Chapter 49: Chapter 49

It is quite a struggle to grow up with your mate and you can’t kiss, hug, and tell her who you are all because you are terrified of endangering her life.

I can understand how he felt about it and how he wants her to have a normal life with her. I knew him so well.

I know as a brother, I’m supposed to be disgusted, but I’m not.

It's pretty weird for an Alpha like me but I don't give a fuck.

I would like them to be together. I know I’m weird, but that’s the truth.

We can’t control our feelings for who we want to love. The heart wants what it wants and we can’t stop that, and the only thing we can do is stop the wolves from annihilating us.

I’m in love with someone, I’m also in the same shoes as Gérard but I can’t stop my feelings for that person who makes my heart race and makes me feel whole.

If father finds out who my mate is, the realms will go to war and cause blood to shed and I will be the cause everything. I don’t want that to happen. Can’t this place just be at peace for once? Must there be some sort of conflict?

I sometimes ask myself why I came back to this pack, I should have just stayed where I was and enjoyed the best moment of my life with my mate, instead of coming to this boring clan with so many rules and regulations always reminding me I am the prince of the realms.

I felt my phone ring and, looking at the caller ID, my heart skipped a beat. I knew who it was, and a smile appeared on my face as I answered the phone.

“Hello love,” I said as soon as I answered the call for a couple of minutes and began touching my crotch, hearing this voice was getting me turned on.

I wish I was there to fuck the hell out of that ass as long as I want.

“Yeah, I also missed you so much.’ I moaned and fell to the bed, imagining my next move of action.

Jessie’s Pov.

“What is bothering you, little sister?’ My elder sister, Jane, came up to me, sat down on the floor as we both continued arranging our clothes and separating the ones from the old ones we weren’t using anymore so we could give them to the needy.

She was sure they would love them since they were so beautiful.

“Umm, it’s nothing, I’m good.” I continued arranging the clothes inside the box.

“Is it because of Carmine?” She revealed with a smile.

“What!” I laughed. “Hell no.” I disagreed.

“You can’t lie to me. He’s been your first love since you were a child and you’ve always said you must get married to him.

“Jane, that was in the past. We are talking about eight years ago,”

“But your mood changed when you discovered his father said he had a mate, your glass of water fell to the ground in shock and when you went to your room, I saw the tears in your eyes and that’s when I knew you still loved him.” She sweetly explained with a smile.

I forced out a smile and shook my head. “Can we forget about that now?’ I was glad no one noticed how my glass cup broke and was all focused on Carmine.

“Why don’t you tell him how you feel?’

I rolled my eyes at her. “Stop teasing me, sister, you and I both know I’m still underage, who is going to take a kid like me so seriously and besides he has a mate and doesn’t care about me but only sees me as Oceana’s sister and a best friend, what gives anyway?’

Jane laughed at me. “You don’t need to tell him your feelings, you could give him the body language, signs, they are other stuffs to try out, you don’t need to be all over him, trust me, you are not gonna regret ever trying with him, you could do it, I know you can.’

“Jane.’ I called solemnly, and she smiled for a while and cleared her throat.

“I’m just joking. Don’t mind your stupid sister, but to be honest, you’ve got to tell him how you feel. So, one day when you become an adult, you won’t have any regrets. At least you will know you did your best and maybe by then, you could find someone else and fall in love, you never know, life is nothing but a mystery, we can never tell the future, it’s not for us to see, that’s why we do our best to live every day and not have regrets as well.”

I knew Jane was trying to help me out, but this is not going to work.

If Oceana finds out I confessed to her brother, everything is going to collapse and we are going to have a big issue concerning this.

Oceana is overprotective and will have my head if she discovers I am in love with her brother.

This has been my secret for the past eight years and only my sister knew my secret.

I began falling in love with Carmine as soon as I turned eight; I thought it was just a feeling but as I grew up, those feelings refused to go away from me, they just kept increasing day by day, and that’s when I realised.

I was in love with an Alpha, Carmine Daciana and I kept this from him, knowing it would never come true and maybe when I make an encounter with my mate, my feelings could go away and as if it never happened.

I don’t wish for him to know my feelings.

It will be a disaster if he does and I will feel uncomfortable or rather restless for the rest of my life if he ever knows my feelings for him.

“Hmm…” I replied. “I will see what I can do about it.’ I murmured and went on arranging the clothes inside the brown bag.

“And one day, you will find your true love.’ she came up to me and hugged, I felt a second hand embarrassment and shifted away from her.

“Awwn, don’t be shy, I’m your sister.’ she laughed.

“I don’t care if you are my sister. I wanna stop talking about it.’ I rolled my eyes playfully and she just hit me on the shoulder and changed the subject.

“Do you have any idea why Oceana misbehaves strangely these days?”

I paused and looked at her with curiosity, wondering why she was asking me such a question.

“Umm…I don’t know what you are talking about?’