Chapter 30: Chapter 30

Celine's POV

She ran away. Again.

These past months I feel like shit for torturing myself not talking to Maxine when all the time I was yearning for her attention, for her voice, for her love. Last night really put me on my peak. I had seen Sophia and Max talked really serious that time and what bothered me the most was that Sophia was crying and Max hug her. The jealousy I felt was at its highest. I know Sophia has been friends with Max since god knows what but I thought Max only had eyes for me. You're not together anymore.

I know! But still. I am jealous of them! I want Max just for myself. I know i have messed things up between us and i wanted to correct it; to be us the way we used to be. Now, she run away from me again but I'll be running after her this time. I literally run after her before I told Annie to go find for her.

The sky seemed to darken; the sun is setting. I go through all the benches and even in the nearby stalls but Maxine was nowhere to be found then I just run to where my feet would lead me.

There she was. Sitting on the sand, her back was facing mine but I can feel her pain. What had I done wrong this time? Is it wrong to tell her I'm jealous between her and Sophia? I take a deep breath as I made my way to her.

"Max" she flinched at my voice but she won’t look at me "they're starting the bon fire" I slap my forehead with that sentence.

No reply.

I was 10 feet away from her and I started to go near her. "Maxine, we should go now. It’s not safe here" Still, no reply. I know she heard me she's just acting deaf "Max.. hey.." She still doesn’t bother to look at me or give me a reply and this time I got angry "What is your problem!!!?"

I grab her hand to make her turn to me, that electricity was still there the moment our hands touched "I've come to get you. Annie and the rest were enjoying this night! don’t just stand here and leave us hanging there. Annie and Sophia's moment were done and you could go there and hug or do whatever you want to do with Sop--"

I got no chance to finish my sentence when I felt her soft lips on mine. Maxine's lips were pressed against mine and I don’t know how to feel. The fireworks and the butterflies started to show up.

I melt at the kiss. I missed this. I miss her. I can feel her hot breath and a wet substance on her cheeks. She had been crying. I was about to kiss her back when she pulled away. I felt empty again.

"That's my way to shut you up and I've been wanting to do that to you ever since.. I don’t fucking care about Annie and Sophia's moment, Celine! " She said looking at me intently "But… I thought you two are a t-thing?" I asked confused. was there nothing between them?

"We were never to be a thing for fuck sake, I see her as a friend. Are you jealous?" Yes, I am. "Ye..i mean no. Uh" Fucking suck when I stuttered at time like this "You're jealous of me because of Sophia? You like her don't you!? From the dare up until earlier, you said Sophia was a nice girl and you like her! Can't you see I'm fucking jealous!? I don’t have a thing for Sophia but I am starting to hate her because the girl I love likes her!!" she said through gritted then, her hands run though her hair I am beyond shock to hear this and I slowly digesting everything I have heard. All this time we were avoiding each other like a plaque because of what we think?

"Wait. I really am confused right now. Yes, I am jealous but not of you, I'm jealous because I thought you and Sophia were a thing. The dare was just a stupid indecisive act because I wanted to make you jealous! And... you l-love me?" My heart was beating faster that my normal heart beat.

Knowing Maxine love me despite of everything we went through sent me to cloud nine. My skin felt warm as my lips wanted to form on a big smile.

"Oh my god!" she said she was trembling and I can sense the frustration she has been feeling "I fucking tried to act as cold as I can be. I tried to stay away from you because that's what you want, even if every time I looked away I just want to grab you and hold you in my arms and tell you to not let go and to start again I’m hurting because you doesn’t even care what I've been feeling.

The more I try to walk away from you, the more I’m drown to you. I keep acting like this because I...I wanted to give you what you want.. " she let out heavy breath wiping away the tears that escaped from her eyes

"I love you, Celine. I loved you the day we went here and told you I like you, I don’t spit out the word love because I know it’s too soon and I was right, you're not ready yet but I can't hold it anymore. I love you with all my heart and I am fucking jealous of what you did and I... I am mad of you for not giving a fucking care. Heck! "

I don’t know what to respond. I froze, it seemed like the world that's been crumbling down before me had risen up again. I am hurting her until now.

"I'm sorry that.. that was so uncalled for. I just want to let it all out, I won't bother you with my shitty emotions anymore. I understand you're not ready and I.. I’m sorry if I was too late or not too good enough for you. I better go."

No! This time I won’t let her go. I grab her hand and pressed my lips to hers. I can taste her tears but her lips were so sweet that I easily got intoxicated. God. I so love this girl. I bit her bottom lip and move my tongue inside without missing a single part of her lips. She opened her lips and I explored her mouth with my tongue . I once again bit her lower lip which causes her to moan. She kissed me back!! I am beyond happy this is happening right now. I hurt her yet she still has the courage to tell me this and what could I be afraid of? I have her by my side. I broke off the kiss and we both were panting, gasping for air. I looked at her eyes with so much love and longingness.

"I love you too Maxine. I'm sorry for all the things I have done. Sorry for being a coward not knowing I have the bravest warrior that would fight for me, for our love, you. I love you the day i've paid my eyes on you. "

I confessed once again feeling the eruption of butterflies in my stomach and the giddy sensation as if a kid was given a candy for a long time.

"Y-you do?" she asked

"Yes. I love you, i love you, i love you!. There's no more room for being a coward now. I want you; all of you Maxine. Will you be my girlfriend again? I promise to give you everything you wanted, to not be coward and selfish anymore, i promise to love you--" she cut me off by pressing her lips to mine.

The kiss was sweet as our lips move in synch, full of love, passion, lust and sincerity. A kiss full of emotions.