Chapter 105: Chapter 105

Why? What was he thinking when he didn't tell Athens the truth? My daughter's heart may be won at that point, and he would no longer have to suffer at the hands. He will just assert that I am the one who fled Athen and my world will come crashing down. That way he will take custody of Athen. I don't want him to be sympathetic to me because my delusion will make me come back to life.

Again, I'm terrified of what he's going to do, and probably one day I'll be surprised that he abandoned me on the air again. I want him to demonstrate how much he despises me so that I may atone for my transgression by paying him back in full. However, if he continues to treat me in this manner, I am certain that I will be the only one to suffer, since I know that my conscience will be troubled.

"Why?" I couldn't help but question him, but he didn't seem to give heed to me, and tears just gushed into my eyes as a reaction. I took a single step towards him and it felt as if my foot was floating in mid-air. I was entirely ignorant that tears were trickling from my eyes. When I was able to close the space between us, I hit him in the chest. I couldn't keep the tears from flowing. "Why?" I struck him in the chest once more after asking him the same question again and again.

“Mommy…” Athen called me gently and seemed to be concerned about what I was about to do.

"What makes you think that telling her the truth is not a wise idea?"  Because of the frequent weeping, my voice was disappearing. Athen was already yanking on the hem of my dress, desperately trying to stop me. "Don't put on an angel's face. Reveal your true self to me! I'm to blame!" I screamed at him because I couldn't contain my burning rage and terrible sorrow any longer, but it was as if the yell had vanished and it had been replaced by nothing more than a word. "Do not make an effort to disguise your mask!"

"Mommy...," Athen called me again.

As if icy water had poured into my body, my eyes widened and my whole shivered. What was I thinking when I forgot that Athens was keeping a watchful eye on us? I had become too reliant on the impulses of my emotions. As she scrubbed the tears from her eyes, Athen broke into sobs once again. When she couldn't stop sobbing, Adonis helped her up and carried her away. I also wiped the tears from my eyes to keep them from stinging.

However, I flinched as the thumbnail of Adonis darted over my cheek, causing me to remove the last of my tears. I smacked his hand to get it off, took Athen from under his arm, and we walked into the bedroom together without him.

He didn't try to follow us any more, and I didn't really care where he was going either. I slid my bag off my back and took out the tiny towel from the inside. I could still hear Athen's faint sobbing, but I didn't put her to calm down because I was worried that if I opened my lips, just the tears that I wished to keep from coming out would come cascading out instead. What I don't want her to see is that the mother she looks up to is just a weak woman.  Once all of her stuff had been removed from the bag. I would have gone to the bathroom to soak the towel so that I could clean her body as well. Instantly after, I heard her whimper once more, and I immediately stood up.

"Mommy... Are you upset with Athens?"

I saw how she closed her eyes as the tears streamed down her face. This is exactly what I hate when it comes to a family that is not complete. The child will be trapped in the middle of the conflict. I'd want to convey to her that this is not the issue, but I'm not sure how to go about doing so when I'm not sure what's going on myself. I just want us to feel at ease with the fact that we have nothing to worry about. I stepped up to her and gave her a bear embrace. She cried even more this time. I swallowed a couple of times to keep from being taken away with each wail I heard. I took a few deep breaths simply to get my posture back on track.

"No... that is not the case..." My eyes were beginning to flare up again, so I raised my head to look up and stop the water from dropping. Something appeared to be caught in my throat, so I swallowed to clear it.  Athen hasn't quite grasped the concept yet. "Can you wait till you reach adulthood?" I asked her.

I wrapped my arms over her so she wouldn't see me shedding tears any longer. The fact that she was nodding repeatedly made me feel relieved, as I was glad that she had understood the situation and agreed with what was going on in some little way. She didn't ask any more questions, so I was able to securely exit the bedroom and just need to walk to the kitchen to damp the towel. As a result of the remodeling, this home has been improved. It has also expanded and seems to have more than doubled in size, yet the ambience has remained the same. This home is still familiar to me.

While the water is flowing from in the tap. It is unclear to me why something is forcing me to open a cupboard below me.

I took a few deep breaths and opened the cupboard. When I saw the airbed that Adonis and I used to sleep on when we were just the two of us in this home, which used to be a little cabin, I couldn't move. I extended  my hand, but I also withdrew it and restrained it with my other. I got to my feet and quickly closed the cabinet door before picking up the towel, which was now dripping wet again.

But then when Adonis stood in front of me, I was on the verge of having a heart attack. I was clutching my chest because even my heart appeared to be thumping against the inside of my chest.

"Can you tell me what you're doing?" He approached and asked me a question. He glanced at my hand for a moment before lowering his sight to the spot where I had been looking before. My eyes followed where he was gazing, and we both lifted our eyes to meet one another. I was the first to sidestep, and I was about to go when he yanked my hand back, so I grabbed it from him and kept moving.

"Take off your arms!"  My voice grew in pitch, but his jaw just clenched in response. It was my idea to take his hand and take him out of there, but he wouldn't let me do what I wanted. "What are you doing?" I continued, but my voice was already tainted with iciness and blankness.

“You saw it.”

“Your point?”

He was unable to respond to the next thing I uttered. His gaze shifted away from my face, as if he were trying to recall every feature of my eyes. As I felt his grasp on my arm become more tight, I furiously removed my arm and saw the look of surprise on his face. I was going to turn around and march back when I was halted by what he said next.

"What is it about you that you are still so stubborn?"

His speech was tinged with hatred, as was his demeanor. I smiled as a reaction to what he said, but my grin was devoid of feeling. That's quite natural, and it seems as if I just do not understand the question.

I'm worried that if I express my true feelings, he'll use it against me and I'll fall into one of his traps. Perhaps, once he realizes that I am able to be gentle with him, he will laugh at me and claim that nothing has changed in me from before. Luna who is still the naïve young lady.

“From then until now I have been like this. Is there anything more you want me to explain to you?" I inquired with a firm tone, as though it would be detrimental to his ego if he did not achieve his goals.

“From then until now, Luna. You still .. ” In the first sentence, his voice was a little weaker, but it was still audible enough for me to understand.

"Should I be happy about that?" I turned my back on him, but before I could finally walk away, I decided to continue. "If I still have feelings for you, I will not abandon you, and I will not leave the country."

No.

That is not true.

I shall repent of my sin to you. I have to make up for everything I've done to you in the past. The relationship we had before was too poisonous for us to continue.