Chapter 12: Chapter 12

“That was a long time ago. Why will you even bring that up? By the way, you shouldn’t have snapped at her like that. You didn’t mean it, but it changed and triggered something in her.”

“I did the right thing or else, only the moon goddess knew the next thing she would have done on that day.” He reasoned.

I could clearly remember that day, eight years ago, after rescuing her from the principal and bullies in school, she changed something in me.

Man, I deserve to be whipped and have my dick cut off.

I’m so pissed as fuck and wished I could wipe off my memory of that day.

On that day it happened, I had to let go of those hormones.

My fear stemmed from my concern about my wolf taking over me and my pheromones.

So, I excused myself and went to my room.

It was too dangerous staying by her side or else. I would have done something I would have regretted for the rest of my life.

I couldn’t resist her, her images were in my head, how her little breast could fit in my mouth, how wet her beautiful and clean pussy will be, how smooth her skin was going to be, all this was getting to my head.

Her lips, will it be so soft, will my dick be able to fit inside her? How she was going to scream with her mouth on my dick made me go insane.

I couldn’t hold it in much longer. I had to burst it out and let go of it. I took off my clothes and began stroking my dick after rubbing a negligible amount of oil and imagining it in her pussy, not knowing she was watching me. I was so into my rut, wishing I was between her legs and didn’t even notice her presence on that day, it felt so wonderful.

Amazing and magnificent, I told myself that I would claim her over a thousand times. It seems like my dreams will never come to pass, because that would put her in some trouble.

To this day, I don’t know if she remembers what happened and I’ve been avoiding her even since, too ashamed to call her.

I don’t even know what she will think of me after so many years.

Whenever I see her in the photos, the coach which trains her sends to me privately.

I instantly get turned on by her sweaty toned curvy body and masturbate all night dripping with sweat, yearning for her, everything concerning her.

She was so damn beautiful. She was gorgeous and has grown into a more attractive woman and appeared more cute too.

She was a fucking goddess.

I know I sound like a pervert, like a psycho, but I’m a man, an Alpha, a wolf who desperately craves for his mate but can’t get her because it could affect the clan and our lives.

She is not some stranger, but my family.

And I’m also not some stalker either, maybe I am, but I just feel bothered whenever I don’t hear from the coach about her and decide to call my parents indirectly asking about her.

Instead of me calling her, I end up dropping the phone down on my bed, staring at her number.

I know she dotes on me a lot. I was her big brother, but what should I say after abandoning her and not hearing from her, either?

I just feel ashamed and incapable even though I’m an Alpha.

She is my first love, my mate. I want to claim her so badly. I am in love with my sister and I can’t endure it anymore. I can’t keep seeing her as my sister. I am tired of pretending.

That’s why I need to let her go. The realms will never accept the likes of us.

For it is a taboo.

I need to search for someone to love and vent, that way I can stay sane. Oceana and I can never be together. What if she discovers my feelings for her? Wouldn’t she find it gross to even look at me in the face?

I love her so much my heart bleeds. That’s why I need to let her go.

“Still, you hurt her feelings.’ I smiled.

“I felt bad too, but they were not my motives. I shouldn’t have insulted her, but I had no choice. I didn’t want our parents to know what had happened. I know she is your mate, but we have to stop this and…and…”

“And what?” I pretended to laugh. I knew what he wanted to say.

“I hope you will accept her, Gerard.” He shrugged and continued eating from his plate. “She loves you.”

“Not romantically. She still sees me as an elder brother. Big brother.”

“But the bond between you two is strong.”

“What do you mean?’

“I know you still check after her all these years, bro. I know what I’m freaking saying. No big deal.”

“I don’t care if you know what you are saying, but I’m forgetting all this and putting them behind me. It’s all in the past. I’m in love with someone else now and that’s Emily.” I made a point.

“But…”

Out of nowhere, we got interrupted.

“Hey, Gérard.” I smiled, turning my head toward the voice. It was Emily, and she excitedly ran to me.

I got up from the chair as she hugged me so tight and kissed me passionately on my lips.

“I’ve missed you so much, sweetheart.” She sweetly uttered and kissed me once again. I loved it. I was getting hard down there, circling my hands all over her body, squeezing her ass.

Damn, she looked pretty.

“Hey! Hey, we are in a public place.’ Carmine whispered.

I recalled myself and pulled myself away from her. “You look beautiful today.’ I whispered seductively.

“Thank you, baby.” She gave me a light kiss on my cheek. “I need to use the bathroom. I will be back.” She quickly excused me and dazzled me with her ass.

“She is nearly similar to Oceana.” Carmine blurted out.

“Yeah, wait, what?’ My eyes widened at his realisation.

“Huh, bro, don’t think I’m so stupid.’ He scoffed. “Of course, she is like Oceana, just fix the eyes, she gets her skin a bit toned, add a little skin of hips at each side, come on, and add a few similarities, anyone could mistake her for Oceana and even call her a twin. Is she the woman you want to get married to?”

I couldn’t answer that question. “You’ve seen Oceana already?’ I thought he hadn’t contacted her yet.

Instead of answering my question, he said. “You know what, I’m not so mindless like you or those friends you keep around you, buddy.”

“Carmine, stop,” I uttered.