Chapter 21: Chapter 21

Boyfriend? When I was young, I didn’t even have a boyfriend, like I was NBSB.

Why does he look like he’s mad at me? What did he eat? Why is he acting like that? It’s as if I did something bad, and his voice is hurting my ears. Why does he have to yell... I’m not deaf.

“N-Nash is the little boy that I am--” I stop when I saw him smirk.

What’s wrong with him?

“Oh, a little boy... hmm, but he’s still a boy.”

Then? Is there anything wrong with that? Nash is just a little kid. Stephen is getting weird.

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After we ate, he drove me to school.

“Oh, my god! He’s so handsome!”

“Is he a student?”

“He looks like a model or an actor.”

“Hey, isn’t that the guy you flirted with last month, remember? The guy who owns that nightclub?”

“Yeah, just don’t mind him! He’s a jerk, he left after that night and act nothing happened!”

“Owws, he only took your virginity pfft...”

I heard the conversations of other students here just after I got out of Stephen’s car. I looked at Stephen before looking again at the woman who had been with Stephen for one night.

“Is there a problem?” He suddenly asked me and I just shook my head.

Stephen finally left, and I started to walk. I was about to pass by that two women who were talking about Stephen a while ago, but they suddenly blocked my way.

“Excuse me.” I was about to avoid them, but suddenly the woman touched my shoulder, so I stopped.

“Why are you and that man together?” the woman that Stephen one-night stands with asked me and even raise her eyebrows at me. She’s wearing a skirt and sky blue, crop top. Her friend is wearing the same as her, but only the color is different.

“Huh?” I’m confused.

“The man early, the handsome man who brought you here.” the woman who’s next to her said. Obviously, the two of them are friends.

What am I going to say to them? That my mom sold me to that man and that’s why I live in his house since that day? But her question is, why are you and that man together?

“He’s my boyfriend.” I don’t even know why that word came out of my mouth. I don’t know what I was thinking, I just wanted to go to my classroom now because I’m already late.

They both laughed while looking at me and the other woman looked down at my ID.

“Your name is Alyana, is that right?” I just nodded as an answer.

“Well, listen to me. After he gets your virginity, he will leave you as he did to me.” I don’t know if I’ll laugh because of what she said. Stephen already took my virginity, and he’s not my real boyfriend, so why should I worry that he will leave me? I would be so happy if he did that because I will be free, I cam finally go back home.

Hmm, she said that after what happened to them that night, Stephen just left? Like when she woke up, Stephen was no longer by her side? In my case, I’m the one who left in the morning... it would be weird if he’s the one who left. It’s his house, not mine. We’re not at the hotel or in a car, so I should be the one to leave.

“Besh, just forget that man.” Her friend muttered while crossing arms. She looked at her friend badly.

“Can you just shut up your mouth?” she raised an eyebrow at that girl beside her. It looks like something bad is going to happen right now.

“I’ve been holding your attitude back for a while. I can’t handle your behavior anymore! It’s just S*x, what’s the big deal huh?!” my mouth drops open while looking at them.

“Wow! I’m embarrassed, it’s not a big deal for you because you’re not a virgin anymore, you sleep with different guys every day!”

Oh my, she’s a f**kboy, I mean f**kgirl? Just like Stephen? How can she manage that?? What so good about having s*x with different woman or man? It would be more nice if you only do that to the person you love...right?

“Damn! Why did that get involved in the conversation? What does that have to do with this topic!”

“There is, it’s just that all inside your freaking brain is s*x in! I always let you copy my answers when there’s a quiz and exam. You’re only an expert in bed, but in school you're dumb b*tch! Ha ha ha! Funny, isn’t it? I feel sorry for your parents!”

I just backed away when they started pulling each others hair. I should leave now so I wouldn’t get into their fight.

Are those two really called themselves friends? They seemed to just pretending to like each other at first but in their mind, they’re already judging each other. True friends accept and understand each other’s flaws, when it times to sad and happy days they’re just here besides us. True friend is not just someone you can with when you're happy, hanging out, party but also when you're sad, having problems or depressed.

When I entered the classroom, I saw Xenon.

“Hey, Alyana.” he was about to hug me but immediately pointed my classmates. It was as if I was telling him that there’s a lot of people inside here.

My classmates will think that me and Xenon have a relationship or they might be curious what kind of relationship we have. Maybe girls in here will always approach me and ask for help or maybe they’ll be mad at me. I want a quiet life inside here. I don’t want too much attention. I only want to graduate from college.

“Good morning prof.” I great and smiled at him. I feel guilty. Xenon might think that I’m avoiding him. He might have thought that I’m mad or upset about something...but I don’t get upset often, though. Hmm, he’ll understand you Alyana, don’t worry and just focus on your school for now.

When our class was over. I went to Madam Nessy’s house.

“Alyana, why are you not here yesterday?” she looks worried about me.

“I’m sorry Madam Nessy, something urgent happen yesterday that’s why.” Honestly, Stephen didn’t want to let me leave. How am I supposed to tell madam the truth? I’m embarrassed by myself. I know that I can trust madam with this, but this is not the right time to tell her.

“Ah, is that so? I’m just worried about you. Are you doing well?” I nod. She smiled at me and I was confused when she looked at me around. I just followed her every move.

“It looks like just now I don’t see another wound on your body.”

I’m no longer at my home. That’s why Stephen is not hurting me as my family did. The only problem with Stephen is that whenever he raised his voice to me. I want to tell to madam all, like no cap, but I just can’t.

“Take this.” she gives me five thousand. I looked at her, confused.

“What is this, madam?” I asked, I already have my advanced salary... then what is it for? Maybe, madam wants me to buy groceries?

“It’s your birthday tomorrow, right? I’ll give that to you as a gift, buy some delicious food or maybe just come in here tomorrow, I’ll prepare food for you to eat.”

“No, it’s okay, thank you so much Madam Nessy, but you don’t have to do that.”

I want to cry thinking of that I’m lucky to have Madam Nessy in my life. She’s kind to me and so nice to me. Nash is luckier with his mom, kind, generous. Madam Nessy never looks down on me. She treats me like I am her family. It’s like she’s my third mom. She’s just 2 years older than my mom.

“Sis Alyana, let’s play first!” I turned my gaze to Nash.

“Go on, Alyana. Nash missed you so much.” I chuckled and went to where he was.

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“Look sis Alyana! I’m so handsome in the picture, right?” I looked at the frame he was holding. Madam Nessy, Nash, and Sir Jonas are in the picture.

I can see in their eyes that they’re happy... We’ve never tried taking a family picture, nor do I have a photo of my dad and mom. The only memories they have left are the things they gave me. Even if those are not expensive, I’m still careful because they gave them to me.

While staring at their family picture, I noticed the necklace that is Madam Nessy’s wearing in that picture. That diamond pendant necklace looks so familiar. It’s the same necklace as my mom had. The one that my mom gave to me, she said that it’s her necklace, her mom brought it to her on her birthday and she’s giving it to me as a gift too on my birthday before.

I mean, since when I was born, they rarely buy me a cake but mom always gives me a birthday gift, it always be a necklace. I just hide all of that necklace so that Sis Kelly can’t take it from me.

“Sis Alyana, are you okay?” I didn’t realize that my tears were already dripping. I immediately rubbed them and looked at Nash.

I smiled. “Yeah, I’m okay Nash.”

Nash and I just played until he fell asleep. It looks like he’s tired of playing with me. I want to sit and relax because I’m tired too, but I shouldn’t. I still have a lot of stuff to do. About 4 pm, I left their apartment. I went to the market to buy chicken, then ride a jeep.

I’m already here in front of our house. I took a deep breath before knocking on the door. I raise my hand and was about to knock again, but someone finally opened the door.