Chapter 57: Chapter 57

Ethan's POV

I lay on a lounge chair by the edge of our school's pool in my swim suit, looking at Gavin and Grace swimming and splashing water at each other by the other side of the pool.

It's ten or fifteen minutes since we came here and it's almost 10:30 Am now. The sun is shining brightly above us. There's more than twenty people here, both boys and girls who hasn't gone home for weekend. Most of them are in the pool, swimming and playing and laughing cheerfully. A few are sitting by the sides relaxed, dangling their legs in the water and applying sunscreen onto their body.

But I don't feel like swimming or joining these people. It was Gavin who forcefully dragged me here. Last day I had told Gavin that it'd be nice to go swim in the pool on weekend. But then when I said that, I was thinking about swimming along with Michael. But things changed just in a day.

Michael isn't here in the pool. Grace said she called him a lot of times to come along, but he refused and at last he got really angry at her. One way it’s good he didn’t come. I'm not ready to face him after what happened yesterday.

I now think I was totally wrong. Everything was my fantasy. Michael doesn't actually like me. If he liked me, he definitely wouldn't have slapped me when I tried to kiss him. I've never heard of a someone slapping the person they like when the person comes to kiss. It's always the other way. They can't push away the person even though they want to and most often they end up kissing back. That's not what happened in his case. Maybe he only like me like a brother.

But the smile, blush and all ?? I don't know. Only thing I know is I really fucked up.

I shouldn't have gone for the party yesterday. Actually till the last moment I was thinking not to go. I thought Michael wouldn't be going. But then Grace texted me that Michael is going. I quickly got ready wanting to just see him. I was ignoring him the whole day and I was already starting to feel like crazy.

Michael told me not to come in front of him again. But it's party. He can't tell me not to come for a party. I decided to try once again. I dressed up nicely and styled my hair in a different way. It's because I look like his brother that he can't see me that way. So I tried my maximum not to look like his brother and yet look good yesterday. I even borrowed a hair straightener and straightened my hair.

But when I reached there at the party, he was standing along with that girl Andrea and I couldn't help but feel angry all of a sudden. He was looking gorgeous as hell. The fact that he dressed up so nicely and came to the party for that girl made me exasperated. I couldn't control my anger and jealousy. I walked towards a group girls who were dancing and started dancing along with them.

And when he started dancing along with Andrea I couldn’t bear my jealousy anymore. I pulled one of the girls closer to me and started dancing along with her. He was glancing at me and I only danced more intimately with the girl and the other girls, wanting to desperately gain his attention. But at last when he looked at me directly with a look of despise, I felt shattered. I pushed away the girls and walked to the cocktail table.

I drank a little too much, to the point I almost couldn't see properly. And when I sat down on one of the couches feeling light headed, that girl Ruby approached me again. She sat down on my lap and I didn't push her away at the moment. I was angry, drunk and couldn't think properly. When she kissed me, I again just let her and when she proposed to go upstairs, I nodded without thinking. I was so jealous seeing Michael and Andrea so close that I behaved so stupidly. And I was feeling like crazy thinking about him that I wanted to somehow take him out of my mind.

But after we reached a room upstairs and Ruby pushed me to the bed and starred undressing herself, I was suddenly feeling so guilty. I've hooked up with a lot of girls before, but I never felt guilty once. I was just thinking about Michael and I couldn't make my mind to look at Ruby.

I told her to stop and put on her clothes and she was shocked. She then started desperately trying to seduce me. I at last pushed her down to the bed in anger and barged out of the room. I went to the balcony feeling frustrated as I didn't have the courage to go downstairs and face Michael.

As I stood there not knowing what to do next, I saw Michael and Andrea walking to the front lawn. They sat down in the grass and I watched them talking. I again felt extremely angry and jealous. Michael didn't do anything even after he saw me kissing the girl and going with her upstairs. He just gave me a look of despise. And it made me vexed.

Michael and Andrea soon stood up from the grass and I watched them walk out of the gates. I first thought they went out for a walk together and I felt pain in my chest at the thought. I anxiously waited in the balcony for a long time to see whether they come back. But they didn't come back and I realized they left. Later Grace told me Michael had texted her that Andrea dropped him back at dorm.

I'm sure Michael now hates me. I know he didn't come to pool because he don't like to see me. I've lost my chance with Michael. I fucked up. There's no point in hoping anymore. And he might be soon dating Andrea.

" Hey Ethan ! C'mon man ! ", Gavin yelled at me from the pool. I waved my hands 'no' and I saw him let out a sigh whilst shaking his head. Then he was talking to Grace with a serious look on his face, probably about my and Michael's matter. But soon they went back to swimming and goofing around.

I finally got up from the sun launcher, tired lying there for long. Also what would all these people think if I simply lie on the sun launcher in my swim suit without actually getting into the pool. Girls are already eying me. So I moved to the edge of the pool and sat down letting the warm water surround my feet.

I looked at the group of guys goofing around and wrestling with each other and the group of girls giggling excitedly and splashing water at each other. Some people were sitting at the sides flirting and smiling to each other.

Over there, my Physics lab partner Will Parker is twirling his fingers in some sophomore girl's golden locks. Everyone's having fun in one way or other. I'm the only one who can't feel a bit happiness.

I became like this after I saw Michael. Why Michael came to study here ? And why couldn't I just feel these kinds of feeling towards a simple girl instead of Michael ? It wouldn't have been this hard to get a girl.

Suddenly I felt two hands on my back before I knew I was forcefully pushed into the pool as water surrounded me fully. I quickly swam to the surface, coughing up some water and my eyes searched for the jerk who pushed me.

I looked up and my eyes were greeted by fascinating green eyes. Dark, forest green eyes of a girl, surrounded by long curly golden blonde locks.

" I'm sorry.", the girl said a bit nervously. I was glaring at her.

" You intentionally pushed me into the pool and you are sorry ?", I asked furiously.

" Ahmm....sorry. It was a dare from my friends.", She said and pointed at a group of girls who were amusedly watching us on the other end of the pool.

"Girl, you did a great job ! ", Gavin laughed swimming towards me. I was still glaring at the green eyed girl.

" You are a junior, right ? What's your name ?", he asked.

" Gabriel.", She replied.

" Oh..yeah..Gabriel ! I knew your name.", Gavin smiled. Right then Grace swam beside him and placed a hand on his shoulder. Gavin laughed to her awkwardly and swam away dragging her along with him.

" Ethan, I'm sorry, okay ? Please don't take it seriously. ", Gabriel said, her forest green eyes glinted in light.

" Ahmm..okay. I’m letting it slide for this one time. Don't repeat it again.", I said whilst brushing my hands through my wet hair.

Some of her friends giggled and squealed from the other side of the pool. I don’t know why they were laughing. Did I say something funny right now ?

“ She has a crush on you !”, One of them suddenly yelled and I was taken aback. I looked at the girl in front of me and she too was shocked as much as me. Her green eyes grew as big as a soccer.

“ No..No...oh my gosh ! There’s n..nothing like that. They are....”, she turned and glared at her friends before looking back at me. “ I'm sorry..”

“ Okay, you may leave.”, I said nonchalantly. I was not in a mood to play along with these girls.

The green eyed girl's face dimmed. "Uhm..you don't have any problem, right ? I'm really sorry. ", She said.

" Hmm..it's okay.", I nodded in annoyance. Her thin lips bunched into an awkward smile, revealing a row of perfectly white teeth. Then she hastily turned and speed walked towards her friends who were waiting for her.

I climbed on the edge and sat there watching the girls laugh and tease her as she reached them. She glared at them and jumped into the pool, starting to chase the girl who shouted that she has a crush on me.