Chapter 106: Chapter 106

Ian's POV

"Two bottles of whiskey, please!" I yelled as I finished drinking a bottle of whiskey. I don't even know why, but I feel really thirsty.

I went straight to a bar right after I said goodbye to Winter. I already told her I have decided to go to Japan and tomorrow would be my flight. She got so sad when I told her that and she even cried so hard I couldn't help but feel sorry for her.

I've thought of it very carefully. The reason why I decided not to talk to her for a few days is none other than to move on from her. I tried my best not to talk to her, but in the end, I caught myself looking at her from afar, watching her being so happy with the man she loves. Yes, I also went to that interview since that was what I promised her.

Move on from her? Is that even possible? For sure I'll just live in hell in Japan while longing so much for her.

"Here's your two bottles of whiskey, Sir."

I immediately drunk straight from the bottle as soon as the bartender put the bottles on the counter.

Seeing her eyes full of tears a while ago, it makes me want to take back what I told her. She just don't know how much I love her that I can cancel my flight is she asks me to. If she only knows I'm willing to foolishly wait for her even until our next life.

"I was the one who loved you first, but why did you choose that asshole? I can make you happy more than he can... Why can't you just love me back, huh? Why can't you just choose me?"

I just continue drinking while the people around me were busy drinking, yelling and making out with one another.

"One more bottle!" I yelled again.

"O-One more bottle, Sir?"

I looked at the bartender. "Are you deaf? I told you one more bottle! Go give it to me now!"

He immediately took another bottle of whiskey and gave it to me with his shaking hands. Just as I was about to drink directly from it, a hand suddenly stopped me and grabbed the bottle from me instead.

"What the---

"Why do I always see you wherever I go?"

I turned my gaze to that asshole and surprisingly, I saw that school doctor who has a huge crush on Winter's asshole boyfriend.

"You again?"

She sat down on the stool beside mine and poured some of my whiskey in her glass. "Looks like it's fate that keeps on making a way for us to meet every single time."

"Hey, that's my whiskey." I said as I grabbed the bottle again.

"Don't drink all of it. I'll pay half."

"Why don't you just buy your own? I can drink all of it, anyway."

She shook her head and took a sip of her whiskey which is actually mine. "It tastes better when it is shared. It's like sharing problems, right? Besides, we're both broken-hearted. And the people we like like each other. How tragic."

"Why do you even like that asshole? He's not even rich. He's just handsome, but that's it."

"There is so much more than that. He is not just a handsome man. He's smart, understanding, caring, kind-hearted, has great perspective on things, and--

"Ugh! Stop it! I don't want to hear anything about that asshole. Fine, he's a perfect man. But he doesn't love you. And he never will."

She looked at me with furrowed brows. "And how can you say all of that? You don't even know about him or us. He loves me, and he loved me ever since. I was his first love. I was the one he's supposed to love for the rest of his life---

"Until he met Winter." I laughed sarcastically. "Sometimes, the world seems to really be fucking with us. Like, it will make us feel over the moon for a moment, then take that away from us in the end. What's more funny is that sometimes, the result of your hardwork is not what you've always wanted."

"Or maybe we just take it for granted. Each moment, and each chances we could've had. Whenever we're happy with someone and thinks that someone loves us too, we become contented with that. We force ourselves to think that maybe that is enough. That maybe the right time will eventually come when you can finally confess your feelings. Not until everything changes, and then you'll realize you should have done the right thing in the first place. You should have been more honest about your feelings, and not be a fucking coward just because you're thinking you always have the time."

I was just staring at a corner while listening to what she was saying. I've felt every word. And I realized that she was right.

"When Winston left Winter, that's when I had the chance to finally comfort her and be there for her. But instead of doing that, I even pretended I hate her and teased her a lot of times. Although I did all of that so she would notice me, I guess it still didn't work."

"Doesn't it feel like all your life, you've been working on something, but then in the end someone else will take over it? Then all of your efforts will be put into waste."

I didn't notice that tears were already running down her cheeks until I looked at her. "I love him so much, I loved him all my life... I was the one he loved first, I thought that if I make myself better then I'll be more fitted for him. But I was wrong... I wasted too much time when I could've just told him I love him..."

I just stared at her while she kept on crying like a kid. I actually got surprised seeing her like that since I often see her not wearing any emotion on her face or she'll just smile when she sees that man.

"If only I could go back in time, then I would have stopped him to go... I would tell him to wait for me instead because I love him...."

For a moment, I think I saw Winter's face from her. Then, I just caught myself wiping the tears from her eyes, making her gazed at me with her misty eyes.

It was as if everything and everyone around us stopped. Slowly, I moved my face closer and closer to her as she was just staring directly into my eyes.

Before our lips meet each other, I even heard her whisper a name.

"Themis...."