Chapter 53: Chapter 53

She dropped her lipstick on the table and stared at me. “Did I say anything wrong?”

“She is my best friend; you don’t have to talk about her that way.”

“I said nothing wrong. I just want you to be careful. I know she is your best friend.”

I scoffed and folded my arms across my breasts as I interrupted. “You should also be careful about Aaron. I know he is your boyfriend. I’m not saying you stop seeing him; I just want you to be careful. But I’m just giving you a little bit of advice, big sister. The rumours I’ve been hearing for the past few weeks are not pleasant, and you know exactly what I mean.” I repeated her advice.

“You don’t have to give me that attitude,” she said playfully. “I’m just concerned about my sister.”

“Well, I don’t need your advice; the ones we’ve been giving you. You never acted on any of them. So, don’t expect me to listen to you as well.’

“Stop playing with that attitude with me. I know where you are driving at, Jessie.”

“I’m not portraying an attitude; you started it.” I reasoned.

“Ok, fine.’ she rolled her eyes again. “I care about you.”

“I also care about you too, but you never listen to me, so stop interfering in my affairs, big sister.”

She laughed.

I left my room because I don’t want to start an argument, which will eventually lead to a quarrel.

She is so stubborn and hardly agrees with anyone or takes that person so seriously.

I came out of my room in my dark green gown, my hair turned into a ponytail, and I was walking barefoot.

I shut the door behind me; I went towards Oceana’s room, but she wasn’t in there, so I went to see if she was in the garden.

I strolled by, yawning and absentmindedly, and bumped into Adolph.

“Hey, watch your step,” he said and darted up at me. I didn’t know what to say to him, so I just left, walking past him with a shrug.

“Sorry.’ I uttered, rubbing my forehead with both of my hands.

I was tired.

I guess it was due to me not having enough sleep last night because I was so worried about someone, my best friend, who is hell-bent on ruining her reputation because she found her mate, whom everyone considered her brother.

I wonder if I were in her shoes and Carmine was my brother. Will I take the same decision she took?

I think I will do it. I would want to get Carmine back and make him claim me and bond with me; he is my mate after all, so I’m getting him as my Alpha.

On second thought, I’m going to be thinking of the consequences, what sort of position my parents will be in, and what will become of my future if I get involved with Carmine.

In Oceana’s situation, she isn’t thinking about the consequences; she just wants to be with Gerard and bond with him and doesn’t give a damn about what will happen to her.

I think the reason she is doing this is because of how she grew up with no one by her side.

When I say no one, I mean her brothers. She has always relied on them so much since she was a baby, and growing up without them took a toll on her shoulders, even though I was always by her side. I know she considers me her sister and her best friend, which makes me very important to her, but I think she loves her brother the most, more than me, which makes me jealous.

Sometimes I feel as if I am invisible when it concerns her brothers—someone irrelevant.

I shouldn’t feel that way, but that’s just how I feel, and it breaks my heart.

I get lonely and need a companion and a friend by my side. She is there for me, but her brothers are always on her mind most of the time, and she would do anything to be with them, even as far as sacrificing the world for them.

That’s how much and how scary she loves them, and I know they probably feel the same way towards her.

I feel desolate when I’m with them, making me a third wheel that even if I left, they wouldn’t even notice.

I’m not holding grudges or anything like that, but it’s just how I feel, and I wish she would give me as much attention as she gives to her brothers, too.

Anything she ever does in her life is because of her brothers; there is nothing she doesn’t do for them. Even my stuff isn’t any of her concern if it doesn’t involve her brothers in it.

I’m her best friend, right? I don’t feel like it, but I feel like she comes to me whenever I’m needed. Like I said earlier, I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way, but this is just how I feel right now.

Even Carmine doesn’t know about my feelings for him, which is kind of awful.

I could recall how she will always dream of being with them for the rest of her life.

When they left her, I knew exactly what happened and the real reason her brothers left, and it was because of Oceana.

She caught Gerard masturbating in his room, and on that day, their parents quarreled nonstop and sent them away.

But I couldn’t figure out if it was because of what Oceana saw that made her parents to have a huge quarrel with Gerard and Carmine on to leave the clan or something else.

I thought they would be back, but I was wrong, and Oceana never told me the truth or the reason they left, but I knew the truth.

As a kid, I was quite a curious kid that loved to search and play around in every nook and corner.

I had the feeling that there was this forbidden love that wasn’t supposed to happen.

On a fateful day, I caught Gerard in his bathroom; he was about fifteen years old back then, banging a slut, having a threesome, and keeping moaning Oceana’s name.

I felt disgusted, but I told no one what I saw, and kept it a secret for the rest of my life.

No one will ever know about this.

I planned to tell Oceana, but I kept quiet because Oceana wouldn’t believe me, and she would go report me to Gerard, who would then scold me for invading his privacy and probably punish me according to the realm’s rules.

I don’t want such a thing to happen to me.

I was quite young, and spelling out those words would attract severe punishment to me, so I kept quiet and kept trying to act normal around them.

I couldn’t even tell my family because they wouldn’t even believe me.

Oceana was my best friend.