Chapter 48: Chapter 48

Nick's POV

I miss her so fucking much. I miss talking to her. Just watching her. Miss her cute gestures. Her weird laugh. How passionate she is about random things. I just miss her. And her scent is everywhere. I still dream of her. I dream of the tears in her eyes when Cami sat on my lap and kissed me. I know her heart was broken but for a second I just wanted her to feel what I felt when I saw her with Harry.

That was a low blow even for me. Those first few days were horrible. I couldn't eat or sleep. Everything was wrong. And Alyssa just opened her fucking mouth and said she was pregnant. What? I always used protection with her. And we didn't even fuck that much. But that surprised me. What if the baby was really mine? Fuck!

I had no idea where Camilla came from and why they even let her in my house. Or how she even knew where I lived. I was so disgusted when I saw her. I hated her more than anything. Almost as much as I hated Harry. I wanted to fucking kill him but I was too drunk to stand. I told her to leave when she tried kissing me and when she tried helping me sober up. My head was pounding and I was just in my office when Ariane came in.

I saw how sad she looked. She had lost weight. Had bags under her eyes and looked so weak. But she caused it. I don't think she can give me any valid reason. She played me like a violin so fucking well. She looked so pure and innocent and I believed her. But she played me even worse than Camilla did. But I couldn't Bring myself to hate her. I was in too deep. In such a short period of time. Pussy.

"The fuck that was for ? You stupid bitch! Leave my house right now and I don't want to ever see your face." I pushed Camilla off me as soon as she left my office. I felt disgusted and ashamed at what I had done.

"But you liked it didn't you! You wouldn't have pulled me so close! You still love me

! Let's get back together babe." She yelled

"You stupid bitch. I have no feelings other than pure disgust and hatred for you. So get the fuck out of my house. Why the hell did you come back from where ever you went to?"

"Because of you.."

"Stop lying idiot." I held her neck threatening her.

"Fine! I just want some money. Not much. I promise I'll leave you alone after that!

You'll never hear of me again." She said and I released her.

"You want money huh? Should have known. Well sorry for you Camilla. I'll never give you a dime. You can go to hell. Fucking gold digger. Get out !" I yelled and she squinted her eyes.

"You're going to regret this." She told me and I raised a brow. She stormed out of my office and I heard the door open and slam closed.

I was in my office looking at the necklace Ariane left on my desk that day in anger.

It made me want to listen to her and remember what we had but I pushed my thoughts away.

"She's a fucking liar! I knew it!" Zoey stormed into my office and I hid the necklace in my pocket.

"Alyssa is fucking lying! She's pregnant for Red Kerrington! I want to smack a bitch!"

"How did you find this out?" I asked her feeling relief in my body. It's about 2 weeks after I found out Ariane was pregnant and we had been spending time together a lot. Yesterday was her appointment and I was jumping for joy when I saw the ultrasound.

"Well I did a DNA test. I just mistakenly cut her finger with a knife and got her blood then sent it to my doctor. I used a strand of my hair since we're siblings. Hold on.. we're siblings right? You weren't adopted were you?" She jokes and I rolled my eyes.

"Thanks so much Zoey. Now let's find her and get her the hell out of

my house."

Yes, she had moved in.

" Well..I kinda already sent her stuff out." She said raising her shoulders.

"It's fucking raining Zoey!" I scolded her as we walked to Alyssa in the living room.

She just shrugged.

"Well well bitch. Your time is up because that baby is definitely not my brother's and I have proof! I bet you loved the massage earlier huh? And all the free baby stuff

? You can keep em. But you're getting the hell out of this house." Zoey beat me to it as usual as she held the dna test in her hands.

"W-what do you mean! ? Of course it's your baby Nick ! Why would you say so?" Alyssa shrieked looking panicked.

"Because I had you all figured out. Your fucking career is over and you want a rich man to support you because daddy is fucking bankrupt. Might be out of it but I'm not fucking stupid. Now get the fuck out of my house." I told her raising a brow. I had her all figured out but I was waiting for my own test results from the doctor. Zoey beat me to it like fucking always.

"You can't do that to me! Where will I go to?" She shrieked and I went to a table and wrote her a check.

"Here. Spend wisely. Get a job. Do whatever the fuck you want. I don't give a shit." I told her and she seized it from me and looked at Zoey bitterly.

"Bitch." She spat and started walking upstairs.

"Oh don't bother! Your luggage is already in outside. I'll be kind to ask the driver take you since it's raining." Zoey spat and I rolled my eyes. I stopped walking to my office when I saw Ariane at the door. My heartbeat sped up. I forgot she had to come

over. I had invited a masseuse for her because she's been getting so tired lately and restless . I was noticing how round her stomach was getting and it made me the happiest.

Our child. Our Son.

It was hard. So hard seeing her and not being able to touch her like I used to. And we spent time with each other frequently . Talking about the baby of course. Trying not to divert. Trying not to get so close to her again. But it's like we had gotten so much closer in this time than we had in all these months. I think I even loved her more and that was so fucked up!

She broke you. So so bad. You can't let her do it again. "Um.. I hope I'm not interrupting.." she said in a small voice

"No! Of course not, Alyssa was just leaving. Um, the masseuse is upstairs waiting.." I told her scratching my neck. She made me nervous. Why? What the fuck.

"Oh ...um okay.." she said walking closer to the living room where I was standing.

Alyssa was shooting daggers at her with her eyes and zoey seemed contented. "Fine! I'll go. But you're gonna regret this. I promise!" Alyssa screeched pushing

past Ariane and out the house. "Um?.."

"It's not Nick's baby. Bitch was lying!" Zoey told her and I saw how relieved she looked. She even smiled but hid it soon enough.

"Wow! Um, well.. I'm sorry about that, I guess.." she said but I knew she wasn't sorry. Of course she wasn't.

"Do you wanna eat first? I got a lot of mangoes for you." I told her placing my hand on her round stomach.

"N-no I'm good." She stuttered and I wanted to chuckle like I used to. I know she's turned on. I know her body more than I know mine. I've been reading and I realize most women get horny when they're pregnant and from the way her body reacts to mine, I'm positive she is.

"Okay. Let me help you up the stairs." I told her and she rolled her

eyes.

"You don't need to help me. I'm not even heavy yet. And I'm pregnant and not sick. You need to stop" she told me firmly and I retracted my hands. Zoey laughed and wiggled her brows suggestively.

"I'll be in the kitchen if you lovebirds need me! But hopefully you won't!" She said as she walked to the kitchen.

Ariane and I walked upstairs to the room with the masseuse waiting. "If you need , anything...just tell me. And I mean anything." I told her and she smiled at me.

"I'll be fine Nick. Thank you."

"Anytime.." I said looking at her. A part of me was dying for her to just say 'caro' .

I wanted to understand her but despite the thousand possibilities.. I had no idea why she would ever hurt me like she did. I walked out of the room hoping my anger would resurface. Tamara had tried calling me thousands of times but I didn't know want to hear anything. Even my mom wanted me to listen to her. When did they get so fucking close?

I went to my office and tried to work. But I couldn't concentrate. I had hired extra bodyguards to protect Ariane in case Harry tried anything. What if she loves him back? What if she wants our child to live with him? Over my dead body. I had not even considered the possibility. Will I handle her being with another man? I'm losing my fucking mind. What if he tries something? I need to talk to my lawyers.

I picked up my phone and called one of my lawyers. I told him all my worries and he advised me to go to court. Get joint custody. Or full custody since I have more money. I got off the phone not liking the sound of it but considering it.

How long have I been sitting here just thinking? I looked at my watch and it had been 2 hours. I walked to the room and opened the door without knocking. Ariane was standing stark naked in front of me.

For a minute, I couldn't take my eyes off her. She had changed so much. Her body was so different. It took everything not to just touch her. She stared back at me with her eyes wide open.

I cleared my throat. "Um.. I should have knocked." I said still looking at her breasts. They looked bigger.

"Um, no problem. The masseuse left half an hour ago." She said blushing and I bit my lip.

"I'll let you get dressed then." I told her turning around.

"You've seen me naked a thousand times. Why are you acting so shy?" I heard her speak and I faced her again. She had her hands folded on her chest and I wanted to groan.

"That was before. Things are different now."

"Why don't you want to listen to me Nick ? Why?" She pleaded and I shook my head. I walked over to her and helped her wear the bath robe.

"Let's eat. You must be hungry. And I'm sure the little one is hungry as well." I ignored her plea and held her hand so we could walk down the stairs. But she pulled her hand away from me.

"Should have known. This is all because of the baby." She scoffed "you're such and arrogant jerk. Can't believe it." She said and I ignored her still. I pulled a chair on the dining table for her to sit.

She sat down and Maria brought our food and I could feel her getting angrier and angrier. She'd developed a bad temper.

"You're ignoring me huh! Jerk!" She said again looking at me. I didn't say anything and dished her food for her. She always liked when I did.

"Can you fucking talk!?" She yelled again. She swore. She's angry. Over the few weeks, she had made us all stop swearing because she didn't want the baby to swear

like us. I took a bite of my food.

"You know what? I'm tired. I want to go home. Please have someone take me. Thank you for the massage." She stood up and I put down my cutlery.

"Ariane sit down and eat."

"Don't you dare tell me what to DeMorgane." She retorted with an Icy tone. "Sit your ass down."

"I said stop telling me—" I cut her off by pulling her to my lap and closing her mouth with my hand. She frowned and started hitting me and then she bit my hand.

"You stupid—" she started

"You fucking hurt me okay! You hurt me so bad and I can't get over it!" I interrupted her feeling vulnerable.

"You don't just get over things like this Ariane. It's hard. And you being around is making so much harder because I don't want to forgive you. I can't forgive you.

Because you're going to fucking break me again and I can't have that. You made me dependent on you. I can't fucking sleep." I told her and I felt her hands on my face.

"I'm so sorry. I really am. I'm so so so so sorry Nick. I'm sorry if I've been pressuring you to forgive me. But please tell me you will someday. Please." I felt her hands in my hair and I sighed.

Can I forgive her?

I pulled her to me and inhaled her scent. I looked up and our eyes met. I have no idea who leaned in but our lips were almost touching when Maria interrupted.

"Sorry but you have a call sir. Camilla Brooke. Said it's and emergency." She said and I hissed. Why was I going to kiss her ? Why do I have mixed feelings ? Fuck!

Ariane stood up from my lap and I saw her mood shift.

"I-I will just take this home. I'll eat there. Thank you."

"No. Eat here. You can spend the night. It's rainy anyway." I told her with a frown but she shook her head vehemently.

"Please. Have your driver take me home. You can go answer your call ." She stood her ground and I frowned but nodded reluctantly.

"I guess first love really never dies huh? So quick to forgive her." I heard her say as I walked her to the car.

"Goodnight Nick." She said and shut the car door.

She has no idea that I would never love Camilla the way I love her. Never ever.

*******

I was in my office when Susan stormed in looking panicked.

"What's thé matter ?" I asked her worried but she kept hyperventilating. "Calm down. Take deep breaths." I told her and she tried speaking again after

taking them.

"Now tell me what happened." I told her slowly holding her shoulders so she can calm down.

"T-Tamara has b-been trying to get to you.." she started and I prodded for her to continue.

"Yes?"

"S-she was calling t-to tell you t-that.."

"Go on.." I told her and she took deep breaths.

"T-that Ari w-was knocked down by a car. S-she's in t-the hospital.."

When those words left her mouth I felt like my world had crumbled. This can't be happening. No. Please no.

"What hospital??!!?" I asked her quickly.

"S-St John—" i didn't let her finish and sprinted out my office.

"Trey , bring the car right now. Get someone take care or Susan. She's having a panic attack." I spoke to my phone quickly. I reached the parking lot quick and got into the driver's seat.

I drove as fast as I could and In less than 12 minutes , I was at the hospital. I would usually hesitate before entering hospitals because I found out Camila left me in the hospital. It was traumatic to say the least but I didn't even care today.

I ran as fast as I could and talked to the receptionist. "Ariana Rodstein. I'm her fiancé." I told her quickly surprising myself by saying that. She gave me a look and then I saw Tamara and I just ran to her.

"What happened? Is she okay? Is the baby okay? Please tell me positive news." "We're still waiting for the doctor." She told me looking panicked.

This can't be happening. No ! I can't lose her. I can't lose them. God,please. Keep them safe. My family.

"What happened?" I asked her trying not to breakdown.

"I have no idea. I was just called saying she's in the hospital since I'm her emergency contact. But apparently it was a hit and run."

"This is all my fault. This is all my fucking fault!" I said punching the wall. If only I picked up Tamara's calls. If only I didn't let her leave yesterday.

"It's not. Calm down. She'll be fine." She said but I could see the fear in her eyes. A doctor came out and I looked at him. "How is she? How are they doing?" He looked at Tamara as if asking for confirmation to tell me.

"She's my fucking fiancé so you better answer me!" I boomed and Tamara looked shocked.

"We're checking on the baby's vital signs. Hopefully they are both okay. But I just wanted to let you know that If they're not, you'll have to choose between both of them. Mother or child. " He told me and I felt like a thousand knifes were piercing me. I buttoned his shirt.

"Listen to me. You're going to save her and the fucker in her stomach if that's the last thing you do! Do you hear me? We're not losing any one of them. I can't. I can't

." I felt Tamara pulling me off the doctor.

"Please do everything you can to save them both. Please." She told him and he arranged his jacket. I'm losing my goddamn mind. This can't be happening.

I fell to the floor and pulled my hair. I felt the tears fall one by one.

"I can't. I can't. I can't lose them. No!" I yelled and I felt Tamara sit beside me. "Let's be optimistic Nick. I pray they are both fine." She said crying as well.

I can't lose her. I can live being angry with her. Not forgiving her. But I can't live without her. She can't die. No.

Hit and run? What if this was planned ? Who could do this ? Alyssa.

I will fucking kill a bitch.

I love you cara Mia. I forgive you.

I wanted to tell her but I was scared. What if it's too late?

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