Chapter 58: Chapter 58

: Couldn’t Get Better

Matteo's Pov

"She's awake"

Dr. Omalley our pack doctor on duty informs me through our link.

Currently, I'm in a meeting with the Alphas who were here tonight. We have held a meeting after defeating the wolves that turned feral.

Usually, when a wolf turns feral there's only one explanation that they have submitted to their wolves’ dark side and chose to become a beast instead of having their human side.

Them being feral means they won't stop until their targets are killed.

There was only one lead that tonight's attack was initiated by none other than James our sworn enemy. Therefore, we are currently discussing strategies and plan for any other future attacks.

Eric and Dante have offered their best trackers to find James which I appreciate a lot. Aaron has also given support for rebuilding some of our properties that were destroyed tonight along with other Alphas.

"Apologies but this meeting is adjourned. My apologies Alphas but I need to attend to my" I take a deep breath. It's better, to be honest now and I'll talk to Quinn later about my already made-up decision.

"Mate" I finish

Dante gazes up at me "I hope Adassah is well now" everyone around the table furrows their brows in confusion.

"I know I introduce someone else tonight as my mate" the luna gasps in horror while their mate just kept on looking.

"I'll take whatever punishment and all of your criticism next time for neglecting my soul mate but tonight I just need to be there for her, my mate"

Again murmuring erupts around the table.

Dante and Eric were the only Alphas who remain seated with their eyes fixed on me along with their luna.

I glance at Aaron for help who clears his throat and stood up. I quickly excuse myself from the meeting and quicken my step towards the pack hospital. I made it there and only stops when I saw one of the rooms being a wreck.

"What happened here?" a nurse whom I saw earlier when I first carried Adassah here stops, then lowers her head down and responds nervously.

"Alpha your Mate has woken up two hours ago and had destroyed it. Her father was the one who stops her"

"But doctor Omalley just informed me"

"This would be the second time she awakens" she cut me off not rudely but she seems to be in a hurry.

"Then where is she?" I ask

"We have moved her to another room after she went back to sleep."

I dismiss her immediately and I guess seeing me again she's not only gonna destroy the room but also kill me. Indeed, I don't care as I'm willing to take the risk.

I continued to make my way towards her room Omalley told me she was in then stop in front of the door.

I took a deep breath then twist the knop. I open it nervously I step inside closing the door behind me.

Lyndon looks at me with disappointment but then he quickly masks it. He sits there ignoring me while he focuses his attention on his daughter.

I breathe in thinking to myself this is it, Thunder has been encouraging me that everything will be fine, that our mate won’t even recognize anything. I try to ask him what he meant but he shut me off immediately.

Maybe this is a wrong idea, I thought as I try to turn back and go back out of the room.

"Dad" her soft voice made me stop there with the handle in my hand, ready to open it.

I turn back slowly facing her direction.

She is now fully awake with a pillow supporting her back. Hoisting her a little bit up against the metal headboard.

I stood there speechless watching her talk to her dad without noticing me. I took step by step near, then I stop not far away from her bed breathing in nervously.

If only I could crush her in my arms easily. If only we are in a good situation if only we're lovers and mates in love.

All these ifs keep on popping up in my head. I move nearer her and Lyndon again was growling a little in frustration but I didn't care I just want to hold her. I made it right in front of her on the other side.

My hand raises to caress her cheek and as if she just realized my presence her head snaps in my way making my hand stop in midair.

She squints her brows, my hand reaching her cheek and gently I touch her cheek. I am surprised she didn't flinch at my touch or curse at me. At this moment I want to ask if this is just a dream but her words cut me off making me look at Lyndon with a frown.

"You're my mate" she barely whispers with her cheeks now burning pink, she is blushing.

My heart accelerates its beating.

I wonder what's going on and this is now confusing me. I look at Lyndon who lowers his head down then the doctor burst inside the room with a file in his hand. I retracted my hand and turn to the doctor.

"Omalley what's going on with her?" I question him hesitantly through our link

"Alpha" he let out a heavy sigh.

"After she loses conscious two hours ago she woke up and couldn't recognize anything that happened there," he scratches his head eyeing her.

"She has lost some major part of her memories which may include you due to...."

I couldn't hear the rest of his words. I staggered back "it can't be, no this is insane" I mumble while moving back until my back hits the wall.

Is this what Thunder meant I thought to myself and just like that I slid down on the ground. I should have been overjoyed that my mate now lost her memories

'Isn’t this a perfect time for me to act like I was a good mate, that she and I were in love I thought?

Yet this is not what my heart wants. I want her to hate me, curse me and make me feel everything she has gone through because of me.

My tears pour out of my eyes 'how can fate be so cruel to you Adassah.'

First off your mate fuck up your heart because I'm an idiot, a coward, and an ass. Name all those filthy words and curse me, then your mother died and now you" all these thoughts consumed me as I sat there refusing to believe it.

I turn up watching her who looks at me with confusion then slightly a little bit uncomfortable.

"Alpha are you okay?" right now I felt like I wanted to cry out loud in front of her but I know it won't bring back her memories.

Dr. Omalley helps me up and I lean towards him for support while he tries to help me out.

Before we could reach the door her delicate voice stops me again. "You're my mate Alpha" she fiddle with her fingers with her head in low.

"Are you not happy I'm your mate?" she sighs heavily. My heart broke for her, if only she knew I broke her heart already.

I started to cry out "No, in fact, I am" I couldn't finish as I was fucking crying right now.

"I am really happy to be your mate" I sniffle

"Then why are you crying and" she bit her bottom lips lowering her head again.

Fuck this, I rush over and embrace her in my arms. My tears wetted her back as she just sat there.

I was to pull away when I felt two arms hugging me back. We stay in that position for a while before I pull away kissing her forehead.

'I can't do this to her I have to tell her the truth that me her mate was never a good mate to her but before I do that I just needed some air.

"I'll see you later" I stood up to go but I almost trip in which Omalley was fast enough to hold me up.

He helps me out of the room with Adassah's father following behind us.

Once outside of the room I instantly got down on my knees before Lyndon as my pack members and her friends who now halt in their steps and watch over us.

"Please forgive me" I cry out in front of him begging for his forgiveness.

"Alpha" someone came running up at us while I'm still on my knees before Lyndon.

I waited for his next words

"The former Alpha has escaped the cell."

I curse out loud forgetting that I was in the middle of apologizing to Adassah's dad.

Lyndon moves back in the room while I awkwardly stood up and run out of there with eyes following me as I exit the hospital.

I guess this night doesn't get any better for me. I let out a heavy sigh while looking up at the full moon.