Chapter 93: Chapter 93

"Where did you get that word?" I still can't take my wide eyes away from him. She, on the other hand, was already seated, and my reaction seemed insignificant to her, as did what she said. She sat on my lap after regaining her slumber. We were both facing the cabinet, and she was leaning on me. Even though there was no awkwardness for the two of us, no one talked to us. It's almost as though she's too old to act. "Hey, how did you find out about that daddy?   I haven't yet taught you that." I haven't taught her the true meaning of fatherhood because I'm terrified for her.

She didn't talk at first, but I was quickly able to get her to speak.

"It's Uncle Wayne."

That was all she uttered, as if she wanted me to understand what she meant right now. I leaned down to view her and discovered she was plainly gazing at the cabinet, so I knew she was lying real quick. I just sighed since she didn't mean what she claimed. I had no choice but to reprimand her. When she acts, she appears to be tugging strongly and profoundly. I turned her to me, and she did not fight back as a result of what I did.

"You know mother doesn't like liars, right?" I questioned her in hushed tones so I wouldn't intimidate her. She was hunched over and seemed to be feeling remorseful. She is clever, so I'm not sure whether I should hate that thing since she readily knows everything and I'm concerned that when she learns things, she'll hate me because I decided to remove and deny her rights to her father. Especially now that I've read that her father appears to have dated, we have no choice but to remain silent in the corner and wait to be happy for her father.

"Are you able to tell Mommy about it right now?" I'm already caressing her hair, since I'm sure she thinks I'm upset because I'm making her explain. I waited for her to clarify ignoring the fact that she didn't glance up at me. If I just let her go now, I'm sure she'll be hurt later because even when she's young, I know there's hope in her heart that we'll have a family, which is something I would not like her to expect.

How can I tell her not to anticipate her father because I've given up hope that it will happen again? I can't go back in time and relive the pleasant days I had hoped for with him. I pray the day never comes when Athen despises me because of my choices. When I was certain she wouldn't say anything, I would drop her and then ask her again later because I needed to cook. When she talks, I'm ready to take her down.

"I saw you sobbing when we were in the states," she said now, looking at me. I, too, can't keep my gaze away from her. I also gave her a mournful face, even though she needed my strength to avoid experiencing what she was feeling. "I saw you weeping and calling a name I'd never heard of before.... It's Adonis."

As I embraced her firmly, tears welled up in my eyes once again. I never imagined she'd see such a flaw in me. I couldn't stop whimpering since I felt her little grips on my back. I simply want to bury the grief because it's like I'm rubbing salt into a wound that hasn't healed in a long time. I told Wayne and Wendy that I couldn't escape the past, but now that I'm here, I want to flee. I honestly don't believe I'll be able to face this. I'm not like other people who have superpowers.

“It’s okay, mommy. I don’t need a daddy.”

Instead of being at ease with what she said, I was heartbroken because she stated she didn't need a daddy but didn't say—- she didn't want a daddy. Too much of a difference since I may be addressing her needs but not her desires. There are some things that, no matter how much I offer, remain unsatisfied because they are not what she is searching for. On top of that, I've been thinking about it for quite some time. I knew it would be effortless for Adonis to find me if he wanted to. I know he chose to let me free because he was no longer looking for me. Even if he claims Wayne concealed me, the sheer extent of his link won't prevent him from seeing me since I didn't hide. I just went into hiding in order for him to find me.

That if he truly wanted me to be at his side, he would find a way to locate me. What can a penniless person like me do to a business mogul like him? I assumed he decided to set me free because he believed it was what I wanted. I let go of her grip and brushed my tears away. No matter how much more crouching I do on the floor, what should have ended between the two of us is irrevocable. Perhaps it isn't fate for the two of us. I also have no idea what job I'm working on.

When we were still in the United States, I worked as a waitress at a well-known fast-food restaurant. Now that I'm here, I'm not sure where I'm going to apply because I don't have any qualifications and this province is too far away for fast food. Perhaps I'll think about it once I've slept for a few days. Because of the amount of work I've done in the United States, I'm constantly exhausted.

"What do you want to eat?" I asked. I also have to go grocery shopping because this province is not like the United States. It's not like you'll be able to find what you're looking for immediately away if you're just out there. You will not find what you are searching for here, no matter how hard you look.

I'm not sure what to feed her right now. I haven't slept since we arrived here. Maybe I'll go grocery shopping first, then do the housework. I'll also buy some ornamental objects to make it appear more appealing. While she was pondering, I was looking for my phone where I had put it earlier because it was now night in the United States and they could have texted me.

"Mommy, I want to eat fried chicken," Athen murmured, and I stared at her. Where can I get some chicken? I thought she'd eat veggies, so I was glad to merely ask from our neighbors, who had a lot of crops. I nodded and smiled at her. I'll get whatever I need so I don't have to think about anything for the next several days. In order to preserve the meat, I also needed to purchase a refrigerator.

I'm fixing Athen's dress since we're heading down the hillside to the malls to get groceries and so I can take her to some park. We went to the refrigerator store first so that I wouldn't have trouble finding it later while carrying so many plastic bags. As I looked around, I discovered that my hand was empty, and my heart seemed to leave my chest as I realized I am not hold Athen any more.

“Athen?”