Chapter 90: Chapter 90

I stared out the plane's window, imagining what it would be like to lie down among the white clouds. What type of compassion will they show the body? It's almost as if they can hug you while you're still lying down. I couldn't take my gaze away from them, not because they were entertaining to watch, but because they were the only thing that reminded me of Adonis. They are the only ones I see who keep telling me of being taken once in the clouds and dancing, but I understood that as I watched how they moved.

Everyone eventually leaves, and none of it stays. You can only look back and recall how wonderful everything is. You can only reminisce that you once felt the sweetness of love and that it taught you how splendid love truly is. I couldn't stop my tears from falling as I avoided looking at Wendy and Wayne, who were now sitting next to each other in my opposite passenger seat. We're here today on their private plane because Wayne claims it's no longer feasible to acquire a ticket because the process is still lengthy. There's still a possibility that Adonis can find me before I get my passport.

I'd be delusional if I imagined he was searching for me as badly. He may no longer be resentful, and those emotions may have faded.

I had no idea where we were heading while I was with Wendy and Wayne; I knew I could only annoy the two of them, but this was the only option I had. They accepted my request, therefore I'll essentially take it. I will do all in my power to ensure that my affiliation is not too burdensome for them. I'll also attempt to assist Wendy, even though it's awkward for me. I massaged my stomach and imagined what my baby and I will be like, especially now that Adonis is gone and I'm left with only me.

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Days, months, and years flew by. I never imagined I'd be able to stay apart from Adonis for so long. I didn't believe I could go on without him at my side. My first few days in the United States were rough, but I eventually adjusted. I'm used to the fact that he no longer smells in my room. I'm accustomed to his voice being silent. But even after all these years, I can't get his fragrance or voice out of my head. I'll never forget the colour of those eyes. That becomes a mark on my memory, and I know it can't be removed since it has already left an imprint on my mind.

“MOMMMYYY…! " Loud giggling, swift concealment, and a breathless Athens.

"Rawwr!"

When Wayne pursued her again, she jumped towards me. The clothing I was placing in our suitcase came off as she leaped. We were on our way home, but Athens' clothing hadn't been arranged yet. I don't lose track of how I pronounce Adonis' name when I pronounce his name. I haven't mentioned his name in five years since I recently reborn it in my daughter's name. The name Adonis is derived from the Greek word for "Lord." If Adonis is the Lord, I would like Athen to be his home. Adonis will return to the Greek city of Athens. I want them to be linked even though they are far apart.

Wayne asks, "Are you sure you're coming back?" I could feel the sadness in his eyes since he couldn't be with Athen anymore. I wanted to laugh at him because of the expression on his face. He will not be lonely for long because he will be able to see  Wendy's son—- I mean them, in a few months. The only problem is that he will have to wait a long time for their baby to walk.

“AW!”

When Athen bit Wayne on the leg, Wayne barked like a dog, and I couldn't stop giggling at his reaction. But, despite the fact that Athen was already biting him, he held onto it while waiting for my response. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to thank them for everything they've done for me. They took care of Athen after I gave birth since I had to work because I was embarrassed that they were the only ones who spent money on me.

"I can't get away from the past, and I have to confront what things actually are.  I can not hide for the rest of my life. I'm not saying I'm going back to Adonis, because I'm not." I carried the beast to Athens. "As I already stated, I will return to our province, Guangdong, where I will reside. If I encounter him on the road with Athen one day, I will not deny him his right. He has earned the right to be a father since he bestowed upon me the greatest blessing I have ever received.”

When he received the response he was looking for, he sighed. He made a mess of Athen's hair. "If that is your decision and you are adamant about it, we have no authority to intervene.  All I ask is that you not punish yourself for something you did not do. Allow yourself to feel happy every now and then." He released hold of Athen's hair and moved his gaze away from us. "Remember to say goodbye to Wendy," he says as he turns back.

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I hugged Wendy as soon as I walked through the door. We're no longer uncomfortable with one other. That is given by time. Because I missed Adonis every day, she was the one I depended on whenever I couldn't sleep in misery. In everything, she has been my human diary. Since we arrived, her health has also improved. What she believed had no remedy worked like magic. Maybe she saw a light at the end of the tunnel and followed it, and now she's here. She seemed to be content.

"Always be careful there, don't let Athen leave you alone," she said as she embraced me again, her stomach hitting me.

Adonis, the day has come when we will finally breathe the same air.