Chapter 13: Chapter 13

Adam just stares at me and his eyes are filled with too much worry. Zach looks at me in the same way and my eyes slide from the two of them. How am I supposed to confront them both? How did Zach know? I need to talk about my memories to Adam...

"I will leave both of you for now." No! His eyes gaze at my hand holding Zach's and he turned around without looking at me. I feel a pain in my heart but I glanced at Zach who was still observing me.

How did he know?

"He called me." His voice was stern and he lets go of my hand, tucking my loose strands at the back of my ear. I scanned his face, looking at his beautiful tan skin, brown hair, and his emerald green eyes... Shiny green...

I raised my hand and try to touch his cheek but he grabs my wrist. I looked back at him and he was staring at me, studying my reaction.

"I feel weird, Zach."

I felt my eyes about to pour down for something I don't understand. He looks down at the ground, and he seemed nervous. Why?

"Do you believe in demons and other creatures, Zach?" I need to tell him so that he could understand. He pulls me to him and he embraces me tight.

"Why are you saying such weird things?" He asks me, his tone kind of curious and amused at the same time. I pull myself from his gently and put my hands on his arms and take a grip.

"Zach!"

I frowned at him and his face dropped seriously.

"Okay. Spill."

Spill.

That word is what I always used to say to my angel. I remembered the first time I asked him, he tilted his head and squinted.

"Spill?"

"Spill the beans!" The little me laughed as I wait for him to tell me how his day went. His world seemed magical and it was very pleasing to hear.

"I don't have any beans." He looked around and then at me.

"It's an expression! It means tell me everything, about your day! I can't believe Mr. Magician can also be stupid!" I chortled and he snorted at me.

"Eva!"

I blinked several times and pulled myself from my memory.

"What we're you saying?"

He flicked a finger on my head and I groaned, rubbing my forehead with my palm.

"Why do you have to do that!?"

He laughs and gaps his eyes on me so I could begin telling my story. Here goes nothing.

"Adam is a demon, but he is not like what we read in the scriptures. He is kind but he is like, uhm--- How would I say it? Like the good type of demon in the manga."

Zach's mouth opens and his eyes are in disbelief. I sighed and continue what I am saying.

"I was supposed to be dead but he saved me—but he said I sold him my sold or whatever, but that's not it. That's not my point. I mean, he uhm---"

"Can you please just get to the point?" Ughhhh

"I might have met him when I was a kid and he saved me from frustration, he might have been watching out for me for all these years, that's why he is so familiar to me!" That's it!

I talked loudly and fast, like a goddamn rapper. I bit my lips, waiting for the wide-eyed Zach to speak and say anything. His eyes are wide and surprised, did he believe me? Won't he say anything? He brushes his finger through his hair and exasperates.

"So...?"

He gave me the hand and I kept silent, waiting for his response. He then looked at me, his eyes narrowed.

"You wanna hear my point in this?"

I scoot and get closer to him, nodding eagerly like a kid. He lets out a deep breath again and stared seriously.

"You---" He stops and I raised both my eyebrows at him.

"You must have bumped your head too hard." He says worriedly, but I very much know how he is suppressing a damn fucking laugh. I swat his arms and crossed mine, groaning. He laughs at me and he loops his arm on my shoulders.

"Are you hungry?" He lowers his head to look at me, smiling like a cutie. He won't really believe me though. I pouted and he snorts, embracing me again. "Let's eat, you didn't go to work yesterday, good thing he had the guts to call me." He groans as he speaks and I giggled at the sound he makes. Like a dying animal.

"I was sick yesterday," I remember how Adam took care of me among all the other things. I feel flushed remembering the shower earlier. The shower...

I gasped and feel my clothes dry. Did he change my clothes! I glanced to see my chest and there's a bra. Oh, fuck! I never showed him anything yet, although he already touched me... my insides are screaming but at the same time I am so embarrassed. I haven't even shaved! Fuck fuck!

A hard pat laid on my head and feel that Zach was glaring at me. I feel his dark ambiance surrounding the whole room and I slowly looked at him. Shit.

"Did.He.Do.Something?"

Goosebumps! I leaned back and my eyes widened at his reaction.

"We didn't do anything! Yet!"

All the aura around got sucked in as he stands up and smiles at me. "Let's go!" He held out a hand on me and I put it on him, pulling me to stand up. The men in my life feel like they are from fiction. I laughed at the thought, enjoying the company of the best friend I missed, forgetting my new dug memories.

*****

"Look what I've got."

He grabbed and held out plastic with a container inside, I squint to take a look at it then he smiled and pulled it, acting like he was a magician. He pulled out the grilled beef and I jump on my feet. I grabbed the container from him and quickly sets it on the countertop.

"Calm, dear." He laughs and I dance my way to the kitchen as I open the container. The smell of the beef enters my nostrils and I grabbed one slice with my finger. I put it in my mouth and gosh, it seemed as if I haven't eaten for years.

"Good?"

I nodded and grabbed one slice again, putting it in my mouth. He took one and chewed on it, dabbing his head, beaming at me. I turned jumping around and we enjoyed the food without sitting down.

We sat down on the sofa, feeling contented with the grilled beef. Zach said he went there and grilled it himself, then asked the waiter to pack it up.

I love these peaceful moments with him.

I rest my back on the couch and he sits down, rubbing his belly. My mind wander about Adam once again and how I could make Zach believe me, in order to make things simpler. Zach is my family; he always has been. I sat down straight and my eyes widen while grinning at Zach. He scoots a little away, making himself little at the side. What the hell is he doing?

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Like what?" I can still feel my grin extending to my ears, making my cheeks numb. I just had the greatest idea. Maybe they can be friends after this! My inner devil laughed as I stare at Zach.

"Call him!"

I uttered, convinced that I can make Adam show his power to Zach so that I can prove what I've said. I ain't backing down.

"I don't even have his number."

"I thought he called you."

He stares at me and shakes his head, "It was from your phone." He's lying, I never had Adam's number on my phone. "Okay, then." I laid my head on Zach's shoulder and told him that I want to sleep. He scooted a little bit and lean his back at the armrest so I could lay down properly. We've always been like this, so I don't find any reason to change.

****

I woke up and I was already in bed. My night lamp was turned on and outside my window is already dark. I can't believe I slept through it again. I silently got off the bed, tiptoeing outside of my room until I reach the kitchen. A box of pizza laid on the countertop and I looked around before I get one.

"Hawaiian!" I whispered I am so hungry right now. I was about to bite my favorite pizza when I hear a bottle clink by the door outside. I put the slice down the box and walked silently until I reached the front door, it's open. Two men were sitting by the steps of the porch, brown and white-haired men. When did Adam and Zach become drinking buddies now? An idea sparkled up my mind and I can an evil glint forming in my eyes and grabbed one of the glass bottles. Once I throw this to Adam, I'm sure he'll use some magic powers to stop it, like in the movies. A smirk made my heart smile because of my marvelous ideas. I am a good pitcher in high school. I stood at the middle of the doorway and circles my arms, ready to throw the effin bottle. Let's go. I pitched the glass bottle, directly estimated onto Adam's head and my strength never fails the power.

Fuck. The bottle hit his head and it shatters down the ground, Zach stood immediately, surprised and I held my mouth with my hands after a gasp. Adam rubs the back of his head and stands up, and hell, I can feel his dark ambiance devouring me. Shit, why didn't he just used his reflex or power or whatever? He turns to me with a sullen gaze, I bit my lower lip and I am ready to run. My eyes slide to Zach and his eyes are still wide and he looked at me like I was crazy. There's no other choice... I have to do this... I stared at Adam and grabbed another bottle, steadfastly, the one that I prepared in case my plan didn't work. I threw it at him and he catches it with his hand with his burning look and the bottle turns to ashes.

I grinned in victory and he got an amused gaze and I turn to Zach. He looks like his jaws just dropped down and I wanna laugh. You didn't want to believe huh? My best friend's eyes shoot at me with the 'what-the-fuck-happened' gaze and he just fell down the floor, making my feet automatically run to him.

What the hell? How is he so shocked? He even had a worse reaction than mine.

I pat his cheeks several times and feel that laughter is around my head, but my physical body can't show it otherwise. Adam groans and just grabbed Zach by his collar and drags him.

"What the hell! Can you please lift him up better!?" I swat his back and he turns back to me.

"Why don't you lift him? You're the reason why he's like that."

I pursed my lips. He's right. I swat his hand away from Zach and pull the unconscious dumb Zach in my arms.

"What the hell are you doing?" He raised his brow at me and I just shrug and lay Zach's head on my lap, caressing his head.

"I can't bring him inside so I'll just wait for him to wake up."

Adam pulled me up with no effort, making Zach's head thud on the floor.

"What the f is your problem?" I glared at him and he rolled his eyes over me. He lifts his hand and Zach levitates making me dumbfounded. He can do telekinesis. Of course. I followed him and the floating Zach, going to the spare room of the house where Adam stays. The door opened without anyone touching it and he flick his hand, tossing away Zach by the bed. I gasped, seeing his back on the front. I reached the door but it banged close.

"I am going to check him out."

"He's sleeping, let him rest." He walks away and goes to my room. I sigh and check Zach by peeking in the door, and he is snoring. But he doesn't snore...? Or did I remember wrong?

Did he break his head or something?

I closed the door and opened the fridge for some cold water. I still have to talk about Adam about my memories. I held the glass by my hand and poured some water. After I went back to my room to see Adam but when I checked, he laid flat on my bed. I frowned, I almost choked him with the pillow but his face was so peaceful.

"I never thought you'd remember your promise," I whispered and brushed the hair off his forehead.

I yawned and get another pillow beside him, heading out to lay down on the sofa. I need to sleep. I stared at the ceiling for several minutes before closing my eyes and drifting to sleep.

"Get the fuck away from me!" I woke up to Zach's voice shouting near me. I stood up fast and I felt very groggy as I got on my feet. When my eyes started to get clearer, I saw Zach holding out a knife, threatening Adam to not get any closer. I rubbed my eyes and hold out my hand when I already regained my consciousness.

"What the hell are you two doing?" I shouted.

Adam glanced at me and I glare at him when he smirks. Dumbass.

"Zach, put that down," I ordered and I want to laugh at how moronic he looks, but of course, I can't. He is definitely scared. He threw the knife at Adam but it stopped to float right in front of his face. Zach gasped with a groan and it was very funny. Adam grabbed the knife and he teases him by walking slowly to Zach. I ran to them and hit Adam, back in the head, making him jolt.

"Can you step outside first?" I whispered at him and he just walked away without saying anything.

"Zach. Can you please get your shit together?"

I snorted and he drops the knife down the sink, frowning. "How could you be associated with that thing?"

"I told you before, didn't I?" I leaned my back on the sink, beside him. He sighs and lets his butt fall to the ground. I sat down beside him and we just stayed silent for a couple of minutes.

"He's not a bad person."

"He's not a person, Eva." He gazed at me and his eyes looked like he was hurt. It really got him huh? I gather my knees near my chest and just stared at my hands.

"I know you don't think he's that bad too. You've been drinking with him before you even knew the truth about him, and I am the reason why you discovered it."

He sighs, resting his back and head by the wall.

"You don't have to worry about me." I grabbed his hand and entwine his fingers with mine. He tightened his hold in my hand and shifted on his seat. "Zach, I kind of feel like I've known him for a very long time. I feel very close to him." Flashes of my childhood memories flooded me once again and I whimpered. I still have to know more...

He embraced me and I laid my head on his chest. I actually don't know what I am supposed to do right now, but I find peace whenever I become clear with Zach. As I dwell on my thoughts, his hand caresses my head, making me feel calm. If I actually think of it deeply, this kind of warmth is from before—from my angel. Zach has the same vibe... I grinned at his chest I hugged him out of glee.

"Zach. I think you're really an angel."

He pushes me away gently by my shoulders, grinning at me. "Will you choose me if I were?"

What? My heart constricted in pain as I thought of his words.

"I was just kidding, Eva." He squishes my cheeks and I glared at him as he laughed, letting me forget what he just said. "We have to go to work though."

"I forgot about that! What time is it!?" I stood up and head to my room, going through the dresses I can find.

"It's still early. 4 am?" I gapped at him and threw the dress I am holding in the cabinet. Darn these two. That only means they both disturbed my sleep! That's why I felt groggy.

"Out!" I shouted at Zach and he chortled. He knows how I love to have complete hours of sleep. I can't last long if I don't sleep, it's just like the feeling when Adam left this house. Where is he anyway? I slandered by my bed and feel the cotton of the blanket, dozing off to sleep.

****

My alarm sets on at 5:30 AM and I immediately sat down without closing my eyes but a strong arm pulled me down.

"Few more minutes," Adam whispered and he completely dragged me to his body. He smells so nice and I can't help but inhale his fragrance. I didn't complain since a few more minutes won't do any harm. Wait, where's Zach?

"Adam, where is Zach?" I mumbled under his shirt.

"He said he's gonna go to his house to grab some clothes for work."

"He talked to you?" That is surprising.

"While screaming and running away." He grunts and I giggled. I wrapped my arms around him and it felt so warm.

"You haven't even asked me to date you or even give me a notice of what we are, why are we doing this?" I don't care though. I think I loved him, even more, when I regained my memories. He was a brother to me since I haven't thought of anything at that time, but knowing that he took care of me even before made me feel so lucky. He pulled himself away and sits down pulling me up.

"I can't." He uttered with a grave tone.

"What do you mean, you can't?"

"You're the one who is going to choose, between me or you know who."

Zach? That's weird...

I could have denied but I didn't and just nodded at him. The more weirder it got when he just beamed at me.

"I want to make new memories, Eve."

New memories? Does he know that I remembered?

"Adam. Have you been with me when I was still a kid? Like, a man like you are right now, when I was at the convent?" This is the moment of truth.

"I was never with you that time. I only saw you again when you were shot." His voice had no taint of hesitation and he was looking at me straight with his blue eyes. It isn't him? What does he mean by again?

"If it's not you... what does 'again' mean? And do you know who that is?"

He shook his head and he lets go of me, but I grabbed his hand and held it tight, I can break his hand later, the thought made me want to snort but I didn't.

"Why does the past matter to you so much? Isn't the present more important to gain memories and to start a future from?" His eyes are disappointed so I didn't push it more. He is eventually hiding something, but he is also right. I feel something for him, it's like for the longest of times, but what bothers that is Zach. I don't understand what my heart is telling me right now, I guess I'll just have to discover that myself.

"Fine."

I rolled my eyes on him and his lop-sided smile made me bite my lip. What's with him and his smiles?

"I won't touch you the way I did before for now. I don't want you to regret it if you don't feel anything for me."

"What the hell does that mean?" I pouted. This again?

He raises his eyebrow and his head titled with his smug expression.

"I don't play with someone who's not mine."

This is my time to play his game.

I pushed him, leaving his body laying down and I went on top of him, making his eye twitch a little. As I did, I feel like I am going to regret it, I haven't flirted with anyone! My heart was so unsteady and I can't think of anything as his breath caresses my lips. His eyes look like he is expecting something but I don't know what to do, but I want to do something. How do I do this? I leaned closer but he pulled me and my face went to the side of his head.

"You don't have to force yourself. My feelings are not that shallow." He squeezes my body in a gentle warming manner and I just let out a laugh. I can't tell him that I don't know how to make a move, that is embarrassing!

But I want to have those moments. Am I being lustful now?

"Won't you kiss me though?" I whispered and I bit my lip before he can face me again. He stared darkly at me but as I closed my eyes, he laid a peck against my forehead and I felt warm with his gesture.

"That's enough for now."

He pulled us up to sit down, before bringing me on my feet. He embraced me once again while we were standing and the weight of his body rests on me all of a sudden, making me sway back, and he laughed.

"You need to build up muscles." He winked at me before leaving the room. Why would I even build some? I followed him to the kitchen and went to the fridge but he grabbed my hand before I can open it.

"Go take a shower, I'll make the food."

What? Really?

"Are you kidding me right now?" I laughed but he just leaned at the fridge with his arms crossed. Damn, he looks gorgeous. "Why are you doing this?"

"Cause I like you."

My heart leaped off from my chest and I managed to just snort out the squeal about to escape my tongue. What a straightforward confession. I stand up straight and crossed my arms as well, narrowing my eyes at him, searching for any hint of jest in his reaction.

"What are you doing?"

He takes a step closer to me, wearing his amused reaction and smug grin, towering over me, like a hot, hot... man...

"I told you I want to make new memories with you, Eve."

"Why do I feel like you are hiding something from me?"

He fell silent for a second and I knew there is something. He kept ignoring the memory from my childhood which I am asking if it was him.

"There are some things which are best to be kept in the past."

"So it was you."

He let out a deep breath and I took a step forward.

"It's not me."

"Why do you keep denying---"

"It's not me." His tone was dead straight and his jaw tenses. "I told you before, I've only seen you again when you were dying."

That word. That word is what's bothering me.

"Then you'll go ahead use that word "again" again?"

My tone got higher and I can feel my head hurting because of this conversation.

"You've lived many lives, Eve. And on this one, I tried to stay away from you, but someone took care of you in my stead, until you've got shot--- I decided I can't let that happen again, I can't stay away." His voice was sad and calm, but I don't understand anything, making me more and more confused of what is going on. Lives? Someone what?

"I don't--- I don't understand!"

I shouted at him and I held my head, the panic attack starts to set in on me once again but Adam pulled me to him and that was it.

His lips crashes into mine and my anxiety focused on the sensation, my lips willingly intertwined with his, and his tongue travels inside my mouth, clashing with mine. This feeling is familiar, yet there are so many things going on that my mind can't interpret, but my heart does. As he hoists me up the countertop, his hands stroke my waist without breaking the kiss. After a minute, it starts to roll on slowly until we finally broke off from our trance. His eyes were smoking, and his lips are red and plump. He is so damn sexy.

"What I'm asking is a chance."

"Chance? For what?"

"For you to know me better."

"I don't really get it." I tilt my head out of confusion, wondering whatever it is he is talking about. I do like him and feel like I know him a lot. Why?

"I want you to mind what's life has to offer right now, without letting your past affect you -- even if it's not with me."

My eyes widen at what he just said. What is he trying to imply? "Adam, I want—"

"I am not that man from your childhood, Eve."

Adam's eyes are not having any tint of lies on them and its kind of disappointing.

"But do you know him?"

"Yes, I do." He puts his hand down but I grabbed one and lace my fingers on him.

"Tell me who it is. I want to thank him, that's all I want to do."

A trace of a smile comes out of his lips and he shook his head.

"I promised him not to tell you, in return for him taking care of you in my stead. That's all I can say."

A pain in my heart makes me want to cry for the loneliness of his voice.

"So you have also been watching me this whole time...?"

He pulled to embrace me tightly and now my tears fell. There's no deal or selling the soul shit. He was just really making sure I'm okay.

"Why didn't you come to me earlier...?" I bit my lip to stop myself from tearing up.

"Because you always get hurt when I do." I lifted up my head to look at him.

"I don't understand."

"It's hard to... That's why I want you to live this day forward. Whether it'll be me or the other that you want, I'll be here." He tucks my loose hair behind my ear and a hot liquid flows down my eye. My mind keeps flashing a picture of him doing these gestures before, over—and over again. I nod my head since he was right. I will let whatever fate has to offer and go this feeling that I've been keeping in my chest. I pulled him for a kiss and he gave it to me, passionately.

As I loop my arms on his nape, his arms circle my waist, our kiss going deeper and deeper. My hands move on their own as my fingers roll the hem of his shirt upward.

A faint smile appears on his lip and he grabs my hand. "Uh-uh. Not until you're sure of me, Eve."

"But I am sure of you!" I pouted and he chuckled before kissing my forehead.

"Go to shower, Eve. You'll be late if this continues, and your boss doesn't tolerate laziness."

I snorted and swat his chest which threw him laughing again. "Well, my boss is an accessory to the crime for my laziness." He laid a peck on my lips before heading to the fridge to get something. I watch him as he moves and let out a sigh. Am I still dreaming...? I don't understand anything anymore, but I want to live this. I can be happy too.