Chapter 24: Chapter 24

The roaring noise of thunder deafened unto my eardrum. The wind harshly blew my hair, terpsichorean with the wind. My body is shivering from the coarse rustling of nature. I squeezed myself as I tried to keep intact on the ground, trying my best not to lose consciousness. I blew an abysmal breath. I focused my attention on the basis, trying to apprehend where I was heading.

I don’t know anymore. I watched the raindrops fall on the sidewalk as the sky cried. The weather coexists with how I feel. I smiled bitterly when the rain worsened. I paused, then looked up. I didn’t blink as the rainfall unto my confront. I couldn’t feel the stinging notion in my eyes, and my vision was getting blurry, but I didn’t care anymore. I’m used to woe. Pain is my middle name. Agony is my best friend.

“You’re fired!” the voice echoed inside my head. The slamming of the table made me flinched but not daunted. As I walked away from that place, I began to wander around then I got here.

I didn’t mind if I was in the middle of the road. If a truck comes and sweeps my body, it would be my pleasure to experience it. I would even say my gratitude to the driver. I closed my eyes and spread my arms. I swirl around the area. I laugh at the storm. I danced with the wind. I feel alive but dead inside.

Honestly? I’m not worried if I’m dropping out of school. I’m not distressed if I’m also jobless. I’m not disquieted if I am alone in my life. I let out a low, humorless chuckle. Maybe I am destined to be wretched for the rest of my existence. Perhaps, it was my destined to get killed by Ethan. However, due to uncertain events, he let me live. Now, I regret it.

It’s amusing he’s not here. I was looking for him. This time, I am ready to put an end to this wretchedness. But he didn’t show up even if I screamed for his name.

“ETHAN! WHERE ARE YOU?!” I dauntlessly shouted. I meandered my eyes around the area, looking for his towering figure. But no silhouette of him has appeared.

“Show your fucking self! I’m not afraid of you!” I taunted him. I know he’s not fond of somebody who derides him. I stomped my feet on the ground, and the water was sprinkling roughly. I giggled gravely. I feel so lively and on the loose!

“What’s the matter? Are you scared? HA! I thought you loved blood?! I thought you love making someone miserable?! Well, news flash! I volunteer myself to get clawed by your sharp nails! I am willing to get torn apart!”

I stop when I can’t see clearly. I thought it was because of the overwhelming rain that’s making everything hazy, but it was my tears. I drawback, nauseated. Are you kidding me right now, Natasha? Are you crying? For what? You shouldn’t be shedding tears! How dare you feel any emotions!

I snickered, punched, and kicked in the air as if I were in hand-to-hand combat with someone. I stepped but inadvertently slipped on the ground, slamming on the floor. My head hit the concrete. Rather than feeling any torment, my lips gradually bent into a grin. I know I’m losing it. I’m mindful of what’s happening to my morale.

However, since my feelings are so blended, I can not control what I do. I move on reason as if overlapping. I shook my head when my tears spontaneously fell. I attempted to stop them, but my eyes betrayed me. They drip impulsively. At the same time, my heart was beating fast, and intense emotions were building up in my heart.

“No! This is unacceptable!” I yelled while looking upon the sky. I’m soaking wet as the lightning flash in my eyes.

“I shouldn’t be crying! I shouldn’t be” before I could even finish what I was saying, I broke down. My mind went blank, contradistinction with my aching heart.

“This is so unjustifiable! Why is a life full of misery?! Why do a few guiltless individuals endure like this?! Do we merit it? Why do the suspects run free? Whereas those victims fall under their traps?!”

I don’t know what I am even saying. I closed my eyes when a bright flash occurred. It was taken after by thunder, making the ground tremble. It didn’t stop. I thought there was a seismic tremor when I heard an uproarious blaring of a vehicle.

I turned my attention to the side street. The truck was coming towards my way. My body stopped, and my breathing hitched, expecting the right moment to get exploited. This is it. I closed my eyes as recollections of what happened to my life adulterated my mind. It’s like a motion picture film that’s going fast. Each picture was accelerating. I couldn’t even get a hold of what was appearing when it stopped to a specific face that made me dyspeptic.

Those alluring eyes held me captive. Those wicked lips I tasted. Why did it cease to him? We didn't even have any particular moment that it's memorable. He opened his mouth. He was yelling for something as he reached for my hand, the sound of vehicle spouting in my ears. I sprang my eyes, the tires were an inch close to my face when a sudden force appeared, and the truck flew away from my face. It made a boisterous shriek. The driver was controlling it but fizzled. The vehicle rolled over and crashed on the tree, alarming the whole place.

I observed how the neighborhood got out of their home, looking at the commotion. When they saw the truck that turned upside down, the driver slithering away from outliving, they hollered for help. My lips trembled when I lost sight of them. I didn’t notice I was being taken away. I slowly looked down and saw Ethan. He’s transformed with his wolf form as he departs into the woods. It happened too fast, and I didn’t realize he had made the racket.

I was puzzled, and I couldn’t get a handle on what had happened. I gradually turn my vision upfront and let my head drop on his fur. I grasped him until I fell asleep.

“Natasha…”

I jolted up, my intuitive kicking when I felt a hand caressing my inner thighs. I looked down and froze when our eyes locked. Ethan is on the edge of the bed. His hands are resting on the mattress, caging me between his arms. I gulped the knot in my throat when he drifted over me, and his trapping eyes were deliberately analyzing my face. I just realized I wasn’t wearing anything. He must have removed my dress. In my peripheral view, I saw a bucket with a towel. So, he’s cleaning me.

“What are you thinking?!”

I squealed in fear when he showed me his claws and scraped the bed next to me. My body shuddered, and my lips parted in shock when he howled. His half-face began to alter. His blood shut eyes look in my way. His pointy teeth are trickling with ruddy fluid. I felt my soul clear out my body when he punched the divider, making the ground tremble. He’s fuming.

"Do you have any idea what you're doing? I let you live!" he brought up the table and crushed it into pieces with his hands. Oh god, he's strong. He can tear me apart using his fingers. I shouted when he snatched my arm and constrained me to look into his eyes.

“Are you fucking out of your mind?! TELL ME!” he’s going ballistic. He shook my shoulders then dropped me on the bed. My eyes narrowed, and my heart ignited. I clenched my hands as my jaw was moving hard. I felt his arms jarring me up. He was about to waver over me when I turned around then slapped him.

He froze in his spot, his hand on his cheeks. My heart is pounding, and my inner parts are going crazy, but I don’t care anymore. I slap him once more, this time to his other cheek. His luscious lips parted, but his jaw tightened. I strolled up to him, my breast hitching against his skin.

“YES! I am fucking out of my mind! You want to know why?! It’s because of you!”

I pointed my finger at him, making him realize it was all his damn fault. He didn’t say anything. He just stood there. I took a closer step, and I pushed him. He didn’t lurch on his spot. I snatch him on his collar, and I inch my face closer to him. My tears are shaping as my muscles are straining.

“You ruined my life! Ever since you came! Everything was a disaster! Outrageous! I felt abused! You played with me! And now, you emotionally tortured me! I wish you were never born in the first place!” I slap him again.

“All I ever wanted was to feel appreciated! To be love! To be adored! Someone who will never leave my side!”

I turned around. I can’t take this any longer. I needed to run away from him, from this place. I know I was looking for him earlier, but I changed my mind. He’s not going to slaughter me. I don’t understand why the thought of him killing me doesn’t intrigue him any longer. I will make a way to end this nonsense.

I took a step, but he swirled me around. When I am face to face with him, my eyes widen when I see an emotion I couldn’t think he would show me.

“I am here, Natasha! I’m always here! I won’t ever leave your side! I’m doing all of these to protect you! Because it’s the only thing I know, I could do! That’s why I’m trying my fucking best to change! To be better for you! To take care of you even if you pushed me countless times!”

He gradually bowed down. He clasped his palms. He bent his forehead until it reached the floor when he reached the ground. I couldn’t speak. I don’t know what to say. He crept towards my feet and then wrapped his arms around my legs while stooping low.

“I never want to stop pursuing you, Natasha, even if you break my heart repeatedly.”