Chapter 56: Chapter 56

"I would fuck the shit out of you, bond with you, and I wouldn’t care if you are my sister or not; the consequences be damned, I will mark you and fuck the shit out of you again, again, and again until you beg me to stop. I will do anything for us to be together. I will worship the ground you walk on and kiss your feet. I will be your alpha and be at every one of your commands. It’s a promise, and you know I never break my promise, Oceana. I love you so much to the extent I can do anything for you, but if you break the love I have for you, I will be very disappointed. So, stop this drama, I beg of you. You don't know what you’re putting me through, the consequences you are creating, so please stop all this absurdity.”

My eyes welled up with tears. His words were breaking my heart. “I love you, Gerard, please.”

“Love is not enough, Oceana. Tell the world about this.”

“Why do you want me to say it? Don’t you believe me at all?”

“Of course I believe you more than myself. Just say the word to the realms and leave the rest to me.”

Tears rushed down my face. “Gerard…”

He cut in. “Do it, Oceana,” he commanded me.

My body, heart, and soul went numb. He wants me to announce it to the world and tell everyone that he is my mate. I looked above the realms and saw thousands and thousands of people moving in different directions, chattering among themselves, making love, having sex, some of them morphing into their wolf forms, running with their siblings, and some of them playing with their lovers.

I was the daughter of the Alpha, and any moment from now on, I will bang the large bell for everyone to stop, give attention to me, and listen to what I have to say to them. That’s all it takes for me to do. And then announce it to them and let them know what has to be done.

This was my chance. I wanted him to accept it, wasn’t it? This was the time to do that, and why don’t I want to say the words? Why am I scared? My forehead was sweating despite the heavy wind blowing through us, and my lips shivered.

I couldn’t speak. What will people think of me? Will they accept me? What about my parents—what kind of look will I be able to give them? What kind of life will it turn out to be? If I announce it to the world, everyone will laugh at me, I might even get banished out of the pack and stripped off my title, and the clan will also throw Gérard out too, or the clan might decide to spare his life since he’s an Alpha and kill me.

Me, where will I stand, and what will become of my life? Everyone will turn away from me, call and insult me in such a disgusting manner, and throw stones at me.

Speak up, Oceana, I scolded myself, took a step towards the pavement, and stepped back. My eyes welled up once more. What was wrong with me? And couldn’t I just simply do it? It’s simple, right?

Do it.

I should open my mouth and speak up to them, order the guards to hit the damn bell, and talk to the people, but why can’t I do that? What was keeping me from speaking what I planned to speak out of my mind?

What was going on with me? What happened to me being so confident and having this zeal of being able to take on anything in the world? Why was I hesitating?

Why was my heart beating so fast, like it was about to pump out of my chest any moment from now? I was panting and slowly, slowly getting out of breath?

Why did saying those words finally become so terrifying?

“What’s wrong with you, Oceana?”

I could sense the mockery in his tone and wished the ground would just open up and swallow me up.

“What happened to the assured princess of the realms? Everyone looks up to you, everyone adores you, and also looks up to you as their role model. You worked so hard to be where you are right now; don’t ruin it because of me. You were sure of yourself wanting to be my mate earlier. What’s stopping you, Princess of the ten realms and the Mackenzie Clan?” He laughed.

I shut my eyes, spilling down tears.

“I thought you were chasing me to accept you. You were so eager to claim me, but you failed to think of the consequences it was going to cause. Are you scared of telling them, then why do you want me? Why do you yearn for your fucking brother?”

“Stop repeating that word.” I yelled fearfully and fixed a look of hostility at him. “And stop mocking me.”

“Why?’ He came closer to me. “Are you disgusted, afraid to face reality, facing the harsh truth of life, and you keep saying you love me?”

“Of course, I love you.” I defended myself as I shouted.

“No, you don’t.’ He flatly stated, “You are only saying this because the bond moves you.”

I shook my head. “No.” I disagreed.

“If Carmine were to come here and tell you he was your mate as well, would you love him?”

What kind of question was that?

“I don’t look at Carmine the way I look at you. I’ve always loved you since I was a child. I just never realised it until you said I was your mate. That’s why all those years I couldn’t forget about you, you were all I ever thought of. I finally realised that I have been in love with you this whole time. The love I have for Carmine is that of a brother, but with you it is so difficult and different.”

“I don’t care about those words you just spilled out of your mouth. What I’m more concerned about is for you to tell the world about who your mate is.”

“Your reputation will be damaged.’ I reminded him.

He shrugged his shoulders. “And so.’

“You will suffer so much, Gerard. They will never let us be together.” I cried out.

“Do you think I care about all that? If I actually gave a fuck, I wouldn’t bring this up, would I?”

“Gerard, don’t do this. Let’s settle this in another way.” I suggested with a strained voice.

“No, I disagree. We are going to do this my way. Let’s put an end to this now.”