Your Life,"

"I know, Dr Sam, marring Sonia is the least of my worries right now, the most important thing for me to do now is to talk to mother of my kids, my challenge now is, if she has a husband already,"

"If I may ask, can you take me to this woman? Maybe I can be of help you talk to her," Dr Sam asked.

"Do not worry about that Dr Sam, I do not want to drag you into this," I told him not willing to let him know who I am talking about.

"And why not?" Dr Sam asked sounding a little surprised, I guess, and I am wondering what Excuse to give him right now.

"I saw how mad my mum was at you when you transfuse my blood to Little Alex, I do not want that to repeat itself, I am scared of what she might do to you," I told Dr Sam.

"Excuse me," Dr Sam said staring deeply at me, "Alex? Is Alex and Sandra by chance the kids you are talking about here?" Dr Sam asked filled with curiosity ignoring what I just said.

I stared back at him, I knew that sooner or later he is going to figure it out and he did it sooner than I thought, I said within me.

"Yes, Dr Sam," I replied, nodding my head slowly as I did.

"Oh my goodness!" Dr Sam exclaimed leaning back on his chair again.

"I should have known," he told me biting his lower lip and gazing steadily at me, "I saw the rage in her eyes the moment she saw you in my office and learnt that you are the man that knocked her son down, I knew then that something was not right, but I could not just tell what it is," Dr Sam told me and continues.

"The woman you speak of is married to that man Jimmy guy, isn't she," Dr Sam said and asked.

"No Doc, she is not married to him, that man is in fact the fiancé of her best friend, Vicky, the other lady that was with her," I told him.

"Oh, is that so?" he asked, "then if she is not married, I think it makes things less complicated, go and talk to her, things might not be as difficult as you think provided something was behind the reason you raped her when you did ."Dr Sam told me.

"Jimmy is not her husband but I think she has a husband, I mean she told me that herself," I told Dr Sam.

"I see, but you still have to talk to her, tell her the truth about what happened between you two, and do not hesitate to come to me if you need my help," Dr Sam told me.

"Thanks, Dr Sam," I said standing up from the chair.

"Any time Kyle," Dr Sam replied too, before I left his office.

I need to go and talk to Kimberly, I said within me, still wondering how I am ever going to do that, especially when I stole the DNA sample from her kid...