Chapter 68: Chapter 68
David’s P.O.V.
A few days went by, and a document was delivered to our house stating that I passed the Coach University College Admission Test. I should be happy and grateful, knowing that my efforts were starting to get paid off, but I couldn’t. At the same time, I found out that Helena would never come back here again.
The pain was like I was standing in a land of mines, and although I wasn’t stepping on them, those were coming to me one by one—exploding inside my heart. It hurts, but I had to accept that part. I guessed I would be forever scarred.
It was Helena’s choice, and even though I was appallingly hurt, I was still hoping for the best that she was at least happy with her decision. Despite everything, I was still thinking about her welfare. Because after all that we had been through, Helena’s peace of mind and satisfaction should matter the most.
The pain would surely come and go, and I had to deal with it because I wanted Helena to continue living her life and do the things she ever wanted. But if she would think about me, I didn’t want her to remember the pain. I wanted her to have fun and remember me by laughing every day; if not—at least, often.
As per Mrs. Cheng, the Delgados would be staying in Germany for good, and Helena would also continue her college there. Helena would probably enroll in one of the most prestigious universities there. She would continue living her life and fulfill all her dreams in Germany—those dreams that once we talked about and promised to accomplish together. But now, it would never happen anymore.
On the other hand, I had decided to take Civil Engineering at Coach University despite being depressed and extremely sad. It was also what big bro, Liam, wanted for me. The Civil Engineering course was said to be in high demand today. Unarguably, all courses would give you a bright future ahead. It was only a matter of choosing which one was the right to master and be adept.
To add up, Liam’s company—the Evangelista Group of Companies or EGC—was a chain of different businesses from constructions, electronics, gadgets, jewelry, media, hotels, and restaurants. Being a successful Civil Engineer someday would surely earn me a spot.
I only aimed to pass, but surprisingly, I became a record-holder. I got an average score of ninety-eight percent on the entrance exam, and was able to surpass the previous record of ninety-one. The Coach University’s CEO said that it was the first time it happened in history, and because of that, I got the opportunity to have a five-year full-scholarship grant.
But since I already had a full scholarship sponsored by Liam, I just gave the opportunity to others. His name was Matthew Ritter—a half-German student who scored ninety-two. He appeared to be a rich kid because of his good looks, but he was unfortunately abandoned by his own father when he was two.
He was my seatmate during the exam, and at least, despite what I was going through right now, I was able to help my family, and instead of me, there was one more dream that would come true. It was Matthew Ritter’s as he took up a Business Administration course.
I wouldn’t be here if not with the help of my sister and her boyfriend, so might as well share my blessings with those in need. I also promised them that I would study hard, so as not to waste all their hard work and sacrifices for me. After enrollment, I put on an excited façade to what college life had in store for me.
But little did they know that I was being tortured every day, knowing that Helena broke up with me without even telling the exact reason why. I was good at hiding the pain, but I could never hide the way I felt for my girlfriend—or should I say, ex-girlfriend.
Every single day, my heartache was getting worse, and my woes were magnifying. It was dreadful and excruciating for me that I couldn’t fully understand everything.
Hell, I was not stupid and a fool not to comprehend. Just for me to cope up easily, Helena should have explained everything thoroughly. I could effortlessly understand her. But what did she do? She just dumped me like that, saying that she never loved me and what she felt for me was only pity? That was bullshit!
Indisputably, I would have gotten insane thinking about what I ever did wrong. What have I done to be such a turn-off to her? I was more than willing to change and correct whatever Helena didn’t like if only she had told me! She didn’t even mention that they would be going soon to Germany, and that tormenting morning where my heart was shattered into pieces was already their flight going there.
I thought that the Delgados would only be out of town for vacation. I had never expected that they would be out of the country instead. But if they had already planned on leaving, Helena and I could have a long-distance relationship then. I would be contented with that, and I wouldn’t ask for more. Some already survived that kind of relationship when they met their happy ending after, as long as communication wouldn’t be cut off.
If I had to save up for me to be able to follow Helena there, I would do that as soon as possible. But why does she have to cut ties with me and hurt me like this, when all I ever did was love her? She even deactivated her Famebook account to permanently tear off the rest of our connection.
Helena didn’t know how I felt living my life without her. She didn’t know what it was to die inside while hoping for the impossible thing to happen that we could still be together.
Beseeching for her was more like a twinge of pain—it was so hard to ignore. I begged for Helena a few times over, but she just told me that she didn’t love me anymore.
That she never really loved me during the days we were together.
That she never cared for me.
That she loathed every part of our relationship.
But since she was eyeing to get the valedictorian title, she had to suck it up and be with me. And now that she already won—she was already the class valedictorian—she could easily throw me away like a piece of rag!
I didn’t want to believe it because our elated memories showed that Helena had truly loved me. But even the word ‘believe’ has a ‘lie’ on it. The case was she had been adamant about breaking up with me, and unexpectedly, Helena had hurt me so badly—I couldn’t return anymore to the previous David. It was as if her decision was final and stiff.
First, it was Vanessa. Now, it was Helena. So, I guessed that women would only use me after giving them my all. That they would just treat me as something—that when they got tired of it—they would just throw it away after. Well, it looked like I needed to get up from this fall, and I would never, ever, allow myself to be hurt anymore.
I no longer had to experience the same pain again—the kind of suffering that was acute. And I promised myself that it would not happen again—making me cold in the process. Gone would be the days I ultimately lost myself just because I fell in love. I would be closing this chapter while looking at the scars on my right hand.
As expected, I graduated as the class salutatorian. If it wasn’t embarrassing for Liam and the full scholarship grant that he gave me, I would have stopped studying for at least a year and would just end up helping my sister to do some freelance jobs from time to time.
With each passing day, I could feel that there was a part of me that already died. Something in me had changed—it was depressing that I could no longer see the light. I loved Helena so much, but I guessed I should start forgetting about her and just move on with my life.
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