Chapter 38: Chapter 38

Continuation of IN COMA pt. 1

Days passed until our exam day arrived. Barra was getting better enough, although sometimes he still had trouble walking because of the pain.

The man surprised me over and over again with all the willingness he made for Jazzlin. Luckily that woman had it, but now he hated me.

The exam was hard for me, but Jazzlin did it easily like it was piece of cake.

My days were busy with studying and avoiding every party which actually tempted my soul to go there. The soul controlled by real Jazzlin but I could feel it.

Barra and I spent our time studying together. He often stayed in my room. I was the one who always hugged him when nightmares about his mother came.

The figure of a mother was indeed the most important part of his life.

His mother's departure completely destroyed him. I promised myself to never leave him alone until I stop breathing.

Jazzlin always wanted to be there when Barra needed her and Barra was always there for her. They completed each other.

The last day of the exam, all students were busy capturing the moment by taking photos. I also took pictures and printed it.

These were the photos I saw when I was reborn into Jazzlin. (Chapter 2 - DAY TWO)

Her friends were very friendly and kind. I could feel jealousy burn me when Barra took a photo with the girl. She had been liking him from the first time we entered high school.

"Are you done?" I asked him in bitchy way as he was coming my way.

"Overly jealous?" He smirked.

"In your dreams." I rolled my eyes. "I'm craving ramen. Why don't we eat together?"

"I wish I could. Emily and I have to study for a math competition." He explained apologetically.

"Emily again, emily again, again and again." I was about to leave when he held my hand.

"How about I make it up to you by ice cream tonight?" His offer was lighten up my mood, but still I didn't like the idea of him spending time with Emily.

"No hassle." I said as I struggled to let go of his hand.

"I know you're mad." He never let my hand go like something had hit him, "Let's eat ramen."

What?

I dodged, "You need to study to win the competition." I reminded him. The competition was important for him. I knew it!

"I don't care about the competition. Come on." He pulled my hand.

"But-" I tried to stop him.

"It's easy-peasy." He winked at me.

Seriously, Jazzlin was really a typical beautiful woman but stubborn one. She wanted all her wishes fulfilled, otherwise she'd do something until the person submitted to her wishes.

Her father, mother, and even Barra always gave what she had wanted without exception. So far, I had seen her life running smoothly without the slightest thing hurting her, but why did she end up committing suicide attempts?

She was cheerful both inside and out, Even though she was stubborn, she had a good heart for everyone.

I was shocked when I found out that Jazzlin liked to do charity event at my orphanage. But, every time she did it, I wasn't there. She had met Alia several times, but Alia was still so young.

"Look! Cinderella is so beautiful." I had forced Barra to watch the Cinderella movie with me, even though in the end he fell asleep without watching a bit. I didn't want to lose either, the next day I forced him to watch the same movie.

"This is the fourth time I've watched it." Barra commented while eating popcorn.

"Yesterday you slept, the day before yesterday you had slept again, and the day after yesterday you didn't listen."

"Your words giving me headache." He shook his head. "Alright, now I watch it properly." He didn't lie when he said that, because he was totally focused on watching.

In fact, I was the one who fell asleep because I was bored. I had watched it many times.

I slept right on his lap, fell asleep very easily when he gently stroked my head.

Such a heart warming scene.

The scene changed again to the school graduation and prom night. I thought I was going to spend my prom with Barra. But, that dummy Jazzlin had chose to refuse him and went there with a heartthrob, Ricky.

I didn't understand the contents of this girl's brain anymore. I was getting tired of being in her body without being able to control it like before.

She was playing hard to get.

I was wearing a beautiful red dress with the back exposed, showing my smooth skin. My hair was tied high. Putting on gold jewelery on my neck and ears. I really looked stunning.

All eyes were on me when I arrived in the ballroom. I knew I was the prettiest girl in St. Patrick. It was very ordinary for me when people praising me.

My eyes could never escape from him. Was he did that on purpose or did he really didn't see me? We were standing so close, dammit.

Even when dancing he was busy staring at Emily. Not the slightest bit he glanced at me. I got another guy's attention but not him, enough to made me feel like it was all in vain.

I was burning in flames of jealousy for sure.

"I need to use restroom." I told Ricky as I headed to the corridor. I washed my hands and fixing my make-up for a while then heading back.

"Sorry, Emily, I can't."

It was Barra's. He was talking to Emily. Since when had they been here?

"Why? Am I not worthy for you?" Emily sounded desperate.

"It's not that. I'm just not the one." I kept eavesdropping beside the wall.

"Is this because Jazzlin? You love her, right?" He didn't answer her question.

"Your silence is enough to convince me that you love her." I got ready to step aside when I heard Emily's voice getting closer.

"Emily, I'm sorry." He came out.

"Kiss me then." I peeked after hearing those words. Barra's eyes had widened. "At least in the end of our meeting, I have memories I can always carry with me until later."

What the freak was that?

He was silent. I guess he didn't know what to do. My footsteps approached them and immediately grabbed Barra's cheeks.

Cup! I. Literally. Kissed. Him. On. Lips.

At first, I thought it was gonna be a peck until I heard Emily cried and ran away. However, his hands grabbed my waist when he was kissing me back. His right hand was caressing my back, making me trembled with direct contact.

He was the first to let go of the kiss, I was breathing hard for air. "We shouldn't be doing this." What?

"You don't want me?" My heart was starting to break.

"Jazzlin, you're my best friend. I don't want to destroy it because of my selfishness." My eyes felt so hot. I tried to hold back my tears, stopping myself from crying.

"Okay." I answered and turned my body, walking as fast as I could even wearing high heels.

"Jazzlin, wait." He chased me from behind. "Jazzlin."

"No, just don't." I got rejected.

I grabbed Ricky's hand and asked him to take me home immediately. He nodded when he was realizing what had happened.

On my way home, I cried like a baby. Ricky had tried to calm me down, but after all Ricky was the one usually made woman crying, not the one who accompanied them when they were crying.

It was almost a month, I had been refusing Barra's presence. I stayed away, acting like a stranger, I even partied every night due to the trauma of rejection from him.

He had never rejected all I wanted, that was the first time and the important person of my life did it.

On the other hand, Barra was trying to fix his mistakes. He came to every party just to watch me from afar. He really cared about me, but was too stupid to admit his feelings.

What's funny? Every time I got drunk, he was the one who escorting me home safely.

Was this making their relationship not better when they were in college?

Barra was eager to tell me that soon he'd be moving out of city for his family matters as well as his studies. But, never got a time.

That morning, I broke down. He had moved without the saying goodbye. I blocked his contact from my phone and promised I would never see him again. Whatever it was, except he was the one who came to me.

I went to every family events, but when the Ainsley was arriving. I definitely went back home.

Even so, I never missed the news about his family. Their company was getting bigger and bigger, becoming the best company from year to year.

I found bits and pieces of the reason behind their strained relationship when they entered college.

It was all really painful for Jazzlin and I knew that, then when did she accidentally crashed to me? Did that also have something to do with all of this?

I returned to walking the dark path without anyone. Then, I entered a door that had light, this was the second door that I had to explore next.