Chapter 62: Chapter 62

: Insecurity

"Ahem"

He coughs and I pretend not to know, turning towards the door and finding him with his hand in his jean pocket.

He walks toward me and Alera suddenly growl a little at his presence.

The more he came closer the more Alera hiss through our link at him, not until our hands brush together and he caresses my brother's cheek with admiration.

Alera relaxed a little bit due to the contact we had and I was lost at how she's acting like this to him. It got me wondering again if anything bad had happened between my mate and me before losing my memory.

"Why are you here?" I ask him.

"Your dad sends me over to see if you guys have eaten" I look at him dumbfounded

"What?"

"Are you sure you're the Alpha and not my dad's errands boy?"

"Ouch" he fake hurt.

I laugh a little "seriously, it sounded like that way to me" he let out his arms.

"Come on, he's my father in law” I giggle in hearing that. “Don't be too sure of yourself Alpha" I slap him on the arm playful.

I don't know where all this confidence came from because what I remember no wolf boy or any mundane was this close to me besides it's like I haven't been avoiding him.

He took Wesley from my arms "I'll watch over him and you go change"

"Where are we going?"

"Out to eat"

I groan thinking that I need to get out of this house I mean two weeks seems forever to be here.

I walk away from him pulling my clothes from the closet to change into the bathroom after showering.

Once I'm done with the shower and drying up myself I put on the essential cloth that ladies must not forget to wear.

Then I changed into skinny jeans and a crop top before putting on my denim jacket over it. I chose a pair of white converse to go with my outfit then pulls up my black hair in a messy bun.

I take a look in the room and went back outside finding Matteo already gone from my room.

I skip down the living room and find it empty, even in the kitchen. My brother's milk bottle that I left in the refrigerator was also gone.

"Peep" his car horn pulls me out of there and the house.

Once in the car, I saw my baby brother at the back in his baby booster seat. Already being changed and in fresh clothes.

"I didn't know you were this well prepared" he saw my eyes fixed on my brother in his seat.

"What can I say, an Alpha's gotta prepare for his football team" he winks at me and I roll my eyes at him.

We made it to a restaurant and order our food with baby Wesley beside me.

We were talking on random topics when someone taps her heel beside me. I turn to find a female with her arms crossed on her chest. She seems familiar but I couldn't remember when I have seen her.

Matteo's look at her unpleasantly got me wondering if I'm missing something here.

"I'm sorry do I know you?"

She scowls "I'm Quinn"

"Ummm should I be happy to see you," I said with uninterest earning a scowl from her.

Matteo's fist clench on the table he doesn't know that I can see his dislike towards this girl.

"Quinn I want you to leave us alone," he said with stern and hoarse.

She pouts like a child before stomping her way out.

"Are you okay?" I ask after she's gone and he just nods in return.

We became silent and I turn my attention back to my brother while waiting for our food.

I'm surprised to see my brother playing with his pacifier and that was like the 50th one I bought for him. Yeah, about that my brother kinda loves playing with it differently. He would bite it with his sharp teeth and threw it around.

I was glad he didn't swallow it but just bit it into pieces. I know he's not a human maybe that's why he doesn't like the pacifier thing.

When our food arrives Matteo and I were back to talking not about our relationship but some part of his life.

I was interested to know that luna and his younger siblings have moved to his cousin's pack while his father is gone nowhere.

I wanted to ask more but he seems sad and angry whenever we talk of him.

After the restaurant, we then went over to the park until it gets dark and it was time to take back Wesley.

We both put him in his crib when we arrived home and my dad still hasn't shown up. Maybe he's somewhere trying to get rid of his pain.

I walk him back down to the door and right when we were outside Matteo turns back to me. I stood before him biting on my lower lip.

I didn't know what to say except for goodbye and see you when I see you.

Gosh, I am so mean to my mate.

He closes our distance making my heart beat faster and Alera blushing in her way through our link.

Matteo dips his head down, his lips slowly ascending onto mine just an inch, and then we kiss.

Closing my eyes I thought this was it. I'm going to feel how it's like to be kissed by someone, especially by my mate.

I felt his minty breath on my skin along with his toxic scent invading my nostrils.

I could feel him near my lips, so near to kiss me.

I got chicken out "no" I pull right back pushing him not too hard away from me.

I try to calm my heart seeing his hurt expression. I took in a deep breath and nervously held on to his hand.

"Matteo, I'm sorry but I don't want to do it now. I don't want to take it slow or jump right into anything. You know I lost my memories... so I need time" I ended up in a whisper hoping he won't get mad at me.

He surprisingly pulls me in his arms then kisses my forehead.

"I know but please always remember I am always here for you" he pulls away smiling at me before he jogs over to his car.

I close the door after waving him goodbye and went up to my room.

If only he knew how insecure I am with my feelings and emotions right now.

"Cock blocker" Alera shouted to me out of the blue

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I ask

"Look for it on a dictionary or even Google it" she pokes her tongue at me then shuts off our links.

I pick up my brother from his crib laying him next to me.

Tomorrow is my mom's funeral, her final day on this earth.

Am I ready to face it?