Chapter 18: Chapter 18

Was it obvious? That it had been almost a week in jail but Jungwoo just did not feel as if he was locked inside a room, forbidden to go in the outside world. Instead, he felt secure, as he was not visible to anyone. Neither family friends or lovers? Well, none of them could see him anymore, nor the disgusting acts he did. It felt good to be hidden from everyone's sight. He didn't have a heart nor guts to meet any of them anyways.

Though, there was another obvious thing that he still wished to see only a certain someone. He himself did not know as to how or why he was even feeling for the said person in the first place. Or, maybe he did know but just decided to not really admit anything in any regarding that. It would be just better if he'd turn down his feelings, his emotions for a while.

He was locked inside a jail and he should be worrying about his bail and freedom. Yet, here thinking or more like dreaming about someone already…

“Out of your thoughts, hero.”

The voice did break Jungwoo's trail of thoughts for sure as he looked at one of the officers standing outside his cell with what seemed like some kind of documents in his hands.

“Here, sign them accordingly and return as quickly as you can.” The man said while handing the papers forward for the latter to take.

Jungwoo reached the cell door where the officer was waiting for him to take the papers. He took the documents and started checking them out.

Divorce papers.

If Jungwoo would be honest, he didn't really feel stabbed or even shocked. Maybe just a little bit surprised just because of how sudden it was, but he did not really feel… Hurt.

It was just so obvious for him. His behavior, his thinking, his feelings. First, he didn't really care about him.being locked for somewhat no reason. He didn't care about getting separated from his family or friends.

And now, he didn't feel anything much about his breaking marriage, which he was trying to save so hard just a few days ago. But now, it just didn't bother him. In fact, he somewhat felt good at the fact that he was legally going to be free from a chain that was pulling him in so badly, lately.

And so with that, he took the pen from the man and without a second thought, he signed all the necessary columns in an instant.

“So eager to get rid of your marriage huh?” The man asked as a mocking laugh escaped his mouth.

Jungwoo looked up once again after finishing signing the papers. “So eager to get rid of my past.” He snapped while giving the documents back to the latter who just grunted at the salty response.

“Whatever. Anyways, some visitors are also here to see you.” The latter said and motioned his head towards the entrance's direction while walking away and leaving the area.

Jungwoo was confused as to what exactly his reaction was at that very moment. He didn't know if it was surprising or shocking. But, he for sure knew that it was just one of the most obvious things that had been happening with him lately.

An obvious and sudden visit of his colleagues, his friends. It was actually the first to see them since he had gone on leave from work. And wow… What a nice way to meet your friends after a while.

The trio just stood in front of Jungwoo's cell and none of them seemed impressed nor seemed to be saying anything soon so Jungwoo just smiled awkwardly and tried breaking the awkward silence.

“Hi, I guess?”

“The fuck is this, Jungwoo?” Came from an enraged and Chinese accented voice.

“Well you see Sicheng, a cell, of a jail. Me inside and you three outside.” What did he just say?

Well, he himself didn't know.

“Oh yeah. I can clearly see that and I also clearly know that you got my point yet you're still shitting. Now, the fuck did you do?”

Jungwoo looked down and sighed and looked back at the latter. “Crime.”

“Bullshit. We know that it's not you, Jungwoo. Who's making you or made you do that? Who's blackmailing or controlling you? Just tell us the name of that hell of a monster and we will bury them alive, gosh…” Sicheng exclaimed while stroking his hair in frustration as his friend was just still playing it and he was not even playing it cool he was just playing it fool.

“I don't know then as to why you still don't want to believe that it's me. Yes, I'm a bad person.

Your friend is a person and you for sure can end this friendship. I don't care.”

“The fuck you-” Sicheng couldn't complete his sentence when a hand tapped lightly on his shoulder, calming his rage down.

“Sicheng, babe, let me.” Said Yuta while rubbing lightly on his boyfriend's shoulder and then looking at Jungwoo while offering a gentle smile in hope that the latter would share his actual words with them.

“Woo-ah, look, we have all known each other for a long time and you too know that. It is for sure possible for all of us to make mistakes but this is just not some mistake which you made. And, we also for sure know that in no way you could just do as bad as that. We feel and we believe that there's either someone or something which is holding you from telling what's the truth behind all this.” Yuta explained as the other three men just listened in silence.

After a few moments of staying still Jungwoo started speaking, “There is no such thing nor someone because it's me and only me.” Jungwoo stopped for a second and took a breath.

“Yes it's me who almost killed Taeil and exactly killed his child. It's entirely me I'm a fucking killer!”

Sicheng furiously hit on the door bars harshly and the loud thud made everyone flinch. He glared at his friend who just looked at any direction but him. Sicheng then gave one last look and left without any other word.

Yuta just looked sadly at his friend and followed the Chinese male, leaving his other two friends.

Jungwoo closed his eyes and exhaled, calming and preventing himself from shedding any tear droplet in front of his friends… Or only one Thai friend as the other two had already gone.

“It's obvious how easily you gave up on Taeil and let your marriage go now when you were always head over heels for your once beloved husband and were always about keeping your relationship safe and secure.”

Jungwoo looked at his friend and realized it was the first time he spoke since the three of them had come. “I don't know what is so obvious with it, Ten. Things change, as well as people and so do I.”

“Of course things change, of course people change and even their feelings but as deep feelings as love? Well that's questionable. At Least for me. I mean, Taeil was the love of your life, and falling out of love with him in a sudden just…”

“I still love him. I just want him to leave the past behind and find new happiness in future.”

“And you? What about you? Your happiness, your future, your life?”

Jungwoo chuckled lightly at Ten's concerned expression and replied, “Well, I am happy since I don't need to keep up with someone's expectations, or a personality which is not mine. I can be myself openly without caring about others.”

“Yet, you're still caring. About the person who is the reason for you being here.”

“Ten, I've already said numerous times…”

“Oh come on Jungwoo! Who are you fooling? We both clearly know that you're probably saving that freaking someone who literally doesn't care about you. But the fucking question is why? Why are you fooling yourself again for someone who doesn't give a shit about you? Why are you protecting someone who just left you to rot in here?”

Jungwoo didn't respond to Ten's rant and just averted his eyes avoiding the strong look his friend was giving. He felt as if Ten somehow knew about his thinking, his feelings, which he was probably trying to refuse and realizing that his friend could suspect that, he felt busted.

They just stayed in silence for a quite long moment with Ten breathing slightly heavy in frustration while Jungwoo just avoided every gaze of his friend. Then suddenly Ten raised a really, extremely unexpected question.

“You love him, don't you, Jungwoo?”

That was just enough to get Jungwoo off guard.

“W-who?”

“Exactly that hell of a person whom you are saving. You're in love with them, right?”

“I don't know about this term anymore.” Jungwoo finally looked at Ten in the eye as he answered.

“You may not know about this term anymore but you still for sure know the feeling and you are feeling that way. Am I not right? Of course I am! You wanting to end your marriage, you falling out of love with Taeil and the sudden change of yourself. That fucking someone is the damn reason

for it. Isn't it?”

Ten waited for Jungwoo to utter something, anything. But the latter just remained silent.

“I got my answer. I just hope whoever that freaking monster is, would come and get you out of here and stop you from paying the depths of their deed. Otherwise, you know that we're gonna find it out in the end somehow and you also know that even after you being a dick, we are always here to help you out. So once you realize how big of a fool you are, make sure to call us out first.” The elder then started walking away but Jungwoo's voice stopped him. “Ten, thank you.”

Ten turned around and a mockery yet pleased look appeared on his face. “I don't need 'thankies' I need answers.” He snapped and Jungwoo chuckled.

“I'm also looking for them.”