Chapter 53: Chapter 53

: Choice

Matteo's Pov

I have been doing a lot of thinking, which causes me restless nights on whether should I do it or not.

In the end, I made a choice and I just hope it is right because to me it seems right.

Tonight I want to move on and start my life with my family. I know it's not with Adassah but I have to take ownership of what happened.

For four years I have been in pain but just now I want to be redeemed. I may not love Quinn anymore but she's carrying my heir.

People may call it a mistake, I do too deep within me but I'll never admit that to anyone because I don't want my child thinking she or he is a mistake.

After all, it wasn't his/her fault that he was to be born in this world.

It happens two months ago when I was still drunk over being heartbroken and almost on the brink of committing suicide when my dad came home and force me to mate Quinn.

I was at the lowest point of my life and I hated that in my most vulnerable state he caught his prey.

I'll never forget the look he gave me and made me feel that night. He made me feel worthless and weak, and I was beyond disgust.

In his Alpha position, he commands me to mate her in front of Lyndon and Mia.

Lyndon could have easily killed him but my dad has all the cards and the upper hand. That's the night I discovered another secret that Adassah's father is a pure hybrid. The ones who are wanted and most hunted by our kinds.

All Alphas are to extinct Lyndon's kinds but my father knew that to have a hybrid he would be able to fight against all odds or any danger near the pack. Indeed, it is the very reason he made him a top warrior.

The night they escape with my mother that's the night they discovered his identity.

My father in his victory grin has told me all about it and so he has brought them over when I refuse to comply with his commands.

I could have reached anyone for help or Luna Shina but my dad knows how to play his cards well at the time. He knew when to warn, threaten and when to strike without anyone noticing.

So that horrible night of my life if I didn't do what he says he would have killed Adassah's parents right there in front of me. Which options were better, me being with Adassah or her parent's death in my hands.

So I did it, I agree to Mate her and as we did, all I think of was Addasah. The one meant for me and when I have my released that night her name was the one I scream.

After that horrible night, I never wanted to see anyone again even my friends. Lyndon tries to reach out for me but I was ashamed, too ashamed to face him and Mia or even with Adassah if she's to come back.

They told me Adassah would understand if I tell the truth when she returns but none of it made me feel better. As my mind already set that I was worthless and she deserved a better mate.

I disappeared from my pack afterward. I know my father has been lying about me on training but the truth was I was gone rogue for a while. I live that life and can make fewer friends and learn almost every single thing about them.

Ever since Alpha Hernandez defeated the rogues’ Alpha months ago. Every rogue was now free and has lived their life peacefully.

Yet there are still some of them who try to invade other pack territories.

The biggest threat on our territory over the years and is still around is my mom's lover and best friend James. He has been seeking revenge on my father and Lyndon. Constantly our borders have been attacked by him but he never succeeds.

Six days ago I came back strong and challenge my father in front of the Pack. I made him feel everything I felt back then when he made me feel worthless.

I want to kill him after I won yet I didn't want his blood to be on my hands. So I lock him in a cell. He tries to announce that Lyndon was a Hybrid but I made it clear to everyone that it was a lie.

Hybrids are hard to be accepted in any pack and they are being hunted to be killed. Lyndon being a pureblood brought danger to his family.

I am relieved that Adassah isn't one as she's a normal werewolf but the baby her mother is carrying is probably a hybrid.

About my father's old beta, gamma and delta I have replaced them immediately.

Those three have been helping my dad create hell in my life by following his commands. I stripped them off from their titles with a warning not to try anything funny or they'll be rogues.

Evan became the Delta replacing his father. He has nothing to do with his father's choices. Shalom became the gamma replacing his uncle who is none other than Quinn's stepfather.

Jay is my substitute beta for the meantime. He did not want to take full responsibility as a beta in my pack.

I look myself over the mirror and thought of my decision. It may have not been easy even though someone I love will hurt the most but I needed this for my unborn child.

I'm not like those men who neglected her/him just because I don’t love her mother. It's my responsibility to be the best father in her life. I hope what I'm doing is right.

Mia and Lyndon have already been granted freedom and tonight maybe be their last night here in my Pack.

They have agreed to take Adassah away from her, once we sit down and I tell her my decision and apologize to her for breaking my promises.

I even ask them to give me another month but I guess I didn't honor my words again as I will be introducing someone else as my luna without them knowing.

I was going to tell them but Jay has informed me that our top warrior is in the hospital. There I didn't want to bother them.

Indeed, I heard Adassah is still in training and I'm sure she won't be here tonight.

"Alpha"

I turn to see Jay leaning against the door "it's time now everyone is here."

I nod my head taking one last look at myself before heading downstairs to make an entrance.