Chapter 22: Chapter 22

I feel uneasy the whole day, there's a part of me wanting to go to Henry and say my apologies, but the other part saying that it is alright at least I am telling the truth. I don't know in what way I will be back on my time again; I don't know when, and how. I feel like every day I need to say goodbye in case I will be gone suddenly. In my state right now, it is really hard for me to go. I don't want to leave Henry.

"What was just happened? We are doomed!" Cristel is panicking until now.

"I am going to fix it, don't worry. I just need to apologize to Sonia, and everything will be alright again." I nodded to her.

"I wish it will be that easy. You just humiliate Sonia in front of many people and now the whole town is thinking you are a whore, a slut, a flirt, a relationship-wrecker, and so on! We are in big trouble, Aliyah. I already told you that is not a good idea. Papa will be so mad at us." She was almost crying.

"I'm sorry, I will fix it, I promise." I sighed.

"Better be soon before Sonia's parents and my parents hear about this. If everything starts to mess up, don't tell me that I didn't warn you about this. This is big trouble, Aliyah!" she exclaimed.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know what I did. I thought it will be just right. I'm sorry," I said, that's all I can say.

"It will never be right. You fooled Sonia; she has all the rights to get mad because you made her stupid. You are doing something behind her back. If that happened to me, I will be furious, I would never forgive you," she said then touched my shoulder.

"I don't want this to happen. I guess I've been very desperate to do the things I need to do. I rushed things that supposedly take time to do. This is the consequence of that. I dragged you and your family into this mess, I will fix this as soon as possible," I said then stand up.

I need to fix this; I need to talk to Sonia and Henry. Should I tell Henry the truth about me? Should I tell him that it is very impossible for us to have a normal life because we can't be together?

"Where are you going? You will go to the market again? People are still talking about you, don't go yet." Cristel held my hand.

"I will talk to Sonia and apologize to her. And also, to Henry, I need to say sorry to them. I need to clear things to them." My eyes went to the ring that Henry just gave to me last night. Why have I accepted this in the first place? I gave him the wrong signal, he thought that I will accept his love, I really want to but I can't. I will just hurt him; the truth and the reality will hurt us.

"Wait for me, Aliyah. I will come with you. Don't go alone." Cristel is running towards me.

She smiled at me before he holds my hand. We walked together to go to Sonia's mansion. Good thing that Sonia's parents are not around, so as Cristel's parents. I need to really talk to her; I will explain everything even if the consequence is telling her the truth.

"Is Sonia there?" Cristel asked one of the maids.

"Yes, she's with Lieutenant Henry on the garden. Do you want me to call her for you? Or I just accompany you to the garden?" the maid said.

Cristel looked at me. I sighed.

"Can you accompany us?" I asked.

The young maid nodded. We followed her, and when we get there, even there is a great distance between us and the two, I can clearly see what they are doing.

They are kissing! They are kissing for goodness’ sake!

I stopped walking, Cristel and the maid stopped walking. I faced the maid and forced myself to smile. "They are busy, I think. I will talk to her next time, please don't tell them that I went here. Thank you," I said then pulled Cristel out of this place.

It should be okay, right? That's what I wanted, to make Sonia and Henry fell in love with each other. That's my mission why I am here in the first place. Why am I hurting?!

I stopped mid-way. Cristel stared at me. My tears fell on my cheeks, I don't want me crying for such a stupid thing. I can't cry for love, but I just did.

"Aliyah..." Cristel rubbed my back while watching me crying.

"Why am I hurting, Cristel? That is all I want, I wanted that to happen but why am I hurting?" I cried more.

"Because you already fell in love with Henry. Before, it easy for you to give her to Sonia but now, it is very different right now. You love him now," she said.

I shook my head. "No, I am not in love with him."

She just smiled. "You are Aliyah. He kissed another girl, you saw it, you felt betrayed, you cried because you only want him for you. You are in love; you already love Lieutenant Henry Dizon."

Is this really love? I have never been in love; I never experience this before. This is my first time, so I don't know how to name this feeling.

"Do you think so? But this is wrong!" I cried more.

"Why? There's nothing wrong with being in love, that is a very right thing. Being in love is so magical, why you are forbidding yourself to love him?" she asked.

"Because he is for Sonia--"

"I am not, Aliyah."

We both looked at the person who spoke behind us. It was Henry...

"I am not for Sonia, Aliyah. Why are you deciding for me?" He is very serious.

"I am not deciding for you. I saw you kissing, do you realize now how much you love her?" I stand up straight.

He shook his head. "I kissed her, is that the reason why you are crying? I kissed her and I proved how much I love you."

My heart beats fast.

"What? You kissed her then you realize how much you love me? You just kissed her, Henry! You kissed Sonia, not me- mmph!"

To my surprise, he kisses me on the lips in front of Cristel. I pushed him!

"How dare you?!" I shouted to him.

He smirked. I wiped my lips to insult him.

"You are disgusting! Never kiss me when you kissed another woman on the same day!" I pushed him more away from me.

"Stop being jealous, Aliyah. You are just wasting your energy for nothing." He cupped my face and kiss me again, torridly.

Oh, my god! I hate it! I hate him! I hate his kisses! It never did well for me. He always makes sure that I will for him every single time.

At last, he let go of my lips but not my body. He is still hugging me, his arms snaked on my belly.

"Let go of me, Henry. If somebody sees us with this position, I will kill you!"

I am glad he listened. He let go of me, I held Cristel's arm who is still shocked at what we just did.

"So, tell me, why you are leaving? Why are you leaving me after giving me so much hope for this love? Are you committed to someone?" He creased his forehead.

"I will never kiss you if that is the case." I looked away.

"Then, why? What is your valid reason?" He raised his eyebrow.

Not now, Henry. I can't…