Chapter 22: Chapter 22

The cold air greeted me when I got out of the car. I held the flower I was carrying carefully as I walked towards the person I knew would listen to me.

I stopped at a small house. It's not a small house for people who are alive. It's like a small house for the dead. After unlocking the chained door, I quickly opened the door.

Daddy's tomb welcomed me. I looked around inside. I smiled when I saw that the place was neat and clean. Maybe the caretaker always clean his grave. I always pay him for his service though.

I carefully placed the flower under Daddy's tombstone. I carefully sat down so that we were level with his tombstone.

I carefully felt Daddy's name engraved on his tombstone. A sad smile crept on my lips.

"Hey Daddy, I miss you so bad." I softly whispered in the air.

"I want to hug you right now and cry in your arms just like the old times. Just like before I want to report to you because Mommy doesn't buy the other things I want. But now I'm going to report something else. Look Dad, your baby girl is a grown up woman now. Your baby girl turned into a brave and strong woman now. But it doesn't mean that I don't need my superman." My lips quivered. I bit my bottom lip to stop myself from crying.

"This woman needs her superman right now. I want my superman to hug me so tight. i want him to tell me that everything's gonna be alright. I want my superman to kiss my forehead and whisper sweet things to my ears, so that my mood would lift up and I won't be sad anymore. I want you here Dad. I want my superman here by my side right now. But I know it's so impossible right?" My tears started to fall down making my cheeks to get wet.

I clutched my chest when it started to ache.

"My superman I'm so confused right now, please help me." I sobbed while caressing my tummy.

"I want this angel inside me so bad. But I'm hurting 'cause my man doesn't want to have a baby yet. He has so many dreams in life and I can't afford to ruin it just because of me."

The tears that fell from my eyes could not be stopped.

"Superman you heard it right? Your baby girl is now a Mommy and you will be a grandfather soon." I smiled while looking at my Daddy's engraved name.

"I have an angel inside my tummy. You know what Dad, I'm the happiest person in the whole universe after knowing that I was bearing an angel. This is the thing that money can't buy Dad. This is also one of my biggest dreams. But I also have to decide what's good for all of us."

When Leina came to my office at school. I already knew I was pregnant. I was so happy that even though I knew she was mad at me, I didn't pay attention to that.

I thought that only Rainer's caresses and kisses could make me happy. I had been more so dam happy after I found out we were going to have a child. I'm not sorry for bearing his child. I know from the start that Caelan is not yet ready for this kind of stage.

He's so young to become a father. As what he said he has so many dreams in life. He wants to help his family first, and I'm not angry at his reasons. I understand him so well and his reasons make me fall for him even more.

I didn't take pills. I wanted so bad to have a child and taking pills will be a hindrance to make it happen. So I didn't take pills.

And my dream came true. I was bearing Rainer's child. This angel is the evidence of how I love Rainer so much.

"Superman please always guide me hmm... I hope the decision I will do is right for all of us. I only want what's good for him. I hope he will understand it someday. This is also going to be hurt for me but I don't have a choice but to do the right things I know." I put both of my palms on my face when my sobbing gets louder.

I know my decision is right. But it's going to break me too.

With shaking hands, I slowly wiped the tears from my eyes but they didn't even drain. I bit my lower lip when it trembled a bit.

I took my pouch and took a picture of me and Rainer. This is the photo that we took during our date in the amusement park.

I wiped my tears while looking at our happy faces in the picture. Seeing his smile makes my heart ached and happy at the same time. Ached, because I know for sure that he would be angry at me in the near future. Happy, because I know that the decision I will make is only for his best. Rainer deserves the world and I will give him that. I will give his freedom to live his life to the fullest.

I gently placed Rainer and his picture on Daddy's tombstone. I look like an idiot while laughing.

"Look, Superman, my future husband is so handsome, right? He's the man who has the purest heart I know." I was smiling while telling my Dad my story.

"He wouldn't leave my mind. His smile always hunting me. Every time I think of him my heart would immediately react. And I'm not naive to not know that I am falling for him. It's crazy right? I'm falling to the man who doesn't even know that I exist in this freaking planet." I laughed remembering my memories in the past.

"Superman I hope you wouldn't abandon me if I tell you that I kidnapped him. Yes Daddy, you heard it right. I kidnapped him on his 21st birthday. I know it's a wrong doing but that crazy idea made him know me. I know I'm such a crazy woman for doing that but I didn't regret it, I love him so much Dad, and it's gotten to the point where I'm really desperate to get him, just don't let him end up with someone else."

"Am I too evil for wanting him in my life Daddy? Is my love for him too poisonous? If it's then, I'm willing to be an evil person just to have him all by myself. I don't want him with anyone else Dad. He's only mine. Rainer is only mine." I uttered determined.

Even if Leina interferes, I will not allow her to win. I will fight for my man.

"I hope you will meet him Dad. My baby is such an amazing person. He always makes me happy. Just his presence makes me satisfied. Dad I hope you will be happy for me. I wish you and Mom would be here by my side. I'm sorry if I can't even visit the girl you love so much." I cried

"I'm just hurting seeing her like that. But, I promise to visit her when I'm ready to face her. I promise to tell her that she will now be a grandmother. I hope she will also be happy for me.”

I knelt at Dad's grave and kissed his name engraved on his tombstone.

"I love you Superman. Always and Forever. you will always be my hero forever. Thank you for bringing me into this world. I owe my life to you and Mommy. If it isn't because of both of you. I wouldn't meet the man I will forever love until the day I die. I love you so much Daddy and I miss you so bad. I hope you're watching me from above.I whispered and kissed his tombstone again.

With trembling knees I slowly stood up. I wiped my tears and slowly picked up my pouch. I put Rainer and his photo next to the flower. I have many copies of that photo.

I smiled sweetly while looking at my Daddy's tomb.

"Goodbye Superman. See you soon. I will come back here together with my angel. I promise you that." I mumbled while caressing my tummy.

I quickly turned around and closed the door. I make sure that the door is locked before I go.

The cold winds blow. I hugged myself when I felt like someone hugged me. I smiled thinking that Daddy might be the one hugging me.

The weight in my chest eased a little when I let out my feelings. Even though Daddy is gone, I know he's always watching over me. I know he won't let me down. Especially now that he has a grandson.

I slowly walked towards my car and immediately went inside. My heart is thumping wildly inside my chest as I was driving. I will treasure this night.

I wiped my tears when it's slowly falling down. I was laughing while driving to his house. Wait for me baby... I'm coming. Why am I happy to be hurt? Can you still feel this way?

I carefully closed the door of my car and smilingly looked at the house of the person I love so much. I looked at the gate to see if it was locked. I smiled when I saw that it wasn't locked.

I entered immediately and stopped at the door.

I took a deep breath and sighed harshly. this is it Talliah. Treasure this night okay?

I knocked on the door while my heart was very nervous. My emotions are mixed. Happy to be sad. Happy but sad. I do not know.

In my third knock the door opened and the build of the man I love came to my view. Tears welled up in my eyes when I saw his handsome but worried face. He quickly came to me and immediately kissed my face. I couldn't stop the sobs escaping my lips.

Why is this so painful?

"Hey are you okay?" Rainer asked me worriedly as he wiped my tears away. I immediately nodded my head and helped him dry my tears.

I smiled sweetly at him while looking at his beautiful brown orbs.

"Does Lana, Tita and Tito inside?" I asked softly. He shook his head quickly which made my heart happy.

"I'm the only one. Mama and Papa left because they attended a meeting in other place, they'll be home in a day. They took Lana with them." He said softly. I nodded because of what he said.

I caressed his jaw while looking at his face. Memorizing every inch of it. Rainer looked at me weirdly like I'm some kind of puzzle he needs to solve.

I tiptoed a bit and crashed my lips to his lips. His lips are so soft as always.

My fucking tears again immediately stream down without my permission "Baby I'm sad." I uttered while looking directly at his brown orbs.

Rainer opened his mouth to say a word but it was muffled to my mouth when I kissed him harshly.

I will treasure this night.