Chapter 20: Chapter 20
“I want you to sing a song for me after this in the music room,” said Sean which made me smile brightly, never in my life has someone asked me to sing for him. I returned in front of him carrying the cutlery.
“Sure, is there a specific song you’d like to hear?” I asked then turned back towards the stove, I walked to the refrigerator, there was a baquette bread that had been cut into a fairly large square, I immediately took it out and put it in the microwave, after the texture of the bread was not so hard, I served it.
“Not at this time, I want you to choose the song,” he said, I agreed to his request.
After dinner, Sean took me to the music room, turned on the light then looked at me.
“Piano or guitar?” I asked, Sean smiled sweetly.
“Piano, please,” he answered, I immediately walked over to the piano and sat down in front of it, Sean joined me. It smells heavenly, my favourite. My mind is starting to fog up but I’m trying to focus.
I finished my song without any distractions, I looked at Sean who was looking at me with his glittering golden eyes, he was really beautiful. A smile appeared on his face, I blushed by that smile, how weak I was in front of him, just with his smile I blushed like a teenager who just fell in love.
“You are so beautiful and charming, Ariana, I’m like enchanted by you,” he complimented, he tugged a few strands of my hair behind my ear.
My Inner Goddess bit her lips with a seductive expression. I looked back at Sean and put my hand on his face.
“Not only you, Mr Valentino, I was also enchanted by you.”
“For the first time, someone sang to me,” he admits, he takes my hand that is on his face then kisses my palm, and holds it against his face again. I was flattered by that, my Inner Goddess did a graceful somersault like an Olympic gymnast.
“Really? Atika?” I wonder, Sean shook his head with a bitter smile. Oh my, what is this? I seem to catch something hidden behind that smile.
“Atika was someone who helped me out of my predicament at that time.”
Oh, yeah! Here it is! Willingness to provide information. I tuned my ears well and prepared my mentality. My Inner Goddess sat back on her sofa, ready to listen.
“When I was 15, I was a teenager with a dark childhood, bullied and abused.” He told me in a somber tone, I could see the fear and bitterness in his golden net. Oh, boys! This is sad.
“Atika came and helped me out of my difficult situation, we were in rehab because of drug addiction.”
The blood instantly receded from my face, my heart constricted inside of me. Sean looked at me with a wary look, I remained silent.
“We had a history together, he was the only person who was always there for me at that time, I didn’t talk to them for a year after I left rehab, but Rani tried to get me out of that situation and slowly, I got over it a bit.”
Sean took a deep breath, but I knew he had a very deep, painful, and dark inner wound.
“Atika and I met again three years later, after our separation when we were out of rehab. Dad, mom and Rani strongly disagree with me getting back into a relationship with him, I am a man and have needs, and no one approves of my relationship with Atika, I ended up dating a lot of women.”
He closed his eyes and smiled bitterly, a mixture of sadness and regret.
“A year ago, dad and mom gave me an announcement that was hard for me to accept, they set me up with you, but at first I never thought it was you, I thought that Atika was the little girl who saved me that time, but I was wrong, and finally I feel maybe I was just lucky at the time, but it seems luck is still on my side.”
The golden netra looked at me with a look of hope. My mind is paralyzed by this information.
“I’m not as good as you think, Ariana, I’m a man with a lot of depravity,” he hums to himself, the hope in his eyes disappearing replaced by a sad look that pierced my heart.
Can I erase all this man’s pain? Can I accept all the bitterness of his life, all that dark and dark past?
“Maybe, someday you’ll leave me because of all the things you’re hearing right now.”
My eyes widen with panic. I? Leave it? How do I do it? While I have fallen too deep with him, I have surrendered myself completely to a man who has a lot of depravity in his past, even I have fallen in love with him.
“Say something, Ariana.”
“I love you Sean, leaving you is impossible for me, you see this?” I asked holding up my finger that was wearing our wedding ring.
“This thing binds not only my body, but also my soul and my whole life to you,” I said with a surge of emotions rising within me. Sean took my hand which was wearing a wedding ring and kissed it.
“Mine,” he claimed, and his eyes gleamed with a wild passion, hot, and promising worldly pleasures. My face burned, my heart seemed to explode inside me, and the pieces turned into beautiful flower petals.
“And now, tell me how you feel about me,” I say and his expression changes to surprise and confusion.
Oh no! Fear slowly spread throughout my body to replace the feeling of happiness that had hit me.
“All I know is that I need you in my life,” he replied, and my heart was pricked by a needle of disappointment. I expected the same acknowledgment as I did. We stared at each other in silence, tonight is going to be a very long one for me. I promised not to give up on him, our relationship has just started, I feel a little better because Sean is starting to open up to me a little, Caroline’s words are true, I have to try a little harder for this man.
“Is this information worth stopping you from working outside the home?” he asked which took me by surprise. What?? So the provision of this information is not without reason and not out of willingness?? This is really sneaky.
“What is this?? You did this on purpose???” I asked with a sudden change in emotion, Sean twisted his mouth and shrugged.
“Not really, but I know what you want,” he said with a serious face, I clucked and groaned, I think it’s true, it’s going to be a long night.
“I need activities other than just waiting for you here, Sean, and I don’t think it’s going to be as bad as you think,” I said determined to win this debate.
“Ana, the one who offered you this job was the one who wanted mine!” he exclaimed which made me frown. What does this mean? Does he know?
“Do you know who offered me this job?” I asked to be sure.
“Ariana, it doesn’t matter whether I know this person or not, but I’m trying to keep mine away from people who want it too,” he excused, my chest rumbling with anger.
“Are you stalking me, Sean??” I asked angrily.
“Ana, the word stalking is a misnomer.”
“Are you spying on me??” I snapped angrily, Sean looked surprised by my anger, then his gaze turned serious.
“I was worried about you, Ariana.”
I groaned in frustration and got up from my seat away from Sean, I looked at him with a threatening look.
“I don’t want to hear anything else, don’t get in my way, Sean, or you’ll never touch me!” I threatened, and I saw the hurt look on his face, no dear, you should be given limits to your arbitrariness. Even though I know, that I can’t be without his touch, but this is for the sake of winning this thing.
I left the music room angry, Sean called me but I ignored him, I went back to our room. I closed the door and locked it, I heard Sean knocking on the door, he tried to open it by turning the hinges. I just sat quietly on the edge of the bed.
“Ariana, open the door honey, we can talk about this.”
I snorted, Sean sounded like he wanted to talk business. Annoyed, I took his pillow and walked to the door then opened it, then handed him his pillow in a huff, Sean looked at me with a surprised look mixed with confusion.
“You, sleeping outside this room without me!” I insisted, then closed the door again and locked it before Sean uttered his words to seduce me. I quickly got into bed and lay down then breathed a sigh of relief. My Inner Goddess patted the palm of her hand, as if to clean the sticky dust. Sean is stubborn, stalker, fragile, seductive, and many more things that are attached to him. All of these things come together and form a mountain, I know it won’t end easily, but at least I’m satisfied with what I did.