Chapter 87: Chapter 87

I squirm lying on Gavin's bed, my ex-bed, not able to sleep. I guess it's past 2 Am now. Gavin is peacefully sleeping beside me. Grace too is sound asleep on her bed beside us. Only I can't sleep.

I feel cold. I'm missing that comforting warmth.

" Nate..", Gavin suddenly calls. I involuntarily hum to him.

" You haven't slept yet ?", he asks in a sheepish voice.

" Yeah..I- I slept.", I quickly say. Gavin let's out a chuckle and turns around, facing me.

" Can't sleep without Ethan ?", he asks me with a hint of tease in his voice.

" No ! Not that.", I quickly shake my head.

" C'mon..it's that. Why arguing ? He will come back in two days.", he says.

" No..it's really..not that. I was just thinking about s..something.", I argue back.

" Oh what were you thinking about ?", he asks.

I was actually thinking about Ethan.

" Ahm..about my parents..my sister..."

" Oh..okay.", Gavin nods cutting me in the middle. " Just stop thinking and sleep now. It's late." I nod to him and then lie straight on my back, closing my eyes. But still I'm thinking about Ethan.

He had called me at about 10 and then we had talked for almost half an hour. He said he got a big birthday cake itself for his Mom along with a silver bracelet, his birthday present. But his Mom wasn't that surprised like he expected. She told him, she already knew he will come with a cake to surprise her. But anyway she was really happy and told him the bracelet is really beautiful.

I too want to do something on my Mom's next birthday. Her birthday became almost forgotten after Alex's death.

Next day I wake up late, actually hearing the mess bell. But still I am the first one to wake up. Gavin and Grace are still peacefully asleep. They didn't hear the bell at all.

I wake both of them up before I rush out of the room to go to my dorm and brush my teeth. I meet them both in Dorm A's mess hall, fifteen minutes later. Today none of us were in a mood to dress up and go out for breakfast. So we decided to have breakfast from mess itself.

After we finished our plates whilst complaining about Mess' supposedly Pizza, I walk back to my dorm to finish a few of my assignments and homeworks. I also have a Biology test on Monday. So I'll better study today.

Ethan calls me right when I reach back at dorm. We talk for sometime and then I sit back on the desk chair, opening my Calculus notebook.

While doing the problems, I find myself stop writing and going to think about Ethan, ever so often. And when I try not to think about him and concentrate on the problem, I end up messing up the problem.

He is affecting me way more than I expected. I'm simply smiling thinking about him. And his sweet words and nicknames for me keeps on playing in my head, making me blush. I wish he was here near me and I was teaching him Calculus. He had told me to teach him some maths but I didn't tutor him yet. However I think, now if we sit down to study together, I would end up learning how to kiss better, rather than tutoring him Maths.

Doesn't he kiss me too much ? I think so.

But I miss it. I want this two days to go faster. I'm badly missing him.

Maybe this is because this thing is new to me. I've never dated anyone before. Maybe this excitement and all will slowly die down in a week or a month.

Oh ! I should be finishing my homeworks right now instead of thinking about him.

I take my pen back from the table and start writing down the next problem. Not even five minutes later, I find myself thinking about my cute, handsome boyfriend again.

Wait ! Did I call him my boyfriend by any chance ?

Okay..uhm..we are kind of dating, right ? So I guess I can call him my boyfriend.

Ahh c'mon..I'm supposed to finish my works !

It takes me double the time I usually take to finish the Calculus problems and rest of the homeworks. And when I open the Biology text book, the mess bell for lunch already rings.

Again we have lunch from the mess and Gavin and Grace invites me to their dorm. But I refuse saying I need to study for my test. And they don't force me to come. Cause strangely, they are also studying today. They share three classes together. It's a wonder I don't share any classes with them.

I haven't finished studying biology, even at 6 PM. Cause my mind kept on deviating and Ethan kept on texting me for a long time after lunch.

My phone again makes a 'bing' sound indicating a notification hit it. Thinking it's Ethan again, I pick it from the desk. But it's actually a message from Grace asking me to go to their dorm with my books if I still haven't finished studying.

I text her I'll come in twenty minutes and continue reading the biology chapter. I just have two more pages to finish.

When I finally finish the lesson and stands up from the chair, closing my book, a knock is heard on my door. Did Gavin and Grace come here ?

I quickly go and open the door. And to my surprise, Ethan is standing in front of me in all his glory, smiling widely at me.

" Why you came back t..today !?", I ask him, looking at him surprised.

" You didn't want me to come ?", he asks walking in and closing the door behind.

" You said you will only come back on M..monday morning.", I say as he goes to the desk chair and places his bag and stuff down.

" Did I say that ?", he asks turning to me. Didn't he say that ?

As I open my mouth to reply, he stares hungrily at my lips and starts coming closer to me, making me gulp.

" Are you happy or sad that I came earlier?", he asks in a low whisper as he reach closer.

" Ahm..I- I don't feel particularly h..happy or sad.", I reply.

" Really ?", he chuckles. " I heard someone couldn't sleep properly yesterday."

Shit Gavin !

" No..I..",

Before I could protest, his lips are on me and I'm kissing him back. His hands wrap around my waist. " Jump", he feeds against my lips.

What ??

Soon I understand what he meant as he pulls away from the kiss and picks me up from the floor, making me wrap my legs around his waist. I immediately snakes my arms around his neck. " Next time you should jump.", he says before connecting his lips again with mine.

His hands slides under my t-shirt and runs on the skin of my back as he kisses me softly. My whole body tingles from his touch. Then he is walking with me to the bed while still kissing me.

He gently makes me lie down on the bed and towers on top of me. I feel impatient as he stares down at me without connecting our lips. I wrap my hands around his neck and pulls him down. But he pulls further up, against my wish and smiles broadly at me. " Didn't you miss me ?" I don't reply, but look at his lips.

" C'mon..no kisses untill you say the truth."

I realize I was biting down on my lips and I quickly lower my gaze, feeling my cheeks heat up.

" Say it. ", he says sitting up and sliding his hands under my t-shirt. I involuntarily arches my back as his warm finger tips brush over the skin of my waist.

" Yeah..m..maybe I missed you a little.", I say quickly yanking away his hands as his thumb presses my belly button.

" Say you like me.", he says and pulls up my t-shirt, revealing my stomach.

" Stop..", I say and try to pull down my T-shirt, feeling insecure. I don't have abs and all like him. But he holds my both wrist with his left hand and pulls my clothing further up.

" Beautiful belly.", he smiles caressing the skin of my lower abdomen. Then he bends down and kisses my stomach. I feel my whole body on fire.

" No..s..stop ! ", I say as his right hand roam further upward. But he doesn't stop and his finger nails brush over my skin giving me goosebumps all over.

" Stop ! I like you !", I scream as his fingers almost touch my nipples. But he only takes away his hands after pinching it, causing me to arch my body upward and let out a whimper.

Then when I glance up at him, he is smiling down at me with a satisfied expression on his face. I feel embarrassed than ever. I want to turn around and hide my face. But he is literally sitting above me, still holding my both wrist in his hands. I feel vulnerable, like a prey under him. He can literally do anything to me he wants.

His right hand rest over my waist again. His fingers soon tug on the waist band of my shorts and slowly starts to slide inside. I don't say anything but I feel myself tearing up.

His fingers slowly starts to slide under my underwear and getting no response from me, he finally looks up at my face. Instantly he frees my hands and his right hand withdraw from underneath my shorts. The next moment he cups my face with his both hands, looking at me worriedly.

" Baby...I- I'm so sorry. Did I hurt you ? ", he says, his thumb wipes my tears. I bite down on my lip to control a sob. " Why didn't you...ahh..I'm so sorry.", he says and kisses my forehead.

" Ethan, I- I don't want to h..have sex.", I whimper as he pulls away from me.

" I was not going to do that, baby.", he says caressing my cheeks. " Did you get scared ? ", he asks gently.

I nod to him and instantly he hugs me and flips us over, switching positions. " I'm sorry. I promise, from now on I'll stop when you say. ", he says hugging me to his chest and patting my back. I nod and snuggles my head into the crook of his neck, hugging him back.

I close my eyes and lie like that feeling the warmth of his chest while his fingers run gently through my locks. After sitting and studying for hours, it's kinda comfortable and soothing to lie over his body with him massaging my scalp.

But then my phone rings on the table and Ethan stops moving his fingers. " Who is calling you ?", he asks.

" Probably Grace or Gavin. Grace t..texted me sometime before to go to their dorm.", I reply reluctantly getting off of him.

. " You didn't tell them y..you are coming ?", I ask him whilst crawling out of the bed and walking to the desk.

" No..I just thought to give you all a surprise.", Ethan replies. I look at my phone screen and it's Gavin itself calling. " It’s Gavin..", I say to Ethan and he tells me to put the phone on speaker.

" Hey Nate, why aren't you here yet ? ", Gavin asks as I answer the call and puts it on speaker, walking to the bed.

" He isn't coming. I'm here.", Ethan replies for me.

" Oh ! Woah ! When did you come ?", Gavin asks in surprise. Grace's surprised voice can also be heard in the background.

" Just now. And I brought my car. Let's go somewhere tomorrow.", he says taking the phone from my hands.

" Oh Great ! ", Gavin squeals while I look at Ethan surprised. So he came driving his car ?

" So what did you tell your parents about taking car and returning today itself ?", it's Grace's voice.

" Just said you guys are planning to go to the beach tomorrow and asked me to come with my car. ", he replies chuckling.

" You liar ! ", Grace squeals laughing.

" So what are we doing tomorrow?", Gavin asks.

" Let's decide tomorrow. Okay Goodnight guys. We will see you tomorrow."

Ethan hangs up the call after Grace and Gavin murmurs a Goodnight whilst mumbling something about his impatience to cut the call. He then tosses my phone to the far away table whilst chuckling, making me gasp.

" Why did you throw my ph..phone ? What if it fell down ?", I ask glaring at him.

" It won't fall. At least I'm a football player. And if it fall, I'm here to buy you a new phone. ", Ethan says.

" Oh ! Really ? Where do you g..get money ? Do you have any job ?", I ask him. He just laughs at me and shakes his head before grabbing my hands and pulling me down to his chest, simultaneously falling backward on the bed with me. I gasp at his sudden action. I'm again lying over his body, just like earlier.

" I brought your favourite Pizza and chocolate milkshake. Let's cuddle for sometime and then have it.", he says. I nod to him before snuggling my head between his neck and shoulders.