Chapter 105: Chapter 105

Angela's POV

'What the hell I was doing at the dining table? How could I talk to him so calmly like he did nothing to hurt me when he is the one who is the big reason for my damage, my tears, my sorrow, my now situation!'

'How could I?' I shouted in my brain as I walked toward my room and closed it behind me. I can't accept the fact that I can forgive him so easily. No! Never!

"I can't lose my hate for him! It can't be! He deserves that...he doesn't deserve my smile, my affection, even my eyes on him."

"Then why?"

''What is happening to me?"

"Didn't I loathe him? Didn't I aim to discover a way to get away from him and this mansion?"

"Then how? How can I just talk normally with a smile with him? This is wrong! Completely wrong!" My finger raced to my hair. While my tears come out to feel so much pain inside me at this moment.

"Why am I getting close to him? Why? Why is it hurting this bad?"

My hand clenched on the dress around the chest. While suddenly I realized something, which I was ignoring the whole time. But now it can be ignored.

"I..."

"I truly fell for him…I fell for Eric! My husband's substitute..." This realization hit me hard and I can't feel but numb all over my body.

"How could I…" I can't believe what just I feel for him.

While my hand automatically pressed to my mouth, I felt terrified to guess that because this is the last thing I wanted but now I know, I can't be here even for one more day… It's getting harder day by day.

"I need to find a way to run away from here!

"Yes, I need to run today!"

"I can't take these shit feeling anymore!"

"I feel mad at myself, how could I fall for someone who hurt me, who cheated on me, who faked his whole identity and married me!"

I can't help but mock myself and my silly heart.

I felt completely panicked to realize the truth. And now I can think about running…. Yes, running...running far from him…and this place…"

"I don't want to stay with him like this! I can't!"

"I just want to be alone! Yes, alone!"

"I'll run! And I'll do that today. No matter how! I'm not going to wait for the perfect day anymore to get out of here."

"And my damn heart needs to realize, I don't want Eric! Yes, I can't love him...he doesn't deserve that! He doesn't deserve my feelings after breaking me like this. He doesn't deserve anything from me…" I whispered out between my breaths.

'He doesn't deserve that…' I repeated the same words in my mind and made myself prepare to leave this place. Make myself strong enough to go away from here.

Now, all I need to wait is to turn night. When everyone is going to sleep. I'll move out. I murmured to myself while wiping the tears from my face and not to cry more.

'Is this what you want?' Suddenly my other half questioned me. But I didn't flinch and responded coldly, "Yes, I want this! I want to go far from this place and him..."

As soon as I spoke out my inner soul stopped questioning me.

"Remember Angela, you are doing it right! This is how you should behave and remember all the lies that Eric and his family said to you…"

"You can't let him apologize easily and accept it easily…"

Eric's POV

It has been evening and I don't see her coming out of her bedroom.

My brows twitched remembering the dining table conversation with Angela.

How many...how many days later, she looked happy and behaved normally with me but her last statement made her remember my cheating, my fraud.

I felt hurt to see how suddenly her calm expression changed into a serious one.

Is she upset because of me again? Thinking that I can't help but make my way towards her room.

I knocked on the door but did not get a response from inside, I directly opened the door as it was not locked.

But in my view, she's already on her bed while her body is curling up in the corner, and her back is facing me.

I don't know if she was sleeping or not but I didn't want to disturb her, so without staying there I just left the room and closed the door lightly. As it was before.

I went again to my bar room. I don't know how to feel. Everything turns up and down with every second between us. And I…I just feel like a loser.

I can't make her happy, let her be happy… I feel like bad luck in front of her who snatched her happiness.

I drank until night and finally made my way drunkenly tripping stairs to my room but as soon as the door opened and I turned on the light, I saw Angela on the bed.

Damn it! I got into Angela's room!

I looked at her figure which is still in the same direction.

Which made me check on her before leaving the room.

I went towards her face direction and finally caught her sleeping beauty.

My heart thumped to see her, while I kneel beside her bed slowly without making any sound.

I let my head balance on the bed edge while my hand touched her hair strands.

"I'm sorry, Angela…" I whispered between my breath while next later bent to kiss her forehead and let myself close my eyes for a moment.

I feel happy to see her beside me, touch her lovingly, every moment with her makes me feel happy but at the same time, I feel uneasy to do this.

Will my effort truly get me right to explain my side to her? Will she finally be ready to listen to me? Will she give me one chance?

There are thousands of questions going on through my heart and all answers are related to only one person, Angela...My Angela…!

What would the future look like for us? I couldn't help but think about it.