Chapter 45: Chapter 45

Kayden's POV

As always, I had let my burning desire for sxx take over me. Pulling her close to me, while I laid on her lap. I k*ssed her, with my hands romancing her twins, enjoying how soft they felt through her b*a.

Although she was wearing a br*, I could tell that her n*pples were very hard.

She moaned in my mouth and tried to retreat, but we had come too far.

Somehow I managed to stand up from her lap and sit in front of her.

Holding her tiny waist, with my left hand, I used my right hand to caress her face.

"Are you ready for it now?" I whispered to her.

"Please no" she stopped me, but I didn't want to stop.

I wanted to go on with it, I wanted her to be beneath me, screaming my name.

I didn't want her to be begging for mercy like how other girls do. I wanted her to savor the moment, and enjoy every second that passed while I mounted her.

"That's okay" I found myself suppressing my desires for the first time. If any other girl was in her place, then I wouldn't even ask for permission before I would slam my entire rod into her.

"I think I should just leave.'' I stood up, massaging my rod through my trousers, as I went away from her. If I had stayed any second longer, then I don't know what would have happened.

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Heaven's POV

What came over me? Why did I do all that?. And why didn't he f*ck me?, was it because I rejected him.

From everything I have heard about him, he doesn't ask for permission before he does anything, he just goes ahead and does it, not minding who is affected in the process.

Why do I feel bad after rejecting him? I am so confused, I'm so lost. What is wrong with me? It has barely been a month, and I am already acting this way around him.

Will it be possible for me to stay here for two whole years, without anything happening between us?

My phone just wouldn't stop ringing, whoever it is should just leave me alone.

I am not in the mood to talk to anyone. I'm just too annoyed.

I picked it up, not looking at the name thing that flashed on the screen, then I threw it in the bed.

" Hello" I got annoyed and picked the call, shouting at whoever was at the end of the line.

"Good evening my love, you seem to have forgotten me, just because I traveled to Australia?" I heard a familiar voice, so familiar that I can never forget?

"Jason!!" I jumped with excitement. I just couldn't believe it, after so many months of waiting, he finally returned my calls.

"Yes baby girl. It's me and I have missed you so much. Can we meet?" He asked over the phone and my joy was flushed away.

Meet? I can't even walk around the castle, without the guards following me, and Kayden banned me from leaving the castle, so how was I going to meet him? It's going to be very difficult if not impossible.

"You haven't said anything? Why are you so silent?" Jason asked me.

"Uhrm..no…nothing. I would love to meet you. When would we meet?" I answered him with my sweaty palms.

"Tomorrow night seems okay. Are you going to be free?" He asked me and I foolishly nodded my head, forgetting that we were talking over the phone.

"Heaven, say something" he spoke softly.

"Of course, I can't wait to meet you again. I still love you so very much" I said, and he ended the call with that, without even saying anything else, or waiting to hear what I would say next

"Wait? He didn't tell me where we were going to meet" I thought and realized that I had spoken too soon, when I saw the text he sent.

How was I going to leave this place tomorrow night?.

Finally, my true love returned for me and I won't be able to go out because of my contracted husband.

Jason must never get to find out that I am married. He will never find it in his heart to forgive me?

There must be a way… I am sure of it. I can't let this opportunity go by just like that.

I have to go to bed now, my eyes feel very weak.

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Kayden laid on the bed with his head facing the ceiling.

The whistling sound of the wind, and the curtains floating in the air, reminded him of his past, he had been trying so much to forget. That same past that made him a heartless demon.

It wasn't the entire reason but it was a major contribution to his loveless life.

The soft wind brushed against his skin, making the hairs he had on his skin stand. He closed his eyes slowly and then opened them again, looking at the empty bed.

The other end that was supposed to be filled with his wife, but since he couldn't control himself, he had made her sleep in one of the guest rooms.

It wasn't a new thing but for the first time in so many years, he felt empty.

He felt like he had no one, he could have just grabbed a maid and f*cked her till his heart content, but he knew that would not be the solution to his problem.

It would not be able to fill the void in his heart. Why did Heaven have to remind him of what love felt like? Why did she have to plant that seed that will never grow.

Kayden held onto his bed sheet and grinded his teeth, with his fingers digging into the duvet.

He found it difficult to breathe, he closed his eyes trying to hold back his pain but he couldn't.

His heart was aching and bleeding but he had no one to call, nobody to be there for him. There was nobody he could call his own.

The memories he had struggled so much to wipe away, slowly returned to him. He had no other choice than to remember what he had once forgotten.

It was quite a struggle, but he managed to take a deep breath so the memories could come to him again.