Chapter 103: Chapter 103

When it's time to leave, the kids kiss him on the cheek before running towards the car.

They didn't want to go but Matteo has to persuade them that he's coming over to pick them up after. I turn to walk away when his voice stops me in mid-way.

"Why can't we start over?" he said but I was just standing there not replying or turning back to him.

"Can we start over please?" he repeated himself and I was just too dumb to move my legs.

"Why can’t we do that Adassah?" I felt him behind me with his breath warming my neck then his hands snaking around my waist.

He took a deep breath as if he is sniffing my scent. It has been so long since I could feel his warmth and comforting hands on my skin.

This is something I knew I miss throughout the years, the feeling of him near me.

I might be so happy right now but I have to admit that my heart is not fully free from him.

Our nights and beautiful moments together are memories that I always cherish forever in my heart.

His touching me right now ignites the fire and spurs up those feelings I have never felt for anyone. I may have tried but in the end, it is not what I always want.

I felt his head lay on my shoulder as he shudders then I felt something wet on my bare skin. His tears were slowly dropping on my exposed shoulder

"I want to be in their lives, to start over with them," he said squeezing my waist lightly.

I gasp with moans escaping my lips but I zip my lips together quickly. I was to respond that nothing is holding him back from seeing his sons but his next words twist the key to my heart.

"But I can't start over with them if you're not in it. Please more. I want all of my family together completely," he whispers with his hold tightened around my waist.

He is not hurting me but it is an embrace of someone desperate for another chance. It does sound like someone who needs saving.

I think he needs it as seeing him in such a disheveled state tells it all but I am not sure if I'm the one who he needs.

My eyes started to water, and I tried to not be weak in front of him but I guess 5 years wasn't enough for me.

As my heart still aches for all of him too.

The key that has been locking my heart has slowly twisted and turned until it's completely unlocked.

'Am I being too selfish?' I have always asked that to Alera and myself for all those years.

"I can't Matteo, you know we can't anymore" I took away his hands from my waist and turn to face him which is probably a mistake that I don't think I will regret.

"Adassah, please I let you slip out of my hands five years. Five years we've been apart. Why can't we be together then, please? Let's start over, not just us together but with our kids too," he begs with his eyes filled with tears that were about to fall.

I reach up and caress his face with my hand in which he leans towards my touch. Maybe I am too stupid to do this but I think our kids are now our priority.

We cannot be selfish anymore. "I am happy Matteo, I am," he slowly opens his eyes.

I was taking my time in deciding what I want to do next and I know what I'm going to say to him now determines not just my happiness but also my kids’ happiness.

"But we're not all going to be happy without you too. Then I say we start over Matt," his tears flow from his eyes and I wipe them off.

They said a big person with a bigger heart will not only forgive but forget and move forward and that's exactly what I want.

I may be truly happy right now but there were times I find myself lonely without him cause he gave me happiness when I have no memories of our past.

I took a step backward "but not now Matteo. I just don't need time but I need us to take it slow. Slow is a pace you need to take if I am to start over with you. So can you live through that?"

He held my hands together with tears in his eyes "yes I would love that."

His gloomy face and dark shades that were under his eyes have now long gone and replaced with glow and happiness.

I knew I did the right thing and I guess I always do. I close our distance again and hugged him, patting him on the shoulder as he finally let out another cry.

After a while, we pull away and he wipes off his tears smiling at me.

"You can come tomorrow to take the kids and not forget we need to talk. Not for the past but what happens within the five years, we miss out on each other."

He smiles nodding yes and I walk back to the car bidding him farewell for now.

4 months later

I sat on the grass with my hands running on Matteo's hair while watching our pups play on familiar fields with my grandma and Wesley.

I smiled at the memories of how we got here today as one happy family.

After that day, he and I had a long talk which I was sad to discover the misfortune of Quinn and the death of Jona.

He shares with me all of his nightmares and how his life was since I left. I was sad and felt guilty when I realized on that day that my story was merrier and jolly than his.

Despite that, I never interrupted him as I want to hear all of it. It would be a lie if I say I didn't cry because the truth is we were both in a mess on that day and I couldn’t suppress my emotions.

We didn't care about any barriers or anything else but we just let everything out in the open.

So when he was done and it was my turn I then told him all about my life within those five years.

How I convinced and made everyone dare not to tell him of our sons and how I become the substitute luna of the Owslebury Pack.

And that is how we start over, and then he went to mend things with my grandma and a few other people.

Slowly we began our journey of starting over and here we are now happily in each other’s arms.

Matteo sat up and I lean my head on his shoulder. I saw Gia waving at me with Ed on her side and their son running over to my kids on the field.

Behind them stood Jay who frowns at his Mate talking to another pack member and Evan's mate.

I avert my gaze to the left and saw Lorentz sitting on the grass while the crippled Quinn plays with his hair, smiling at what he is saying.

They both look happy and it's been a month since he returned. It was Matteo and me who went to him and brought him back.

I couldn't stand the sight of her being unhappy even though she has done wrong in the past but she deserves happiness too. She has already apologized and paid for it.

So we're on good terms now and they look as happy as ever like our other pack members around us.

Matthew and Mason run in our way tackling both of us down. We tickle them making them both giggle before escaping from our holds once again and went back to my grandma and Wes.

I look back again and I came to face with his green eyes.

I smile while intertwining our fingers together, knowing that I am not gazing into the eyes of a lying Alpha but in the eyes of my home and happiness.

Bonus Chapter: One More Time

I gather the bedsheets cover into my hands, fisting it tightly with my back arching up while I'm about to reach my ecstasy.

The door flung open and I sat up straight with my legs parting. Luckily the duvet is covering my naked body and the bed surface.

"Mommy, where is daddy?" Mathew and Mason both stood by our bedroom door catching their breath.

"Honey, daddy is going for a run," I told them

'Yeah kids he's running between your mommy's legs,' Alera jokes through our link and I shut her off immediately as now I felt hands gliding over my thighs.

His breath vibrates in me, sending a shiver to my whole body before shuddering me into pieces but held it within biting my lips so hard.

"Baby, would you go wait for mommy downstairs. Let me change first and then we go look for daddy" I bit my lips in the end as the pressure is getting intense again.

"Okay mommy" they both agree

"Lock the door" I call after them in which they did it and right when it's closed and locked.

"Ahhhhhh, yes Matttt" I let out a shuddering scream that I have been holding in.

Thank goodness for the man who invents the idea of these soundproof walls.

The duvet was removed and my chest was moving up and down trying to catch my breath after an intensive orgasm.

I look down between my legs and found Matt smirking at me. He winks wiping off his mouth before grabbing his shirt and pant.

I started to laugh and before we knew it we were both laughing at how our kids walked in on us.

Yet, luckily they didn't see anything as the duvet was big enough to cover us both, and besides, they are too innocent to notice anything intimate.

He looks as if he wanted to go but then suddenly he came back and carried me bridal style in the shower which almost took another two hours.

When we were done, we dry ourselves and put on our clothes before he kissed me on the cheek.

"I love you" I call after him as he climbs out of the window.

"Yeah, yeah, love me enough to make me climb out of the window. I can't believe I'm doing this in my own house," I laugh walking up to him as he is about to jump down.

"Hey, remember what I told the kids earlier," I kiss him on the lips and reminded him, which he pouted in return.

"Now go have that run. I'll be downstairs with the kids" he pecks me on the lips again and jump down blowing kisses in my way as I catch it and put it on my heart.

I watch him as he shifted into his wolf and run into the woods. I swear we're like teenagers sometimes over the year and yes we're all over each other.

So what, we have fallen in love back again once everything has been healed and long forgotten.

I smiled while rubbing on my flat stomach that carries our soon-to-be edition and walks down to look for our now six years old twins.

We just found out yesterday that I am pregnant and Matteo was over ecstatic.

To celebrate it, he pops some champagne for himself and made me drink juice and eat vegies with the twins being spoiled with their favorite food and snacks.

How amazing he is and the extra celebration was, you all know how we spend our night and this morning together behind closed doors.

In all that we're all happy to find out that we're going to have another pup in the family and my two boys couldn’t wait to have another sibling.

"Mason, Mathew" I call out as I made my way down the living room.

They surprisingly came out from their hidden place and scream boo at me. I jump up with a scream holding my chest and luckily I didn't have any heart attack.

Oh gosh, I told you before these two are the death of me. I turn to scold them both but their father came inside the house calling them over.

I try to calm my breath with my right hand still on my chest and the other on my stomach. I saw their father whisper to them before they both nod their head and turn towards my way.

They walk with their head hung low and when they stood before me they look up with almost teary eyes.

"We're sorry mommy and we promise not to do it again," they both said in unison.

Damn it, these kids know how to warm, melt and break my heart.

"Oh dear, I love you both but just don't do it okay. My cute little wolves’"

I pinch on their cheeks and give each of them a kiss on the forehead. They both smile and jog away from me happily and into the living room playing with their toys.

Matteo came up to me and kiss me on the lips with his hand around my waist.

We both watch them play with their toys and giggle at one another. Between the two of us, Matteo is the one who spoils them a lot while I'm sort of pretty strict with them.

"Why does it have to be so unfair?" I mutter watching the kids as Matt drops small kisses to my neck and shoulder.

"What's not being fair?"

"Them having your looks and attitude while I have nothing" I pouted my lips like a child as he let out a laugh.

"Amore, Mason has your eyes," he said between his laughs

"Still he has your looks and your everything which I don't mind because I love you three.

Seeing them is like seeing you every day when you left for meetings or pack business trips," I turn and lay my hands on his shoulders before I put it around his neck.

"You know; you might be fortunate with this one" he put his hands on my stomach rubbing it gently.

"He or she might have your looks, attitude, and everything," he said and I push him off lightly.

"The moon goddess better is doing it or I swear I will usurp this world she created" I joke and he let out another laugh.

Sometimes later we made the twins ready and make our way outside of the house.

We are going to visit my parents’ grave and it's been so long since I went there. Well, the last time was when I have my memories back.

The pack members greeted us on our way and Jay wave in our way as we smile back and held on to our twin’s hands.

I trace my finger on the words engraved on their gravestone when we arrived there. I introduced the twins to them before asking Matt a time alone with my parents.

Here I am now on my knees before them. "I'm sorry, that I didn't come to visit you soon. I think you know how Wes and I have been doing these past years. I know that because we were fortunate to be free and live happily."

I look around at Matt and my kids playing on the other side.

"I'm happy mom and dad. I hope you're happy too up there" a tear slip out of my eyes.

"So thank you for bringing me into this world and thank you for looking after us. I pray you will continue to do so because we will always need your guidance."

I stood up wiping my tears and Matt in seeing me doing it came and stood beside me and holds me in his arms.

The twins began to chase around us before they both run towards Wes who emerged from the woods.

We watch as they both tackle down their uncle and they began to play around. I turn to find him staring at me.

"What?" I ask in confused

He licks his lips while giving me a sexy smoldering look "just remembering something that happens here" he said and Alera starts to wag her tail like a horny dog she is.

I look around and then I suddenly remember how he took me against a tree on that day.

I should be feeling sad or resentment over our past but no I'm just really happy and kind of horny right now.

Damn it! Blame these pregnancy hormones.

I hear him laugh then I remember he could hear my thoughts. I playful hit him on the chest before burying my face to his chest.

I held onto him tight whispering "I love you my Alpha, my forever, and my Matteo" I smile and he pulls me back removing strands of hair from my face.

"I love you more, my luna, my forever, everything, and my Adassah," he took my face in his hand and kisses me on the lips.

Afterward, I slightly push him off teasing him and he chases me towards our extra happiness.

None other, than the two little munchkins that we love so much and they are messing with my poor brother. Oh yes, and not forgetting the one growing inside of me.

THE END