Chapter 37: Chapter 37
Eric's POV
Her sharp stares make me feel upset. I don't want her to look at me with this look.
"What are you doing here?? Go..Go..back to your party!!!!" She shouted at me.
"Angela!! I'm sorry!! I don't know you are waiting for me!!" I tried to convince her.
"Hahaha!!! Hahaha!!!" She laughed, clapping her hands.
"Wow!! You don't know!!! Hahaha!!" She could not even stand on her feet properly.
I tried to support her by holding her arms but she shook my hand back.
"I don't want your help!! Just leave me alone!!" Saying this she started going back to the bar room.
"Angela!! Please hear my words!!" I followed her. I know it's my fault. She felt devastated just because of me.
She staggered back and said looking at me with sad eyes, " Erish!! Why do you become like this?? You told me that you love me but why did your actions not match your words?? Why are you always making me wait for you?? Each day...Each day...I'm hoping that..one day you will understand my love for you. But each day you make me lose my hope. One day you gave me hope..high hope but the next second, you snatched it away..!!! "
"Angela!!" I tried to touch her but she refused my touch.
"Stop there!! I don't want to hear your words!! What the hell is wrong with our relationship??? Why did you reject me every time I was near you? Erish!! Do you really love me??? One day you become a sweet husband and one day you become a stranger?? Have you ever thought how much it hurts me, how much it hurts when I see you doing this? Have you ever thought about my feelings or tried to understand? I never thought that after our marriage there would be such a turning point where I would also talk to you in this manner. But Erish, I'm human!! I feel the pain!! Don't you understand?" Her eyes turned red and tears streaming down from her eyes none stopped.
Seeing her crying this miserable, my heartfelt discomfort and sharp pain on it.
I clinched my first tightly with frustration. I don't know what to answer her. Her sadness makes me feel the burden.
"Erish, you don't know, your rejection hurts me... It hurts here!!!" She pointed to her heart when her lips trembled.
"I'm trying to understand your situation but what about my situation?? Have you ever thought about it?? After our marriage Have you ever sat beside me for a moment and asked me how are you, Angela? ?? No!! Never!!! All you do is sorry!! I don't need your sorry!!! I need your love!! Your care which sometimes shows and sometimes vanishes!!! I feel like I'm living with a stranger!!! It's hurting me so badly... I just sat in my room waiting for you every night but you always ignored my feelings. Even today you don't call me even once. At first, you were busy but now you completely ignored me!! What the hell did I do wrong to deserve this!!!! Can you tell me?? All I want is your love, your time!!! Did I ask for extra???" She shouted angrily, sobbing hard.
Every single tear of her was increasing the pain in my heart and every word of her was weakening my feelings. She was in so much pain all the time and I was only looking at her smiling face. Thinking that she would understand but I just gave her only tears, sadness, and rejection. She's right I was all thinking about myself, my love, my pain!! What about her?? Why didn't I realize that?? She's feeling the same pain as I'm feeling for her.
She's right what she did to deserve this torture from me. It's all the fault of my family but why is she the one suffering? When she's the one innocent here.
"See!! You could not answer me!!" She smirked bitterly. There is a coldness in her eyes, not more love. She just looks like a broken doll.
"Erish!! I don't need an answer anymore!! I'll leave this place tomorrow!!" Saying this she went out of the bar room. Her steps are fast. I can hear her sobbing voice which increases with each step.
And I stood there astonishingly. I didn't have the courage to stop her. Because if I stop her today, I will never let her go away from my heart or life again. I'm going to have her for me.
My feelings told me to stop her but my mind told me to let her go. It will hurt her less. If I'm going to ignore her like this. This is best for her to go far from me. But my feelings told me to stop her. Make her mine. Stop ignoring her. Giving her the love of her life which she deserves. She deserves every bit of love from me.
She's the one I love. Why don't I just show it?? Let her feel Eric's love for her. How madly I'm in love with her. Let me show her how each second is just like hell for me without her. Let me show her my love for all these years. How I stay abroad with her memories.
My feelings devoured my mind and finally, I made my decision and just ran towards her!! I ran like this is the only last hope for me. I ran madly like a silly lover who just wants to stop his lover. Who doesn't want to think anymore from the mind, all he thinks about is his heart. He wanted to become selfish and make her own. I ran and just ran until I found my destination! My Angela who is sitting on the bed and crying miserably. I stood at the door and tried to calm my breath normally. At this moment I just want to hug her and make her mine. If I take one more step I'm not going to turn back even one day she wants to leave. I'll never let her go. This one step holds our destiny.