Chapter 94: Chapter 94

Chapter 93

Going insane

Pershey Adejar's Point of View

‘I know you won’t believe me, but, it’s true what I said I love you, I love you so much then and even now. I know you won’t believe me but I used to avoid you, so that my feelings for you wouldn’t continue to develop. '

I shook my head to forget in my mind what Neil told me last night while we were at the Coffee Shop. I try to erase from my mind all the things he said but I still always remember them.

How can I believe just like that?

I stood up and walked closer to the window to close the window and curtain. I stopped. The sky will be dark as if it is raining again.

I was just looking at the shady clouds.

‘I meant everything that happened. I meant to avoid you and not talk to or even notice you. I avoid you but every time I avoid you, my feelings for you develop even more. '

I closed my eyes tightly when I remembered what he said. I took a deep breath as I looked up at the sky. The rain is falling again.

I sigh before I close the window. The climate is cold again.

I went straight to the bathroom to take a shower. I was already naked in those moments. I stared at the shower that was turned off.

‘I tried not to like you but when I was with you in the office, when you lost your cellphone, I fell completely.’

I turned on the shower and the cold water poured on my body, so I almost screamed in panic.

"He's lying," I said to myself just to get the lines he said out of my mind. Ever since he said those things, everything has always haunted my mind. I didn’t really sleep well last night because a lot of things were bothering my mind.

How will I believe him? It's hard to believe that he wanted me back then.

I turned off the shower for a moment and was stunned again.

‘You didn’t even notice at that time how fast my heart was beating, but I really like you. I don't know but it felt like my stomach was tickling when I asked you about your password. The first time you said that I heard it, I just asked for you to repeat it. I meant it. '

I opened the shower again. I was not surprised when the cold water poured into my body again. I was just stunned.

I didn’t know what I was going to do or how I was going to avoid remembering all the things he had confessed to me.

Did everything suddenly change for him?

I shook my head and rubbed my face with my palms.

“It’s too late,” I said. I went out of the bathroom and immediately changed. I was already wearing clothes and was just going to put sandals on my feet when I fainted again.

‘That’s why until now I’ve been avoiding you but it seems like I’m getting closer to you. I love you even more even though I know it's too late. I tried to unlove you because I hurt you before. '

I close my eyes tightly. I thought back to what happened on the confession stage-how he said he didn't like me and he would never like me.

I thought of lying down for a while. I stared at the ceiling. Many things are bothering my mind and there is something heavy in my chest.

Am I in pain?

I got up immediately and put on the sandals. I grabbed my bag and cellphone. I am waiting for Jess to call me but I have been waiting for Jess to call but he is not calling.

Is Jess really the one I'm waiting to call? I don't even understand myself. Is it Jess or Neil? Neil said that before he left, he would call to let me know if he had left.

Am I waiting for his call?

I do not know. I’m already confused with myself.

I opened my cellphone and the wallpaper immediately popped up on me. I haven't changed my wallpaper yet. That was still the wallpaper Neil had put up then. I can't imagine that until now...this is still my wallpaper. Neil came to my mind again.

Has he left yet? Why isn't he calling yet? He may have been on the airplane, so he never called.

Argh! What is it that haunts my mind? What can I think of!

I left the room. I knew it was still raining, so I went to the coffee shop. I know he left because he said he would call at 11:00 AM but it's already 12:00 PM. Maybe he's gone.

I immediately drove until I reached the Coffee Shop. I noticed immediately that no one was inside the shop.

Why is there no costumer when it rains? More costumers in the coffee shop when it is not raining.

I walked. I saw a man sitting on the side. There is already one costumer, plus me.

Is it possible that Neil is that man? —No! He had left before, but why didn't he even call?

I went inside. I ordered coffee caramel, as usual.

I sip coffee while walking slowly. I looked at the man sitting on the side. I can't see him because he's turned his back. He's wearing a black jacket. I noticed the suitcase on the side of the table, so I was surprised. I had an idea who he was but I was afraid to approach. Maybe he’s not that guy, I’ll just be embarrassed.

I don’t want to assume, maybe not him, but my feet pulled me closer to the man until I stop behind him.

I looked at him even though he turned his back. I noticed he was holding his cellphone. From where I was standing, even though I was behind him, I could see what he was doing on his cellphone.

He's ...

I saw my name on his cellphone and he seemed to be calling but he was just staring at the cellphone.

I couldn't understand but I suddenly mentioned his name, so he turned to me.

He was not surprised and neither was I. My eyes just blinked as I looked at him.

I moved and sat in the chair opposite him. I put the coffee on the table.

He is, but why is he still here? Did I think he was gone?

"W-w-why are you still here?"

He sipped his coffee first, he looked at me, and smiled, saying, "I'm really waiting for you to come."

I couldn't continue sipping my coffee, I put it down on the table.

"A-a-are you waiting for me?"

He smiled and nodded.

"It's raining now, I know you're coming here, so I've been waiting for you," he added. I was speechless because I also did not expect him to wait for me to come.

Whenever it rains, here I go. It’s like I’m looking for the place that gives me peace of mind.

"D-d-did you just arrive?"

“I've been here before, I'm waiting for you. I came here at 7:00 AM. ”

I was shocked by what he said. During those times, many troubled my mind. I thought he had left. I admit that I was really waiting for his call.

I do not know. There seems to be something wrong with me, in how I feel.

"I thought you left already."

“No. Maybe when I left, you suddenly came. We may get into trouble,” he explained.

"Why don't you just call?"

“I want to talk to you in person. I want to see you ... for the last time. ”

I sighed at what he said. I feel like something is wrong.

Am I sad because he is leaving? Can I tell him not to leave and stay here? - by my side?

I wish, I could, but ... I am scared to feel the pain I had felt before. I don’t want to fail, I don’t want to get hurt. I don't want to hope anymore.

He got up and took the suitcase. I followed him with my gaze.

Is he leaving?

“I have to go, Pershey,” he said and there is something weird in his voice. Something sluggish.

I want to speak and say don't let him leave but I can't. I didn't do anything until he left the shop while pulling the suitcase.

He's going to America.

I was alone in the coffee shop. I feel cold with the breeze. The coffee has cooled as well.

I was just looking outside. He has left and is on his way to the airport. I nan not understand myself.

I shouldn’t feel it but why do I feel it?

I want to stop him but why should I stop him? And who said I can't stop him? Huh?

I had an idea. I don’t know if it will be effective but I will do it.

I went to the orphanage and said take Jess. We got in the car and I drove.

I might not be able to reach Neil. He may have already boarded the airplane when we arrived at the airport.

I told Jess to stop him. This is the only way I can think of to prevent Neil from coming back to America. I don’t even know what I’m doing and why I’m doing it. I'm crazy maybe.

Do I still have feelings for him?

“Miss pretty, hurry up. The plane might fly. We may not be able to reach Brother Neil.”

I was more motivated to drive fast. I still need to be careful.

We were near the airport when suddenly there was traffic.

"Shit!"

"Bad word," he said, so I covered my mouth.

Why is there still traffic today? Traffic flow is not progressing.

We might not be able to reach Neil.

“Jess,” I called.

"Why?"

"Can you run?" I asked. He nodded. We immediately got out of the car. Shit! I'm maybe crazy, but don't mind me.

I left the car since it's traffic. I don't care what they do to my car anymore. I can just go to LTO.

I held Jess's hand while running even though I was wearing heels. We are close to the airport.

We were both out of breath when we arrived at the airport. The passengers are leaving. I can't find Neil.

Where is he now? Has he left yet?

Jess is also looking for Neil. We take a walk and look around. There were many passengers, so we didn’t see him right away.

He left, probably.