Chapter 121: Chapter 121
They followed me as I went inside. I hurried to enter while the two of them seemed to be walking at the bottom of the moon. As soon as I went inside, my face could not be explained. I still can't let him in here without me worrying. I want him out of here because for me what he did was not right. I'm not comfortable. If it weren't for Athens, I probably wouldn't called him. But to see him in such a situation, the emotion mixed in my chest.
I didn't talk to them anymore when I was inside. I just pretended to be doing something while they were talking. I lay down on the bed and turned around.
They pretended not to bother me either.
As I avoided the two of them, I was unaware that I had fallen asleep while holding my phone. I just woke up that they were no longer beside me. I looked around I checked every corner of the house and they weren’t anywhere else. When I could no longer hold back I stood up to check at them in the kitchen and I heard them cooking.
"Daddy, mommy is always in a bad mood." It was Athen with a laughing expression. I don’t know if she’s scared of me or laughing because of the way I always acted. She just found an ally, she'd think I wouldn't be angry with her anymore.
"Mommy is just having a problem." Adonis explained to her. I like how he comfort my child. He doesn’t tell my daughter the things that will cause why my image will be damaged. He protects me in every way. I went back to the room so they wouldn't see me. I looked at the time and I decided to take a walk by the sea first.
I left the room without letting them know. I also want to be able to think about what I'm going to do because I feel like I'm stuck in a situation that I don't want to do. I can't help but swallow that Adonis is going to have a child with someone else and I don't know if anyone will be hurt more about than that. Nothing runs through my brain but:
Adonis had child with Jessica.
Adonis had child with Jessica.
Adonis had child with Jessica.
Every line seems to be echoing in my brain and I don't know how to remove those. It's still morning but it seems like night. The sky was no longer in good shape because of its darkness. It seems to join me with how I feel. As I strolled I remembered where Luke often hung out. I knew there was a chance I would meet him there but I kept going anyway.
When I arrived at the cottage, he was gone. I looked out to sea and found it scary to watch the wave. I’m not a fan of the ocean because the sea has given me the most trauma. I don't know what I will do in case I travel differently and get lost in the middle of it.
I am Luna Everdeen who is hopeless in everything.
When I decided to go back to our cabin, I was stopped by someone who entered the cottage, which is why I stopped. The woman looked at me intently as if she was reading what was in my mind. Not only that, her expression was stained with begging, anger and other things that I can no longer name while I was just cold. I’m not ready for anything she’s going to say yet. This is the first time I have been scared not for myself, but because I know when she begs to like I see in movies, I will have a hard time.
I would have a hard time choosing between my selfishness or the lifelong pile of guilt on me. No one spoke to the two of us. I am also waiting for her to tell me what she wants. I don’t want to guess the thing I already know.
"You know why I'm here." I could barely hear her voice. Every word she utters goes with the wind ... Or maybe I really don't want to hear it. Maybe I’m just trying to close my ears because I know in myself I’m not ready for anything.
"I do not know." I quickly told her. If I had to go blind just to wake up, I would. If that's the way to just happened to that the problem turn into bubble, I would prefer that. I'll just choose to be a fool.
"Give Adonis to m-me." Her voice broke after she said the words. I bit my lip so hard. It was as if I was being roasted while I was in the spotlight. I didn't know what to say but in the end, I also found the right words.
"Is he really mine?" I told her coldly. She was already looking at me with a startled expression. “It seemed like he is not mine from the beginning. You can take him from me as long as you want because I have nothing to claim. I haven't had it since the beginning.”
Her eyes widened even more but I could see the joy in her eyes. I saw a smile on her face. I was just looking at her not knowing what I should feel. It doesn't seem like Adonis is really for me, why am I trying to squeeze myself for that thing?
"You can steal him from me." That's all I told her and stood up. “But hopefully, don't touch me and my daughter especially when Adonis doesn't choose you. It's not my fault that someone is heavier in his heart compared to the child you are carrying. ”
I left the cottage and left her stunned. Wondering what I mean. Even I don't know what I really want to convey. But I want even if Adonis has someone else, I want him not to forget my child.
As I was walking I saw Luke sitting under a coconut tree. He waved at me so I waved back.