Chapter 54: Chapter 54

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With a somber and frustrating face that makes her feel very dizzy. Helena walked into the hospital canteen with her head down. Helena buys a cold drink and when she turns around trying to find a chair to sit in, it surprise her to see Alex sitting alone at the corner table.

Alex was seen brooding with his sultry stare as he gazed at a box of roses on his desk. Helena doesn’t want to go near Alex because she doesn’t want to hear any more harsh words from Alex that will add to the hurt he received today. She's been extremely frustrated with thinking about Natty, and she doesn’t want to add to it by hearing insults from Alex. But Alex looks very frustrated and it upsets Helena just by looking at him.

Helena couldn’t help herself. She sighs deeply preparing to receive another insult from Alex. Putting on a tough face Helena sat in front of Alex and drank her cold drink. Helena tries to act indifferent, as if she can’t see Alex staring at her.

“ What are you doing here? You’re a stalker, how do you know I’m here? Do you keep following me?” asked Alex with a cruel stare and an annoyed tone.

“ I understand why you can think like that, but right now I’m dizzy thinking about something else. I don’t have time to listen and insult you, so just leave me alone. Let’s just say I’m not here...” Helena said.

Alex doesn’t like it when Helena talks like that. Helena, who was disrespectful and commanding, made Alex feel like he was losing his self-confidence. But what Helena says is still true, and he's also not in a good mood to go through Helena and waste his time talking to Helena.

They sat face to face, but neither spoke nor glanced at each other. They are busy with their affairs and treat each other as if they were invisible. Helena is busy thinking about how to make up with Natty while it immerses Alex in his world. Helena didn’t want to say anything at first but saw Alex so staring at a bouquet of reds on the table, though perhaps she already knew the answer.

“Why are you so sad to stare at those roses? Who is that from or for whom?” asked Helena, showing a very curious face.

“Weren’t you the one who said you didn’t want to be disturbed, why are you bothering me now?” said Alex ketus, sitting upright with his arms crossed while staring at Helena with his piercing cold stare.

“ I’m sorry, I’m just curious. So, who’s the flower for? Your mother? Your sister? Or is there someone you know being cared for here?” replied Helena with her fiery eyes, eager for answers to her questions.

“It’s none of your business...” replied Alex.

Alex is feeling uncomfortable. Alex is a man who is not good at stringing words to express his feelings. He’s also not excellent at hanging out and for him being closed to other people, talking to other people are a hassle. And right now he's very uncomfortable because Helena keeps asking her questions.

Alex can’t handle Helena always asking questions and being curious about things she should never have asked. Since he can’t say anything to answer Helena’s curiosity, Alex prefers to leave. He was ready to leave but Helena said something that held his back.

“Fine, fine... Don’t be such a kid and go that way. Hey, can I get some advice? I know we’re not that close to asking for advice, but just this one time can you be my friend and give me advice?” said Helena, who sounded very sincere.

That was the first time Helena sounded so sincere. Alex stood up for a moment and sat back in his chair. Alex doesn't really like Helena very much but even he probably hates her. Everyone at school knows it, they know how selfish Helena is and only thinks about herself. It's also what makes Alex hate Helena because she can see a little bit of himself through Helena. But this time the selfish girl sounded so sincere that Alex couldn't leave her.

"How do I make up with friends? I've made a few mistakes or even it's a very big, unforgivable mistake. How am I going to make up with my friend?" asked Helena.

“ You can only wait until she opens her heart again and is ready to forgive. But you can make a few small efforts to get your friend to open her heart as soon as possible. But you have to do it at the right time because a disappointment takes time to recover." Said Alex, and Helena nod her heads in a sign of understanding

"Now can I ask for advice too? If we like someone but that person seems to like someone else, what should I do? Did I just give up but I really couldn't let go." Alex said in a sultry tone while glancing at the bouquet of roses he was carrying but could not yet give.

Hearing Alex ask about the issue of romance to her makes Helena smile bitterly. It's funny but also ironic, she didn't think Alex would be able to ask very quietly even though he'd known Helena liked him for a long time. But Helena also knows that that's how Alex is, he can never think of other people's feelings. It was so ironic that her lips were wide lifted while her eyes trembled and felt sore.

“ You're not wrong to ask me all that? You also know how I feel about you, don't you think I should just give up chasing you?" said Helena, who asked with a bitter smile.

“ I can't say anything other than just give up. In this world, there are some things we can't achieve and there are some things that will never change." Alex said with the cold and it made Helena's smile even wider.

"Isn't that also the answer for you? Right now we're on the same page. You and I, our fate is the same." Helena said, turning Alex's words to himself.

“ But I could have been different. She may not like that man very much and someday maybe she’ll be able to turn around and like me too. Obviously, I can’t give up here.” Alex said.

Helena smiled broadly again. She started seeing it all as a joke. Even behind that smile she was feeling very tormented. She was very frustrated at how she and Alex were so similar. They’re both in love with someone who already has a name in their heart. Helena starts laughing, she’s laughing at the fate that’s playing her. It’s ironic considering how love keeps them inside the game’s circle of destiny.

“In the end questions like this cannot be asked to others because we created the answer ourselves. Isn’t it funny how we stand inside this love game circle? I love you and you love someone who also has someone else in her heart. We can’t give up either. What a funny and ironic love game.” Helena said.

Helena immediately leaves Alex with an answer for both. Alex fell silent, and he began to realize what Helena was trying to say. Their current position is the same in the circle of destiny or perhaps it’s a way of making him see and understand things he’s never thought of.

All this time Helena kept chasing him and Alex always treated her like a mentally disturbed stalker. He used to insult Helena and treat her badly but Helena kept coming back after him tirelessly as if all the things he had done were pointless. He even considers Helena to be the dumbest girl in the world.

But this time fate has put himself in Helena’s position. He realizes how tormented it is to like someone who has liked someone else. Even when the answer is obvious, he often sees how Ruby made out with Ricky like today when he saw a big smiling Ruby get into Ricky’s car. Even when he has been injured several times like that, he still can’t give up.

Even when his common sense told him to stop getting hurt again. But Alex still couldn’t stop his heart from loving Ruby. She desperately needs Ruby and wants to always see her face. Even after all the suffering he felt, he still couldn’t stop his heart from falling in love with Ruby. Now Alex just understands what it’s like when his common sense can no longer control himself. Now his heart has completely set on him so that he can no longer retreat. Love and only because of love.