Chapter 51: Chapter 51

-49-Her first initiative of a kiss.

"Love for me is all about attachment and standing for her when she couldn't do it for herself."[Christian].

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Amidst the silence, their breath mingled. First few minutes they just looked at each other without saying anything.

She noticed her body rubbing against his just like how shoes rub against the floor. Despite their awkward position she looked down at him. Remembering last night he was wearing something else when he left home. However, now he was wearing a pair of denim blue jeans and a decent black t-shirt. He moved his arms which resulted in showcasing his biceps. She didn't know if it was intentional or not. But she seemed to gulp as he flexed his muscles again. 'It's pure torture. Ah.'

'You are lusting over him, Riley Brown.'

'No, I am not.'

'Yes, you are.'

'I bet you want to feel those muscles of him.'

His hot body made her gulp again as she tried to move only to find his t-shirt rode up to his upper abdomen. And his bare skin made contact with hers. She took a deep breath to calm her nerves.

Christian sensed her struggle and he smiled, realizing he can affect her. In ways, she wasn't aware of. It made him feel ecstatic. Her beautiful black hair was falling all over him and he unexpectedly had the urge to fist her hair in his and kiss her. Her beautiful eyes were filled with desire and he felt it impossible to control himself. Her pink lips were set in a pout and he mentally smiled seeing her reaction as if she was anticipating a kiss without even knowing.

But then he remembered what happened earlier and his lips thinned. The light in his eyes dimmed. And he cleared his throat to get her attention.

It was a little awkward for both of them. So Riley tried to stand up. Only to fail as her leg entangled with the mat and she grunted. Earning a grunt from Christian too as she fell back on him. Taking him by surprise as his eyes darkened in desire and she felt something poking her stomach. Her upper trickled in and warmth from his body began burning her skin. Her heart started beating like a drum and a strange sense of desire took over her as she tried to close the distance between them without knowing. As if in a daze.

She placed a kiss on the corner of his lips. Making him tremble. The breeze hit him to his melting point and he felt lighter and less angry than before. His heart filled with a strange sense of satisfaction as he tightened his hold upon her. With her hands pressing against his head on each side they stayed in the same posture eyes at the same level. Unblinking.

Her cheeks blushed red at the intensity of his gaze when she felt his hold tightening breaking her daze. and she realized what she just did.

" I am."

She tried to say something. Something that would make the situation less embarrassing. But he silenced her placing a finger on her lips. His eyes darkening in a mixture of anger and desire.

"Don't you dare say sorry!"

Christian just hit the nail on the head. She almost felt like he decoded her. Intertwining his fingers around her she said coming closer.

"Don't say anything. If you are going to say sorry."

Riley nodded stupidly without realizing he had already removed his finger from her lips. She knew she did a mistake and didn't know how to undo it. But she also knew it was wrong of her to apologize to him after kissing him.

His satisfaction changed into disappointment as she tried to apologize for something she shouldn't have. She messed it up. 'Perhaps I shut her sorry before it can pierce my heart.'

'So you simplify it. Untangle yourself from these lies Christian. And tell her the truth. Do you realize you will probably lose her if the truth came out in front of her? Have you ever wondered what will she do the day she will come to know about the truth?'

'I will never let her know.'

'You think, you can pretend all your life; to her Christian. She is someone you want to get old with. You will have to tell her the truth one day. You can't escape from it.'

The voices in his head irritated him to the next level and he felt a sudden urge to break everything he could find.

He so badly wanted to force the woman in his arms and make her his. But her kindness stopped him. 'She doesn't deserve that Christian. She does not deserve your cruelty. She deserves to be treated like the queen she is! She deserves to know the truth.'

Seeing his frowned eyebrows, Riley understood he was angry. So ever so slowly she detached herself from him and fell over to his side by a thud.

She crawled by his side and reached up to the bed sighing in relief. As if he was going to eat her. 'No probably you were going to eat him alive.' Her subconscious's voice mocked her. And she scoffed at herself. As if it was possible. 'Can't you see our strength difference? It's impossible.'

'But what if he wants to be devoured by you.'

'You! Shut up! Don't mess with my head.'

'But I am the voice of your head.'

'Ah stop it. I am already anxious.'

'Okay fine. Be that way.'

For some reason, Riley saw him just lying there without saying anything. She waited for him to say something but when he didn't. She broke the silence.

"Mindy, are you alright? What's wrong? Why are you lying there on the ground?"

As if he just remembered he was lying on the floor. He stood up and dusted the unseen dust from his clothes. And she noticed his relaxed body posture as he made it seem like, a model was doing something too sexy. She wasn't able to remove her eyes from his form. His charming charisma captivated her senses. As if he was a picture of the handsome word.

Though he did raise his eyes several times and noticed her stare. But she couldn't bring herself to remove her eyes off his form. 'Of course, she knew Staring was rude. But she wasn't able to control herself.

"Where were you last night?" Creating a fake bravado she asked the question that was bugging her since last night.

To which he raised a brow. Looking at her like she asked something that he had not expected her to ask.